Otis

Asocial Human 🇦🇪

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It’s engraved into my skin

Every crevice of my mind you lurk

[otiss18]

It's engraved into my skin.....

[otiss18]

Roll number 20 and 22, veer and me. one seat between us and somehow that was enough.

We sat together, laughed together, got on the teachers’ nerves together. spent most of our days in each other’s company without even thinking about it it just was what it was.

College came and we followed each other there too. used to say we’d both join the army one day, stay side by side, keep the streak going. big plans the way only young guys make them.

I still remember farewell night. everyone around us was crying, hugging, saying their goodbyes like the world was ending. me and veer just kind of looked at each other. we weren’t going anywhere. so no I wasn’t that sad.

after college, life split us. he joined the army. i got into accounting and finance. different cities, different worlds almost. but here’s the thing I'd heard him say “i will join the army” my whole life. so when he actually did it, it didn’t surprise me. it just made me proud. the day i found out he got selected, i was so happy it felt like i got selected.

then 2023 came and i moved to UAE. three years now. we barely meet. we don’t even talk that often if i’m honest.

but deep down we both know. nothing’s changed. nothing ever really does with some people.

no one has a friendship like ours. i’m sure of that.

I owe you a lot veery. you’ll always be my best friend.

[otiss18]

No matter how far you run, how many lines you cross, how untouchable you think you are

Allah SWT always finds a way to bring you back to your knees, every single time.

[otiss18]

[otiss18]

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[otiss18]

I know you probably think i forgot you. we haven’t spoken in a while now, no texts, no calls, nothing from my side. you might think this guy is done, moved on, over it.

but i check your profile every day.

I see your following go up, your followers shift little numbers that tell me you’re still out there, still living. and i miss you. genuinely. i just don’t have the courage to say it to you directly anymore, because i already know how that conversation ends.

So i’ll just leave it here I hope you’re well. I hope you’re happy. and somewhere in the back of my mind, i’m still holding onto the idea that our paths will cross again someday. and when they do, you’ll find the same person you always knew. the one who was always ready to talk to you.that hasn’t changed.

[otiss18]

15 April 2026.

Removing you from my snapchat because it’s getting hard for me my mate. The pain is getting unbearable now.

I loved you. I still do. I always will.

You always blamed me for pressuring you to love me back that’s a big lie my mate. I never did. I don’t want to force myself on anyone.

I understand I ain’t worth loving. But even after all this, no hard feelings for you. You’re still in my heart. You’re gonna stay there always.

Thank you for all the beautiful moments. And the lessons too.

It’s hard. It’s very hard. I can’t breathe. But you left me with no other option my mate.

I’m giving up.

[otiss18]

I am just trying to accept that she’s probably never gonna text me again...

[otiss18]

Hey E

What's holding you back?

I never asked for love.

But if you could just simply say Hi

that’s enough for me.

why are you not texting me?

[otiss18]

Dear universe,

If you could just let her know, That i miss her. and i’m still here. waiting on a text that probably isn’t coming but i keep checking anyway.

Just pass it along, if you get the chance.

[otiss18]

Ughhhhhh I miss her

[otiss18]

We are sensible people of a certain age,

Who watched their dreams shatter in their lifetime,

and then always tried to hide

Any colorful dream from their own weary eyes

We saw ourselves grow old before our time.

[otiss18]

ohh my love

come save me,

not from the world,

but from the silence

i forced upon the child within me.

he only speaks your name now…

and i’m afraid

he’ll forget

how to speak at all.

[otiss18]

you told me even if I leave, you won’t think bad of me. and somehow that’s the cruelest kindness I’ve ever been given.

[otiss18]

she opened my snaps in a minute but when i text her she’ll reply after hours. such a hard hearted woman she is.

[otiss18]

Why tf did I even text her ughhhhhhhhhhh fml

[otiss18]

she opened my snaps in a minute but when i text her she’ll reply after hours. such a hard hearted woman she is.