I definitely did go through a sexuality crisis, like other LBGTQ+ people.
Personally I was like “he’s cute, but that’s it” , then I was like “she’s cute, does that mean I’m a lesbian?” And then I was like “Oh she’s super cute, but that’s it.” And then I was like, “Yeah but I still think he’s cute, I’m bi. Definitely Bi.” and then you go around thinking that you’re bi or whatever, but when you like someone you either “don’t put in effort” or “don’t care enough” and when you tell people that you’re not really interested in the whole relationship aspect of things you get told “oh don’t worry, you’ll meet someone and that’ll all change,” but during all this you feel scared and broken. You either force yourself to have sex because “that’s what you’re supposed to do” or force yourself to be in relationships. Sacrificing your happiness for what “you’re supposed to do”
When finally, you have a word to describe it, asexuality, you understand yourself and feel like it’s gonna be okay for the first time in a long time, you finally find your place on the spectrum.
But, now you’re not straight enough for straight people and not gay enough for gay people, so you don’t tell anyone, just keep it to yourself.
You might meet someone, someone you want to be with, but because you’re too scared to tell them, you don’t, but when you do, they look at you like you’re disgusting, or they question it “how can you not want to have sex?everyone has to have sex” or “what about me?” And sometimes they get over it, other times they leave you, never to be heard from again.
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