Broken Girl

"In sickness, and in health...wait, I forgot. Only in sickness." RP blog of Megu Kakizaki from Rozen Maiden. Affiliated with Citta-Alveare. Indie-friendly! CW for Depression, Suicide, etc.

[tsungintou]

@onlyinsickness

This really wasn’t her type of place. Far too many people, it made her uncomfortable, even more so having to watch them all being happy and having fun. She shouldn’t be here, but she lost the bet and Megu asked for this. Just what was that crazy girl thinking– it was not like it would be fun hanging around a doll like her in this setting.

So there she was, sitting in a corner farthest from the crowd, giving off grumpy glares at anyone that came near while she waited for Megu.

[onlyinsickness]

The first thing she noticed upon entering the mansion was the massive crowd of people--was everyone in the city invited or something? She didn’t care one way or the other, but she knew Suigintou avoided large crowds (well, any type of crowd, really), so the doll had to be observing the party from a distance. Megu weaved her way through the crowd to the other side, and in the farthest corner of the room, she saw Suigintou sitting there, her knees drawn to her chest.

“Oh! There you are!” she exclaimed happily. Seeing Suigintou hunched in a corner with a grumpy look on her face reminded Megu of the time the doll sulked in the corner of her hospital room after Megu made her try some hospital food. She looked adorable. “What do you think of my costume? I decided to go as a devil, since you’re an angel and all. Fitting, right?”

[tsungintou]

She wanted to go? Well, at least she was wanting to do something that didn’t involve death. Suigintou wasn’t going to voice any objection in Megu going. Some fun and socializing might be good for the sick girl, but it is a place the doll definitely wouldn’t fit in well.

At the sudden and odd change of subject, the maiden couldn’t help but show her confusion.

“Hm? Once with one of my sisters, why do you ask?”

[onlyinsickness]

Good. She wouldn’t have to explain the rules, then.

“Heh heh. How about we play a few rounds? Best two out of three? If you win, I’ll do anything you say. Of course, the opposite applies if I win. What do you say?” Megu replied, ignoring Suigintou’s question. She kept the details vague in the hopes the doll would take the bait. If she lost, her plan would fail, but it was a risk she was prepared to take.

[tsungintou]

@onlyinsickness

She was visiting Megu again, not really with any plan in mind, just making sure she hasn’t keeled over and maybe listen to some of her singing. It was then that she noticed Megu seemed to be looking over those invitations that seemed to be sent to everyone in the city. 

“Are you interested in that farce?”

[onlyinsickness]

“Hm? Yeah, I’ve never been to a Halloween party before. I was planning on going.” The question Wanna come with? was on the tip of her tongue, but Megu forced it down. She knew the answer she’d receive in response to that question (even though it wouldn’t be a truthful one). 

That’s why she had a different idea in mind.

“Have you ever played ‘Rock-paper-scissors’?”

[crimsonguns-blog]

       ♢°.  -  “There has to be someone around here who can help me… right?” The boy paced up and down the street, feeling a sense of urgency moving through him.

[onlyinsickness]

“Hey Little Red Riding Hood, you look like you’re lost. Are you looking for your grandma’s house?” She snickered.

[inhyecng-blog]

╰☆╮The look on her face said something. She must not like her home. Perhaps it was a bad place. She won’t ask the lady about her home, especially if she made that kind of reaction. “I don’t want to forget. I’m not homesick….Hive City is home, but….I don’t want to forget where I was born….” 

[onlyinsickness]

“Why bother remembering where you were born? It’s not like you can go back there, after all. We’re trapped here,” Megu replied, tone still somewhat bitter. She was being a bit too harsh on the girl, she knew, but she couldn’t bring herself to care. Loathe as she was to admit it, she was jealous of the girl, jealous that she could speak of her birthplace so fondly.

[lavsart]

two cheebs

[inhyecng-blog]

╰☆╮The ocean wasn’t bad, despite not being all things, but it was still something to look at. In it’s own way, it’s still quite beautiful. Written all around her were the same syllables of the word home. Eyes flicks up to look at the lady who approached and then she’s looking back down and writing more again, “Home.” She says, but there’s no sadness or bitterness to her tone. “Home,” 

[onlyinsickness]

“Home, huh...”

As soon as she heard the word “home”, she frowned. For the majority of her life, “home” consisted of a cold, sterile hospital room. The scientists told her Hive City was her new “home”, and yet...it didn’t feel like one either. How frustrating.

She hated that word so much.

“I see. Why are you writing it over and over, though? You don’t seem homesick or anything, so why?”

[inhyecng-blog]

╰☆╮It took her a moment, longer than it should, actually…But she’s finally done it. She finally was able to write it. 

Written on the sand, in messy handwriting; 

ㅈ ㅣ ㅂ ……                ‘…..집….’

She seems quite relaxed about this, sitting next to it and staring as the sun began to set in Hive City.  Home……Home…

[onlyinsickness]

Megu had never seen the ocean back in her world, so she decided to see the one here, and she wasn’t disappointed. The sight of the setting sun striking the water was breathtaking. 

She was surprised, however, to see the only other person here was a girl with long blonde hair sitting in the sand. Interest piqued, she approached the girl to see what she was doing.

“What are you writing?”

[tsungintou]

You Belong To Me, So No Dying! (Closed with onlyinsickness)

[tsungintou]

There was nothing very grandiose about being eaten by a doll. It was a horrible and painful thing, proof of just how much of a sinful existence a Rozen Maiden was. Yet this girl was so excited over it, always begging for it like it was something beautiful and heavenly. It was uncomfortable to hear thank yous when she was gonna perform such a horrible ritual. 

She couldn’t stand to look at such a smiling face thanking her. So instead, she looked towards something different, something she really probably should have paid more attention to but was too focused on Megu to actually care much about. It was the mob of people, they didn’t seem to notice the two originally and Suigintou was hoping it would stay that way, but it seem like it wasn’t going to. It was only a few people that noticed them out of an entire mob, so it probably wasn’t that bad, though it was wise to be careful.

At least Megu wanted to get someplace safe, that was enough to comfort the doll a little as she prepares their escape. Of course, she was going to do it in a very Sugintou-like fashion.

The dark maiden gave those few ready to fight a mischievous smile as she looks down on them.

“Really? You dare raise your weapons at me? Haa~ I could almost laugh at how pathetic you all look.”

Of course, such a taunt made their focus shift more towards the doll than Megu. Just as she planned, of course. One member of the group seemed to take to the bait a little too much, and with anger, tried to throw a knife with a strange red aura at her, only for it to be met with two feathers. Both of which formed an ‘x’ and prevented it from hitting it’s target. Before gravity could even cause the knife to fall, it disappeared and reappeared in the NPC’s hand.

“You are not even worth my time to kill boredom with.”

With the point being made that she wasn’t someone to mess with foolishly, Suigintou made a wall of black feathers separating them from her and Megu. It should last them just long enough to get away at least. That’s two uses of her power up, hopefully she wouldn’t have to use the third. 

She turns towards Megu, a prideful smile on her face over her performance was present now.

“Now then, shall we find someplace quieter?”

[onlyinsickness]

“Whoa…”

Megu knew Suigintou had fought her sisters many times before, but this was the first time she was able to actually witness her fighting. It was every bit as amazing as she’d thought it’d be. But now was not the time to stand around in awe. They had to find someplace safe.

“The entrance to District Epsilon isn’t too far from here. We should be safe there. Follow me!” Megu ran as fast as she could (which wasn’t much), guiding Suigintou to the entrance a few blocks away. Luckily, they didn’t encounter any more NPCs along the way.

They descended down the rotting, spiral staircase into the underground library to find…absolutely nothing. Well, nothing that wasn’t usually there, like the moldy books and collapsed shelves. Looked like Megu was right—they would be safe from the chaos above down here.

And they were…for a while.

After a few days had passed, the entire district suddenly shook, as if struck by an earthquake. More shelves collapsed and parts of the ceiling caved in.

“Cough, cough…what…just happened…?” Though she wasn’t hurt physically, the fallen rubble created a cloud of dust which was too much for her poor lungs to handle. Once the dust cleared, she saw what caused this mess: a swarm of drones.

And there was nowhere to run.

“Suigintou…!”

[frostswake]

Seles didn’t react at first, thinking that the girl must be waving to someone else. Only when the stranger kept looking at her did she realize that the girl was referring to the hat she wore. Seles stopped in her tracks, retraced her steps so that she was standing in front of her, and crossed her arms.

“I am not ‘Hat-san’. My name is Seles. And no, I haven’t seen a doll.” Wasn’t the girl past that age where one carried a doll? Nevertheless, Seles endeavored to be helpful, but she was also realistic.

“You’re going to have a hard time finding it in a park as large as this. Where did you last have it with you?”

[onlyinsickness]

“’Seles’, huh? What a weird name. ‘Hat-san’ suits you better, don’t you think?” Having to remember people’s names in addition to their faces was too much of a hassle in Megu’s opinion, so she gave everyone she met a nickname, whether they liked it or not. Most people—such as the girl standing before her—seemed to fall in the latter category.

Megu rubbed her chin, her eyes closed in thought, in response to the girl’s question. “Hmm…I remember us sitting underneath a huge tree beside a large pond…I was brushing her hair when, all of a sudden, I blacked out and found myself back ‘home’,” she spat, as if she had tasted something foul, and reopened her eyes. At least the scientists, for whatever reason, had decided to bring her to this city again. Feeling a better after that thought, she quickly washed away the bitterness from her face with a smile.

“As you can see, I’ve been brought back here, but…I don’t remember where that pond is. Could you help me find it?”

[tsungintou]

You Belong To Me, So No Dying! (Closed with onlyinsickness)

[tsungintou]

“Foolish girl…”

Suigintou’s eyes shifted to some of the destruction caused by those crazed people and the refocused on Megu. If she left things as they were Megu would definitely try something again, ans she might not be able to catch her next time. The thought of someone as beautiful and perfect as Megu becoming cold and lifeless made her wings twitch slightly. She couldn’t allow that, not ever.

But forming a contract? By doing that Suigintou would also be putting her in danger. If she was not careful in battle, she might take accidentally take energy from Megu… She might end up consuming her… That was also something Suigintou couldn’t allow, she needed to be able to beat her sisters to save Megu, and if she had to be so careful she might not be able to succeed. Perhaps she could if she was picking them off one by one, but that damn Shinku made sure they were never fighting alone. The dark maiden didn’t have much confidence in being able to beat them at her current strength, holding back to make sure she didn’t draw any power from Megu’s soul might just cost her life.

Though, if it was to keep Megu alive even a little longer, then Suigintou was willing to make that simple sacrifice. Megu’s life was infinitely more important than some worthless doll’s. 

“If I do… then will you stop being so foolish as to run off to your own demise without my permission?”

[onlyinsickness]

“Yes, of course! Oh, thank you, thank you, thank you!” she responded excitedly, practically jumping up and down. She hadn’t felt this happy since the day they met.

She was happy that she would get to die, of course, but there was more to it than that. All her life, she felt like a burden—to the doctors, the nurses, her parents…but now, she felt a little less useless. A little less worthless. It didn’t matter how little energy she could provide Suigintou, so long as it helped the doll in some way.

For so long, she wondered why someone as broken as her was born. Perhaps…perhaps becoming Suigintou’s medium was the reason.

Megu turned toward the angry mob again. Most of them were still focused on fighting other outsiders, but a few had broken off from the crowd, whispering amongst themselves and occasionally glancing at her and Suigintou. Then, with weapons raised, they started to approach.

“As eager as I am to form the contract…I don’t think those people are gonna sit back and let us do it. Ugh, we need to find someplace safe where we can wait out this whole mess,” she complained. She never thought she’d utter the phrase “we need to find someplace safe”, but there was always a first for everything, she supposed.

[tsungintou]

You Belong To Me, So No Dying! (Closed with onlyinsickness)

[tsungintou]

Suigintou had to pause for a second at that declaration. Of course that would be this girl’s reason for being out in a dangerous place, what else would it be? But she couldn’t allow that, no, Megu didn’t deserve it, she deserved hope. Hope that Suigintou wanted more than anything to give to her, but she just needed time, time to defeat her sisters and obtain their Rosa Mysticas, time to figure out how to stop the pain that comes from their rejection, It was time she needed and time was always getting harder to obtain, wasn’t it?

How annoying is it that she, who was given endless time, is worrying about time of all things.

As much as she wanted to scream at the girl chosen to be her medium, tell her just how much she didn’t want her of all people to die. Tell her how she plans to save her. Suigintou knew Megu well enough to know such things would probably not work anyway, even if she could actually manage such words. Instead, she had to take her usual approach to things, the one she always curses herself to using on someone that shines so brilliantly as Megu does.

So, without breaking her facade once, she replied with a disinterested expression.

“As titillating as that sounds, I would have to refuse. Now, who gave you permission to do this? I certainly don’t remember doing so, since I believe I was the one who was suppose to take your life.”

As much as the doll hated acting so possessive of someone that was definitely so much better than her, it was the only way she could think to at least keep the girl from doing stupid stuff while still being able to deny that she grew attached to her.

[onlyinsickness]

Megu became a little disappointed at hearing Suigintou’s refusal, but perked right back up due to what she said next. It seemed the doll still intended to grant her wish. But when? Her death was long overdue, and she was so, so tired of waiting.

“Sorry for acting out of line; I guess my impatience got the best of me,” the girl said as she scratched the back of her head. “But faced with a temptation as tantalizing as death, can you blame me? It’s human nature to desire that which is forbidden—just look at Adam and Eve.”

When she spoke of death, her blue eyes always sparkled like the ocean’s surface on a sunny day. The thought of ending her life (and subsequently her constant pain) was such an exciting one that it always brought a smile to her face. But what made her the happiest of all was that she could be of some help to Suigintou. To think someone as broken and worthless as her could be of use to someone as beautiful and perfect as her angel! It didn’t matter how little of a boost of power her life would provide, so long as it helped Suigintou in some way. Seeing how the doll suffered after fighting with her sisters had been too much to bear—how badly she wished she could have taken her pain away!

“If it’s my life you want, it’s all yours. If you’re truly serious about taking it…then why not hand over the ring of contract? Actions speak louder than words, after all.”

[tsungintou]

You Belong To Me, So No Dying! (Closed with onlyinsickness)

@onlyinsickness

People were fighting, that is what Suigintou knew. The people who seemed to be original inhabitants of this world were fighting the people whom who brought here. It was dangerous, but not something she originally cared about, since being what she was, she could just pretend to be a normal doll and no one that didn’t know her would bat an eyelash. 

The Rozen Maiden had no reason to be afraid, she was completely safe.

That was until she saw a familiar back, with familiar long hair with tiny braids that seemed to sway perfectly as they walked. It was someone she couldn’t let walk around alone during a time like this, out in the open. Just like some suicidal maniac… which they were, but that is not the point.

Breaking free from the stillness she was keeping up to avoid detection from the original residents, the doll flew up and towards that familiar person. She stopped herself short of grabbing the back of their shirt, instead merely crossing her arms and speaking up to get their attention.

“And what exactly do you think you’re doing?”

Although her expression and tone made her seem heavily annoyed, Suigintou was really worried right now. Considering she wasn’t paying attention to others, she had zero idea where anyplace that was safe could be.

[onlyinsickness]

Fighting had broken out in the streets, the scale of which the sickly girl had never seen before.  Any sane individual as powerless as her would run away to somewhere safe as soon as possible.

But she was not sane.

She was like a wounded gazelle before a hungry pride of lions—a wounded gazelle willing to offer itself as their meal, that is. Calmly watching the chaos before her, she contemplated which person to best approach. Did she want to die by blade? By gun? Maybe by fire? The possibilities were endless! She was about to decide, when she heard a familiar voice.

“Heh heh, isn’t it obvious? I’m going to kill myself. You’re welcome to join me if you’d like,” Megu said teasingly. Truly, she’d rather have Suigintou take her life, but since the doll kept refusing to, she had no choice but to take her death into her own hands. It would take more than mere words to stop her.

[onlyinsickness]

@wilderess

Hmm. She’s not here, either.

After finding the way out of District Epsilon, Megu headed straight to Sector 6. Sector 6 was where her black angel resided…or at least, was supposed to. She went to her apartment, only to find entirely new residents there. Then, she tried searching the parks in the area, but she had no luck there, either. She had no idea where else she could be.

At a loss, Megu sat down on a park bench, planning her next course of action. She could try asking someone, but whom? Just then, a young girl with pink hair walked by—she would have to do, Megu supposed.

“Excuse me Hat-san, have you seen a doll in black at all? I seem to have lost her.” She waved slightly to the girl, hoping to grab her attention.

[onlyinsickness]

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[onlyinsickness]

Megu opened her eyes and was surprised to see grey, concrete walls instead of pristine white ones. She appeared to be in some sort of ancient, underground library.

Where…am I?

Had she been transported to that weird city again? She hadn’t fully explored it before, so it was possible. It didn’t really matter if it was the same city or not, though. All that mattered was that she wasn’t in that damn hospital room. Hopefully, she’d never wake up in her hospital bed again.

[sanguinetactics]

The contract.. the thought of that once again brought some fear into Morgan’s eyes and ears. Knowing what the supposed end of the contract would be if it went through.. Megu would get what she wanted in earnest death, Suigintou would gain the power she wanted at the cost of her sisters’ lives and it was supposedly a happy ending for both. And she had no real evidence suggesting otherwise.. 

Morgan gulped. He knew what answer she wanted and what answer was the right one. If he lied about it, both of them would be angry but.. he could not see the joy someone could find in something like death. He just couldn’t. But she was expecting an answer.. maybe he could think of something for the time being.. just.. to buy some kind of time. Maybe then things would work out.. 

“ Well there are some.. complications right now. She can’t.. really make contracts because in this city.. powers and weapons are stolen from you for some time.. it takes some time as well to get them back so she can’t do so.. immediately. I’m sorry.. but I.. think she still wanted to, yes! “ 

[onlyinsickness]

At Robe-kun’s answer, she frowned. Powers and weapons were stolen from you here?  Probably the work of those stupid scientists; if they had the ability to transport people from multiple worlds, then she supposed they could do something like that as well. Thankfully, if what he said was true, the loss was only temporary.

“So, I have to wait even longer, then? Sigh. I hope I don’t keel over before she can make contracts again, or all of my waiting will have been for nothing…” she complained. If there was one thing she was “good at,” it was waiting—not that she enjoyed it. But for Suigintou’s sake, she would do anything.

“What does she have to do to be able to make contracts again? Is there anything I can do to expedite the process?” she asked eagerly. “I apologize if I’m annoying you with all these questions…if you have any more for me, I don’t mind answering.” She was prepared to answer any question, no matter how inane, if it would make him trust her. The more he trusted her, she figured, the more information she could get out of him.