Aug 2, 2023
#emotionally destroyed#consumed by a deep black darkness#uncontrollable constant horrific thoughts#cant control my existence anymore#everything everywhere all at once#it’s destroyed my life#just cant do existing anymore#lost innocence#flashbacks#self multilation#anorexic hell#food is torture#the overwhelming blackness is inside & breaking out#cutting is a few seconds of relief#bpd thoughts#actually ptsd#self loathing