Whatever I Think About

[orwelliansharpener]

Idk man, it’s just that isn’t it so crazy that all these slop YouTube meme guys if they still exist still use the same early 2010s era text message screenshots with the same old GUIs. Made unique stuff for one decade and stopped

[orwelliansharpener]

There’s an inherent anger I think all people contend with when seeing great social inequality and injustice. Yet some chose to direct it to those who’re suffering since it allows them to dissociate from them as fundamentally other and thus no way can they suffer like that. Others chose to direct it to a system allowing suffering, maybe both aren’t fully wrong, but only the latter lets people chose to help them.

[orwelliansharpener]

The idea of a career politician imo is so fucking inane in itself it’s a tragedy that’s it’s normalized.

Politicians are fucking public servants, they were meant to be well meaning members of the public serving for limited times. Yet, all around the word many free nations have fucking devolved and placed in such a strong bipartisan stranglehold that we let nepo-baby idiots control us and serve a bajillion terms.

[orwelliansharpener]

I feel like a lot of people who do what society deems cringe are constantly distancing themselves from their past selves, as like an escape mechanism. You know, like I understand that yes what’s odd now is normal when you were 14 or whatever.

But I feel like now if people feel embarrassed they’re constantly running away from their own selves trying to find refuge in a vague future where they can be so radically different from their current selves as to be able to ruthlessly bully themselves. But you’ll rarely if ever be truly different, that part is still you know a part of you.

And how sad is it to run away, just to tear down a part of you?

[orwelliansharpener]

Something that irks me as someone in high school is this expectation that one needs to be exceptional in exchange for a normal life

By that I mean that someone who just a simple existence shouldn’t need to be the most fantastical exceptional student with ceaseless ambition. When did being normal not lead to a normal life? Isn’t this absurd.

I think it’s hit attitude prevailed a lot of responses to poor people where they’re told to be exceptional without acknowledging that they shouldn’t have to be.

[orwelliansharpener]

I PROMISE IM NOT TRYING TO BE NONCHALANT OR A COOL BOY IM JUST SOCIALLY ANXIOUS AND BAD WITH EMOTIONS

[orwelliansharpener]

When time is moving so fast the only way you keep track is by how quickly your home screen is filled up

[orwelliansharpener]

I’m a boy right and I’m sick so I unironically watched 16 episodes of Gossip Girl in one day

[orwelliansharpener]

I know it’s kind of random but something that has made my days start much better is just saying hi to my bus driver in the morning. I’ll come out smile and wave and we’ll have a little convo. It just happened and idk it makes me feel like the world doesn’t hate me.

[orwelliansharpener]

Isn’t it kinda crazy that mediums of media like paper have their own mind, own intelligence?

This first came up for math in my experience. Like when you write out an equation and each step but sometimes you forget a value for instance but because of the memory I guess stored.

So yeah when you impart ideas it’s still in someway yours but now it exists completely independently regardless of how you exist.

[orwelliansharpener]

Nothings more extraordinary than being ok with being ordinary.

[orwelliansharpener]

As an artist I don’t think the goal should be to simply be preeent in your readers mind.

I hope for something so vivid, so evocative, so simple as to act as a memory like anyone else. Use whatever medium possible, but at the end there should be a hole in the heart of the reader/audience like their own life has been stripped.

When you opt for more, how do I say it, crude measures something gets fulfilled but that something is not governed by your soul.

Be so powerful, be so fearless in your art, eo different that the reader has to consider you and think about you for they have never and will never see anything again.

[orwelliansharpener]

So a perfect burger in a way I think is five guys double bacon cheeseburger. But if I could add stuff I love I want to try (unless specified assume five guys):

2 potato buns

2 patties

Pickles, caramelized onions, lettuce, mushrooms

BUFFALO mozzarella omg imagine

Sauce

It’d be amazing dk

[orwelliansharpener]

Sometimes I think how humans can’t think in negatives, but is argue they can certainly feel. When someone dies you mourn their absence which is a negative. Maybe that’s why death is so hard to think about.

[orwelliansharpener]

Ideas that keep me up #1

You know how in math, if a line has an arrow, it means it is going on forever? There are millions of papers and lines with those drawings. And the lines are still going on into infinity. All around us is probably a couple of lines from a math paper halfway across the world.