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[chaewonsgirl]

God....damn.

[oopsamy]

AMY’S JOURNAL 12th of April 2020

Hi. Wow. It took me almost two years to find this journal. I’m sorry that I haven’t given you a life update. I’ll use your lost as my lame excuse even though you were just under my bed for years and I was just lazy to pick you up. Or maybe I WAS scared to open you again. I was uneasy and unsure if had already moved on from the past. But right now, I am proud to say that I did moved on! I have a lot of good news, even an old and torn journal like you would get shocked. Details are as follows:

1. I got a new pet. It’s been a few months now since I got her. She is a pig. LITERALLY! She’s a small potbellied pig who likes to sleep at the corner of the room. She is so calm and relaxed compared to me. She reminds me of Osu so much. Rest in peace, Osu. -- I never thought I would get another pet but I feel like Osu gave me her to help me heal. The two are so alike, aside from the fact that Blythe loves cuddling so much. Maybe that’s why! I complained before about Osu hating cuddles. I wanted a dog just like Foxie and cat like Osu and that is Blythe!

2. I had some career changes! I went back to work for my father. We are slowly “liking” each other if that is the correct term. But after his wife passing, he became softer as the time passed by. He is much less harsh with his words and actions and I can now freely go to his house, he really welcomed me in. Okay, back to career! Well, I took the job as the C.E.O of LK group of companies. I was a bit scared but his people really helped me through. I slowly getting why he is a workaholic. The people around him, his employees and their families inspired him to work so hard. He is basically feeding thousands of families and I want to be part of that. 

3. I met a man. His name is Cha Hyunseung. He’s been there in the background for a while and then we decided to hang out outside of work and we kicked off! REALLY KICKED OFF! He was so shy and I was afraid of shy people because I don’t know what goes in their heads. We were very comfortable but we never had the chance to meet outside but I am so glad we did. I invited him over. Well, forcibly but it was the best thing that ever happened to me and rest is history. It seems fast between us but I love him so much and maybe that was the problem with me before. I used to plan out everything in my head. But with him, it is so different. We’re spontaneous. So spontaneous that I am three weeks pregnant and engaged! I have his mother’s ring on my finger! Who would have thought, right? Amelia Curtin Lee is going to be a mom and is getting married. What’s so surprising about all of this is my dad approved of him. I am so happy with him. He makes me feel so alive. Maybe that was what my ex (Jaesik) meant before when he said I make him want to live. This is the feeling. Papa Cha gives me a reason every single day to wake up. I have something to look forward to. I love him with every part of me. I can talk about him all day long. I talked too much as usual. Life is going so great. So great that sometimes, I am afraid that everything might be just a dream. You know, sometimes I wished I wrote down the dark part of my life. I want to read back and tell my old depressed self that “Hey! Stop sulking! Life will get better. You have to go through break ups. You can face your addiction! You can fight and you can be sober. You can do anything. It’s okay to explore your sexuality. You are not a slut! You will be loved. You are loved in so many ways. You have to be with the wrong people to see the right person for you! So, relax. Calm down. Amy, just breathe. You’re almost there. Be patient and stay kind. You are strong. You are strong for crying. You are strong for breaking down. For losing yourself for a while and finding who you really are after a while. Good job!” I really wish i could talk to my old self so she wouldn’t feel so alone. But, I am so proud that she made it through. Look at me now! I made it through. Love, 

Mrs. Amelia Lee Cha.  A.K.A. Chamelia

[shark-who-said-fuck]

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[outfit-of-the-day-girls]

[oopsamy]

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00psamy feeling extra edgy... 

[hoodwinkme]

[stunningsunmi]

[oopsamy]

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00psamy   say hi to my ex. @jashiq

[destruqtiv]

“did you expect anything different?”

[oopsamy]

“well, you did get a haircut so of course, i’ll be expecting a difference.”

[oopsamy]

AMY’S JOURNAL

9th of June 2018, Saturday

I woke up pretty early today. Too early, I must say. Who even wakes up at 4 in the morning? Obviously, not me. I have to drive back Foxie to Yeosu. I’m sure his dad misses him so much, I wouldn’t blame him. the dog was cuddler. A GOOD CUDDLER. I wish Osu was as affectionate as him but you can’t really compare a cat to a dog. 

Things haven’t been great. i lost contact with my brother, not sure where to find him but soon I will and I will kick his nutsack. How dare he not contact me? I’ve been quite drained too, emotionally, mentally and physically. Not that I’m complaining but I wish I can split my body into two for my job. I should consider being a housewife and just give up and let my dad marry me off to some mogul. NOT GONNA HAPPEN.

Anyway... around noon, I’ll be meeting Jae and I hope we clear things out after the “forgetting of monthsary” incident. I wasn’t actually sure why I overreacted, I usually don’t care about those things. Or maybe I went over board and assumed that it would be a 50/50. I’m sure we’ll resolve this, it’s not really a big deal anyway. 

OH! FINALLY someone took up my offer and became my roommate and luckily he’s a neat freak. I love neat freaks, thanks to my OCD. And he’s pretty quiet too so I don’t have to worry about him, the only con is that we both can’t cook so I guess we’ll be living off instant food.

Hm.. That’s pretty much it I guess. I’ll write back soon.

                                                                                                          - LEE AMY

[oopsamy]

siqish:

“That’s good enough. Are you trying to entice me though…? I’m really looking forward to our first Autumn and Winter together– to stay in all weekend with movies, warm meals and cuddles…”

“Yeah, entice you with my body odor.” She let out a small chuckle, lying down on the couch. “Do you want to cook for me?” Her brow raised, hinting him that he should cook some food for them.

[oopsamy]

xkknjh:

Taking this all in at once was a little too much for him, well it wasn’t a lot, but it just seemed like it at the moment. He obeyed her movements and followed closely.” Uhm .. Yes, I think I do? Like a step-dad? Wait wait..” His words went quiet for a minute with his hand up as a way for her not to talk as he thought, soon snapping his fingers. He was for sure he got the answer this time around. “A sugar daddy? A pimp?!”

She finds them a seat, slumping down on the chair, gasping for air. “That was fun,” she mused, chuckling softly. Her smile dropped at the mention of the terms pimp and sugar daddy, reaching over the table to slap his arm. “Yah! Do I look like I’m one of those girls? I’m not discriminating them but seriously? Do you really think I need a sugar daddy?” She leaned back on her seat, folding her arms across her chest. “He’s my real dad but he has a different family know and I don’t want to live with them.”

[oopsamy]

ahndidas:

“did i hear that correctly? you’re trusting me to cook?” okay, he’s not that terrible. but his experience is as gourmet as instant noodles and scrambled eggs. mediocre. it’s why he doesn’t cook for anyone other than himself– so the damage is singular. he prods the girl with his socked foot, once or twice only to see if she had passed out in the two seconds of silence after she collapsed. “hey, at least tell me what you want to eat– so i can look up the recipe and probably still mess it up.”

she pretends to be sleeping, shutting her eyes close while hugging her pillow but she couldn’t take the fact the he is using his foot to poke her. in a snappy manner she sat up, slapping his leg. “yah! you’re disgusting. -- i want seafood ramen. you know where my kitchen’s at and i have loads of ramen pockets on the counter. thank you,” she cooed, shooing him away. “oh and please,” she added as if that would make her polite. 

[oopsamy]

zenosyvn:

The latter’s question somehow sucked all the enthusiasm out of her effortlessly. Realizing that she was the only one who is hyped about the matter was slightly embarrassing ( a trait of hers that needed correction still, as per told by someone ). “It’s Shizuru.“ She chuckled sheepishly. “My bad, I just get excited so easily that I might have come off annoying.“

She shook her head, waving her hands dismissively. “No, no, no...--  I wasn’t able to ask your name in the first place,” she mused. Offering her hand out for a shake, a small smile plastered on her face. “You’re not annoying. -- I’m annoying.” She let out a short chuckle. 

[oopsamy]

siqish:

“Mhm, of course I do. I’ll love you even when you rot in the ground or burnt to ashes… you should still shower though–” 

“But it’s cold and cozy plus I am super lazy today... I did brush my teeth though.--- I don’t stink, right?” 

[oopsamy]

“I didn’t take a shower today. Will you still love me?” @siqish