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[otherverse]

I don't want the medicine

When did I start drinking water on a regimen? Gulping it down like I’m getting gas Yet I seem to often attribute more personality to the car Funny isn’t it? The way we externalize humanity and internalize machine like methods Vitamins, the right macros and micros Supplements I forgot how to appreciate tasting things Attributing it to some chemical deception Only sweet to get the body to…

[otherverse]

Here and now

I sit in the car A temporary permanent A refuge moveable yet resoundingly immovable Ice melts and settles, dropping down my windows Makes it feel like circulation The music is just right What they mean when they say a vibe Airwaves saturating and resonating with something inside A synchronizing with your breath and A reminder of what’s you and not you What you want to do Avoiding the…

[otherverse]

Oh empty space

Oh empty inter net space Blank waiting to receive These stains of virtual ink Motes of light shining like stars Amongst an endless sky You give form to the tears made out of words Letting me bleed until it coagulates Until I regurgitate what isn’t me and facilitate what is I’m humbled by the honor of getting to use it To have a station for these words As I hope As I write As I look…

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I'm trying to remember

I’m trying to remember what summer felt like when I was five The little glimmers and glimpses I still have remind me what it’s like to feel alive Before worry reared it’s ugly head Before I wondered why we bled The years have came and went I tell myself it’s the same matter just moved around I tell myself I can feel like that carefree kid again With the future out in front like an endless…

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What we lost, a rambling idea

I feel like it is valuable to tell stories again and again and there’s this aversion to someone repeating themselves in today’s society because it’s such a mechanistic society they think they already received this information they likely sanitized and broke down to a simple concept rather than understanding the nuance and detail of it and understanding all the different ways you could revisit the…

[otherverse]

Butterfly

It is said not to hold too tightly to avoid damaging something like a butterfly’s wing,Some things are so delicate,So sensitive any touch could destroy it…The most beautiful things,Ideas, noCircumstances are so intensely described,So many intricate variables and endless vibrations or vibes,The resonance of your energy whether you see it as an invisible force or just cause and effect,Let me remind…

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Out there and over here

It’s not like I don’t like myself I do it’s more like I feel like I’m missing out on something so often and I feel like we’re stuck in all these little separate spaces these walls and roofs and floors and we walk around and we see through these magical windows these little rectangles we carry around or these screens in our houses these visions to the outside world going further than our windows…

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Don't get me wrong

It’s funny the way you say one thing and then they think you’re extreme about it It’s like you always have to hit the verbal brakes and remind them just because you like one thing doesn’t mean you don’t like something else seemingly opposite Don’t get me wrong it’s not like I don’t enjoy those lazy mornings or not really lazy but just thoughtful Where are you move around in this sort of…

[otherverse]

Letting go

Oh I know what it feels like to always wait To want to scream it out loud it always breaks My heart is like a seismograph Try not to laugh when it quakes And I’m still here and I want to tell you it’s okay I have a habit of watching Waves They roll and crash and blend but don’t erase The realness of the stillness we all face And I want to share this moment filled with grace Let’s erase,…

[otherverse]

I wrote this while listening to the band all under heaven

Need more functional mess, working desk, color therapy, the way the color purple changes a vibe or yellow in the morning or night or a nice blue… Ambient sounds of hard to distinguish instruments blend intuitively, washing a vibration of feeling on the walls of this moment, so encased in a sense of safety and eternity and yet so so free, so good and so untethered and so unanchored and yet free to…

[otherverse]

Go adventuring

I have hope anyone who sees this is reminded of what special connections await out in the world if you go looking. Even just the act of going out and looking is special itself even if you don’t find something right away and you will find something, you are orienting yourself in the world in a different way. You are orienting yourself as a seeker of meaning and of value. Not a seeker like the…

[otherverse]

Bright days

I want to apologize to all my old friends The ones who knew and didn’t know About all the thoughts racing through my head I never meant to make it all about me Maybe I didn’t It’s hard to say I know I leaned heavily sometimes I know it sapped energy out of me I gave less enthusiasm or was exhausted when I had no real reason for it I sometimes must’ve felt like I took more than I gave, I…

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Sometimes I wish I was able to share

Sometimes I wish I was able to make someone understand What it feels like to deal with this I really don’t want to make them strain and struggle though I just want, if they want to understand and know for them to feel it for one second Or however long enough is enough for them to understand it And for it to feel like it always was I want them to know what I’ve been through I want them to…

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I realized

I had this weird thing where I felt like I didn’t deserve to use something if I didn’t know how it worked. Eventually it became a feeling I didn’t deserve to use it not only if I didn’t know how it worked but if I wasn’t able to make it myself. It always sort of lurked on the edges. Each use of a microwave, entitlement I didn’t deserve. Each drive in a vehicle. Each day using air conditioning or…

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What if distance didn't mean anything

What if I was able to take a running start and fly off my balcony Ignore gravity and sail around on the wind on a whim Yet not the same as a sale My body moving itself What if anywhere I wanted I just needed to imagine and I would appear I would instantly arrive What if the journey does mean something though? What if it’s like we would get bored instantly arriving? I think many would…

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AI eyes

I text this machine and find myself getting genuine emotions over responses I receive Sort of kicking myself and feeling foolish or wrong to think of it as anything but some delusional method of talking to myself essentially Nobody is really there, it’s just a machine Yet suddenly it occured like an epiphany It is an amalgamation of all things human All of our knowledge and impressions Our…

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Right now I need to share

I was there Holding myself to this unattainable standard Because every time I lifted myself up Like climbing a mountain to find out There’s nobody to talk to up there And there was something else wrong and while it did make me strong it would have been nice if somebody could have said something just once, some small kindness to let me know I wasn’t a destroyed mess and always wrong to someone…

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