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I always make an effort to make sure others are fine but I wish that just once people could tell when something is wrong and make an effort to figure out what it is

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Most of the time sorry isn’t good enough…

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I cant sleep because I’m thinking of you but I know I shouldn’t be thinking of you.. We live in two different worlds for so many things and I kid myself to think there would ever be a chance :/ I don’t even know if I really like you but I do know you are a friend to me, it’s just a question of whether it’s anymore…

[onemorestepfromtheedge-blog]

I just did a really bad thing :'(

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I just want to go home and cry. I want to lay in bed a cry over the things I want and don't have. I want to be happy but I know I won't be right now and I never will truly be happy because I will always be alone. I want so much but I know I can't have any of it.

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He makes me smile, he makes me laugh, he means the world to me. He is my friend <3

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Just some of the things going though my head

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Just a mates sister... That's all I am and chances are i''ll never be anything more

[onemorestepfromtheedge-blog]

Those times when you know you're putting you foot in it but you have to say those things because you might never say them if you don't now

[onemorestepfromtheedge-blog]

When your mum constantly says you're ruining her life and don't care you eventually start to feel like a worthless piece of shit :/  

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I want to die right now, I feel judged, humiliated... I just want to go home :/

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always look on the bright side

Recently I have been feeling better, I have been happier and stronger. I have been feeling confident and I actually want to make an effort with people at school and just spending time with my friends :) The only thing I'm worried about is whether I feel more confident when one of my friends in particular isn't at school.. She was ill all of last week and I just felt a different person.. I hope I'm wrong though :/ We'll see tomorrow (that's is she's back)

[onemorestepfromtheedge-blog]

Photography is one of the only things that can make me happy, I can take myself away from my everyday troubles and be creative. I haven't actually been in a couple of months which is rather upsetting, only now do I really wonder whether this is why I have been feeling rather down recently..

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Introduction

So basically this is my second attempt at Tumblr. after my friends found my first account. At first I was fine with them knowing but now a difference in friendships has lead me to not want them to know about what is happening. I believe that if they want to know what is going on then they should ask rather than tracking down my Tumblr account :/ So anyway this is where I will open up about my life as well as being here for anyone who needs help. I want to help anyone I can so don't hold back; I'm here to help not judge :) Xx

[onemorestepfromtheedge-blog]

I don't really know what to do anymore