I've been really enjoying my ongoing emasculation.
My permanent orgasm denial has been going well, although I did have an accident recently after 4 and a half months orgasm free. For this indiscretion, I gave Daddy a crisp $100 Bill. All such indiscretions have to be paid in $100's.
We've also been playing with castration. I bought a cheap piglet elastrator rubber band castration device of Amazon. It gets used whenever Daddy and I have a play session, and honestly, I can't get enough of it. I literally beg for my destruction.
I also think my dick is shrinking. So much so, that over the past couple weeks, I've started transitioning the way I pleasure myself. I'm no longer stroking my cock. I now push whatever nub is left sticking out, back up inside me, and literally finger the belt created orifice of flesh like a vagina, or in circles like a clit. This is how I had my little indiscretion -- soft and limp, and fingered. I absolutely love the feeling it creates when I start leaking in there. My cock gets ignored if it gets to hard to do this, so staying limp is the only way I get stimulation.
In addition to that, Daddy's been really encouraging of me finding real men to service. To help with this,I have a premium account on Squirt with this same username.
I'd been having difficulty lining something up on there, so after Daddy and I went out for drinks on Thursday, Daddy encouraged me to go cruising, and not just encouraged, basically told me to. So after dropping Daddy off, I head over to the cruising area I chose, and within minutes, I was sucking cock.
I saw one guy go lean on one of the picnic tables, so went over and sat at the table next to him and said "evening." After a couple mins he unzipped, and pulled his dick out. I suggested we go to where it was a little darker, behind some bushes. So I walked over to the area, with the guy in tow, and dropped yo my knees on my knee pads, and took his dick in my mouth as soon as he got close enough. I brought him to orgasm in 2-3 mins, thanked him, and he said said that should help him sleep, and with a big accomplished smile on my face, I replied "That's what I'm here for." He then got back in his car and left.
Now don't get me wrong, any cock in my mouth is a nice cock but he was an older guy, with about an average sized cock, circumcised. He never got crazy hard, but I still took him balls deep and gagged on it By the end of it, he had both his hands on my head, and I let him control the thrusting. He pushed his cock to the back of my throat and held my head in place when he came. I thought I felt his cock pulsing as he groaned, but wasn't sure until I tasted his cum in my mouth. He pulled out, and I leaned forward and sucked off as much remaining saliva as I could, and one final suck on his head to get any lingering cum, and it was at that moment that I said "thank you, sir."
No idea who he was. Don't know his name. Could barely make out his face in the dark, so I don't really know what he looked like. May never even encounter him again. He just wanted an eager warm hole to put his cock in, and dump his load in, and I'm glad it was me.
I stuck around for another 45 mins or so with nothing else of note happening, and the bugs were bad, so I left.
That said, I loved every second of it and I want more.