poems n shit

the land inside my head

[osteo-necrosis]

Pointless

Stand in my rain

Tell me I am wrong

That I am weak 

And you are strong

I’ve done all I can

Been all I could be

But it’s nothing to you 

And nothing to me

[osteo-necrosis]

Blood Stained Veins

The pain in my bones

Every blood stained vein

Down to my toes

Up into my brain

Leaves me no story

There's nothing to tell

Come with your glory

In your hollowed out shell 

[osteo-necrosis]

Under Blue

The water is lapping

Soft and slow

Slowly rising

Higher. Higher.

The wounds now under

Under the blue

And you can’t see me 

And I can't hear you

[osteo-necrosis]

Sweet Dirt

No room left for me

Look up from down under

Under the dirt

Under the years

And the air is sweet 

For the very first time

And I am alone

Away from my pain

And I am content

With nothing to show

Please don’t find me

I've nothing to give

[osteo-necrosis]

Safety

These walls

Are my own

They’ve been built

For a reason

The reason is mine

Fear nothing from me

Through the evil valley

My trees do flourish

I water them gently

They keep me from you

At the top of the hill

The demon lay dreaming

I wake him from slumber

When darkness does fall

I am safe here

With colours my own

Nobody can enter

To take this from me

[osteo-necrosis]

Reminders of Distance

Deliver me days

Of fragrant flowers

Curtains all blowing

From fresh summer air

Warm jam cooling

By the bubbling kettle

Cats all purring

With bellies sunned up

Parrots outside

Munching on apples

Crickets all singing

From spaces unknown

Salt waves splashing

Wet rocks shining

Sunlight near dying

As colours set in

Fresh cotton sheets

Fan gently spinning

Window just open

Time for a sleep

[osteo-necrosis]

Me & My Bubble

I’m not alone

But nobody I see

Nobody comes near

Nobody but me

Twisting and tying

And finishing off knots

Inside my bubble 

Is all that I gots

[osteo-necrosis]

Days End

Insanity holds me

As memories fold me

People torment me

Ever so gently

Heat burns me deeply

But always discreetly

The violence inside

Permits me to ride

My eyes don't see

What was meant for me

The gentle illusion

Was just a delusion

The morbidly old

Were quietly cold

The end of the street

Was decidedly neat

As flames all around

Burnt me to the ground

..... and that was the end of the day

[osteo-necrosis]

Breathless

Everything’s a battle

A struggle in the end

They’re all here 

But noone's near

Don't wanna be ur friend

A monolithic triumph

To reach the final round

Climb on board

Lay down your head

No need to make a sound

[osteo-necrosis]

Blindly Masked

My mask makes me tired

And weary and old

It leaves me forsaken

And out in the cold

I can see nothing

There’s nothing to see

But I can see you 

And you can see me

[osteo-necrosis]

The Lovely Butler

The lovely butler saw me

As through my skin

You tore me

But you will never wore me

As me, I fade away

[osteo-necrosis]

Blood Drips Down

Blood drips down

All over the town

As people smile

Who cannot see

Laws mean nothing

When everything’s gone

No will to remember

No need to stay strong

Momentum is growing

As cracks, they are showing

The toll, it is taking

The lives are forsaken

People in suits

Just walking around

As blood they can’t see

All over the town

[osteo-necrosis]

The Big Share

A three pence

A tuppence

A cent or a dime

You won’t need nuthin

When your time is mine

You’ll come and you’ll see

As you turn it around

You’ll flip it and twist it

To see what you’ve found

You’ll narrowly miss it

When walking away

Another soul taken

I bid you good day

[osteo-necrosis]

Old Love

Fuck off

You old grimy

And dim witted git

It’s for your cold body

This jumper, I knit

Now leave me in peace

And never come near

So I can finish

Your loving made gear

[osteo-necrosis]

The Gun Stays Empty

There’s too much water 

Under my bridge

My baggage is full

But I have no home

The bucket overflows

But the glass stays empty

The walls have ears

So I live in silence

The horse won’t drink

But I see he’s thirsty

The gun is loaded

Only in my dreams

[osteo-necrosis]

Your Little Inconvenience

I realised today

The role I play

In your privileged lifestyle

Miles away

I am

Your little inconvenience

You’ll be out with the girls

Or up with the boys

Gossip and grog

And expensive toys

You hope and you pray

That I’ll go away

Your tainted blood

Your little stray

I am

Your little inconvenience

I’m sorry I ruin

Your perfect world

Less than was wanted

Boy or girl 

But the problem is

As I can see

I don’t enjoy you

And you don’t enjoy me

But

I will always be

Your little inconvenience 

And now I know

For as long as you’re here

And wherever you go

I’ll always be near

You won’t escape

You’ll find no relief

And I’ll live on

As your happiness thief

Happy knowing 

That I’ll forever be

Your little inconvenience

[osteo-necrosis]

Ripped & Ripping

The beast was raw

As it ripped and tore

What was deep within

Up through my skin

It never stopped

And it never thought

As it only did

What it was taught

Rip me Monday

And Tuesday too

Fuck it, rip me

The whole week through

And day after day

Week after week

As it ripped and tore

I lost no sleep

It made me stronger

And now I knew

How to rip the fuck

Right out of you