rowan

one minute past midnight blog

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i saw this in an art installation in NYC called "the stranger's project" & it made me cry

" i am scared i will never get married.

i think there might be something broken about me. i don't know how to love right.

i can't even go on dates.

i don't know how to be when someone likes me.

i like that they like me, but i don't know what to feel back.

sometimes i think that i might be gay. or maybe asexual. i wish i had a word for what i am. i just want someone else to say they feel like i do. i want to know this is a way other people feel. i don't want to be unique.

tell me there are other people like this. please, someone, be like this too.

i can't feel desire they way everyone else seems so good at. when i was a kid, religion took my sexuality from me & gave me too much shame to ever figure out what my sexuality was supposed to be...

all i want is for someone to love me.

but god–to be loved is suffocating.

i just want to be a lizard sitting on a rock, warmed by the sun.

i want to kiss someone i love.

i want to know what i am. "

[xiazuela]

"I think we deserve a soft epilogue, my love.

We are good people and we've suffered enough."

— Seventy Years of Sleep # 4. nikka ursula (n.t)

[oneminutepastmidnightblog]

#005 - names i’d like to give my children

alice amelia/emilia (amy/emmie) elliot (ellie) rowan (ro) oliver (ollie) theodore (teddy/theo) daisy poppy noah juniper (june/junie) elowin (winnie) thomas arthur charlie  franklin (frankie)

[oneminutepastmidnightblog]

#004 - my quarantine schedule

i saw someone else do this and thought it’d be fun

6:00 - 10:00am / work online

10:00 - 11:30am / breakfast, break, get ready for the day

11:30 - 3:30pm / schoolwork

3:30 - 4:00pm / break time!

4:00 - 5:00pm / more schoolwork

5:00 - 5:30pm / dinner

5:30 - 7:30pm / down time (aka a movie or game)

7:30 - 8:30pm / get ready for bed 

8:30 - 9:30pm / more down time (honestly, this usually depends on the day)

[dacoparo]

.🖤

[hashtagloveloses]

there’s something soft and beautiful about playing animal crossing again and being excited to go to sleep because something new is coming to your town/island in the morning. in this absolute shit world, this game is like hey! you can feel like a child on christmas morning, just for your virtual plants. this game will be there for you. it will encourage you to stop playing and go to sleep and take care of yourself. thank you, tom nook.

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#003 - classical songs that make me feel some type of way

(these are mostly piano songs)

1 - claire de lune // debussy

2 - pathetique mov. 2 (piano sonata no. 8 in c major, op. 13) // beethoven

3 - gymnopedie no. 1 // satie

4 - un sospiro // liszt

5 - prelude in c sharp minor // rachmaninov

6 - moonlight sonata mov. 1 & 3 // beethoven

7 - fantaisie impromptu in c sharp minor op. 66 // chopin

8 - minute waltz // chopin

9 - le carnaval des animaux: le cygne // saint-saens 

10 - cello suite no. 1 in g major // bach

11 - nocturne no. 2 in e flat major // chopin

12 - adagio for strong // barber

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#002 - favorite books

okay so one thing about me is that i LOVE lists, so you’ll probably find a lot of lists on here. this is list is for all my favorite books (that i can think of). also this is not necessarily in a specific order, just in order of how i remember!

1) the thirteenth princess by diane zahler

2) the magician’s nephew by c.s. lewis

3) the harry potter series by jk rowling

4) nothing to envy by barbara demick

5) and then there were none by agatha christie

6) the murder on the orient express by agatha christie

7) number the stars by lois lowry

8) animal farm by george orwell

9) the question of miracles by elana arnold

10) pivot point & split second by kasie west

11) what if? by randall monroe

12) the hobbit by j.r.r. tolkien

13) snow white (the graphic novel) by matt phelan

14) the percy jackson series by rick riordan

15) the heroes of olympus series by rick riordan

16) the kane chronicles by rick riordan

17) any choose your own adventure book 

18) soundless by rachelle mead

19) once, then, & now (a trilogy) by morris gleitzman

20) famous last words by katie alender

21) the last lecture by randy pausch

22) the transatlantic conspiracy by g.d. falksen

23) the selection series by kiera cass

24) anthem by ayn rand

25) counting by 7′s by holly 

26) beastly by alex flinn

27) between shades of grey by ruta sepetys

28) to all the boys i’ve loved before series by jenny han

29) i am malala by malala yousafzai 

30) the curious incident of the dog in the night-time by mark haddon

[utwo]

Cave Camp Dolomites Italy

© E. Fox

[vintagehomecollection]

Alexander Calder in his home.

Celebrity Homes II, 1981

[oneminutepastmidnightblog]

wouldn’t it be so nice to wake up in this house & have a cup of tea while look out those windows?

[araigen]

morning acryl on paper

[oneminutepastmidnightblog]

#001 - hello!

hello!

my name is rowan and this is a little blog i decided to start in order to express myself a little bit. i love all sorts of things and i’m not sure what i want to focus on yet, but you’ll find all sorts of fun things on here.

what you’ll probably find on here for the next little while (until i decide what i want to narrow this blog down to—if and when i do) will include: thoughts and funny stories, poems and other writing of mine, photography, fashion, interior design, and maybe some other things, too! 

i’ve been wanting to start a blog for years, so i finally decided to make one. this is honestly just meant as a space for me to channel my creativity, so if you enjoy what i enjoy, feel free to follow!

my name “one minute past midnight” is meant to be representative of the fact that my inspiration always seems to strike after midnight (i.e. when i’m supposed to be asleep). it’s almost like clockwork, i swear. anyways…

welcome to my blog!