Hawaiian Destiny @onealoha - Tumblr Blog

After Ricky was killed, every day I woke up I thought about the decisions I made. I thought about my actions and how they would reflect upon myself.

I thought about...... What Ricky would say, in regards to my decision. Or what he would think about how I reacted, to everything I did.

It's been almost two years, I forget almost completely about hom.

I disregard the things ive been through "because its easier" when in actuality it makes me forget the lessons ive learned. I makes me react in a way as if ive never suffered. why do I do this to myself.

Why do I treat my deceased brother in this way.

I'm sick.

I'm an alcoholic.

ONLY I GOD CAN HELP ME NOW

#killed #brother #ricky #rip #respect #cali #confessions #sister #AA #alcoholics annonymous

GOD LOVES UGLY

Working in the food and liquor industry shows you the many faces of how ugly people really are. Unfortunately I don't have to be at work to see this ugliness. IM SURROUNDED BY IT! FACEBOOK: people gloating about the one week a year the'yre feeling generous (lent) get over yourself! INSTAGRAM: Are selfies a new ART!?!?!?! How can you be so self consumed. COLLEGE: = a sequel to highschool. CAN WE ACUTALLY LEARN SOMETHING INSTEAD OF MAKING FUN OF THE TEACHERS ACCENT? DRIVING ON THE ROAD: Hey guy that almost ran me off the road. Why don't you actually spend time to get your license and learn how to drive, then have the audacity to curse at me!? ROOMATES: WHY MUST YOU BE SO DIRTY, SO CARELESS TO EAT MY FOOD AND NOT REPLACE IT? TO WATCH ME CLEAN UP AFTER YOU DAY IN AND DAY OUT SOCIETY: Instead of worrying about when the next iphone is coming out or when walking dead premieres, why don't we practice focusing on enlightening our souls. Being a good person and giving thanks every day for the things WE have! THAT IS ALL

#GOD #LOVE #UGLY #RANT #ART #LENT #ROOMATES #SOCIETY

I feel broken. Once again. Life continues to challenge me. I have little to no motivation. I feel so alone. Even if I'm surrounded by people. Wouldn't it be great if I could just run away.

Dancing in the clouds.

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PLEASE REBLOG THIS, IT COULD SAVE A LIFE.

“On Friday January 10, 2014 my sister Nancy was last seen during her lunch break at El-Camino High School. Below is a missing persons flyer that I ask each of you to please share on your walls ESPECIALLY if you live in the Bay Area. With your help my family hopes to find my sister. If you have any info on her location please contact Detective Leach at the South San Francisco Police Department, you may reach her at 650-877-8900 and please reference Case # 14247. We also set up an email where we may be reached, [email protected] or you can contact me personally at 650-270-8205. Please keep her and my family in your prayers. Thank You”