citrus of my eye

how come it is the robbed's mind where the robbery lingers but the robber lives free

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you were my everything but for you i was just convenient

you to me, i to you || orchideves

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if you were here you would make it all better

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all i know is that my heart still sputters whenever you're around

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reading the words of people grieving for their lovers brings your name - your name only - to the forefront of my mind although, to be honest your name was there regardless

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how traumatized must you be to want to erase all the memories and sweep them all away into nothing and pretend they never existed

trauma || orchideves

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i wish i could smooth over your every creased brow every crooked smile every catastrophic thought. i wish i could calm down your waves so only still waters remain

you, hurt || orchideves

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late night is all the intoxication i need to send me stumbling into your arms

exactly my brand of heroin || orchideves

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if i am in a crowd without you by my side it is the same as being alone at home.

alone in a crowd || orchideves

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seeing you hurt breaks me

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to have someone promise you the sun the stars the entire sky and abandon you the way he did -

i am so sorry || orchideves

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how silly of me to think that you were a prince just because you wore a prince's clothes

devil in disguise || orchideves

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i wonder if there is enough time in the universe to erase the memories tying me to you

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the truth is, there is no story. there is merely a girl, in love with a boy, who was not.

not enough for a story || orchideves

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if i ever trust you again let you in again love you, again it is my fault even when it's yours.

my fault || orchideves

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"I missed you so much," he says, his fingers reaching out to touch my cheek. I smile slightly, looking at his eyes. "Did you?" His expression tightens and his hand drops. "Do you not trust me?" "No," I say. "I don't."

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He looks at me across the silent room. "What's different about him?" I think before answering. "He doesn't tell me he loves me," I say. He's puzzled as expected. "He shows me," I say. "He proves it to me." I smile lightly. "In other words, he is what you weren't."

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my mind cannot wrap itself around the idea that someday somewhere someone will fall in love with me and just me

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