our nightly calls

halfway across the country from you

[ournightlycalls]

haven’t posted on here in a while because I been too busy living the best relationship I’ve been in but we are still long distance and he just left from visiting me after 6 months of not seeing each other :( it was super sad and we both cried BUT we finally have plans of living together and he’s hopefully coming back in November for that. I miss him and i love him so much.

[ournightlycalls]

i want to tell him I’m falling in love with him but it’s so weird because i feel like this is something I should say in person but i don’t have that privilege :(

[ournightlycalls]

btw he literally told me he loved me first THAT night 😭❤️

i love you julian

[ournightlycalls]

lately I been noticing my heart wavering and it definitely doesn’t have to do with feeling because i do love you, i just think I might be afraid? or if anything, just super impatient as well. I miss you so much and i really wish you were with me at night. i want to hug you and be held by you, i want to kiss you to touch you and run my fingers through your hair. i want to see your smile in person I want to feel your warmth.

I’m so sick of my phone.

[ournightlycalls]

i want to tell him I’m falling in love with him but it’s so weird because i feel like this is something I should say in person but i don’t have that privilege :(

[ghostllykisses]

and all I can hope is that right now, you’re thinking about me as much as I’m thinking about you.

[pol-ar-ity]

It’s kind of dumb, but I want to talk to you all the time. Like, all the time. Which is annoying and needy and very unrealistic, because you have a life outside of our audio messages and sporadic phone calls. But I wanna talk to you. I want you to talk to me. I want your mouth to run a mile a minute and make me laugh until I’m crying. You’re always so good at that. You’re my best friend, my confidant, possibly my world. So we won’t make out in the back of taxis. As long as you hold my hand through crowds and send me another voice memo the next morning, I’ll be okay. Because I wanna talk to you. And I want you to talk to me. And you’re my best friend. And I love you. (In case that wasn’t obvious.)

“and maybe you’re my soulmate or something”

[ournightlycalls]

[ournightlycalls]

my honey is so cute and I miss him very much 🥰❤️

[ournightlycalls]

on some real shit idk how y’all have been doing this for years, I already miss him so much. this is so sad I really wish I could spend my days with him.

i also have a fear of being annoying! I don’t want to be too clingy but I can’t help wanting to talk to him throughout the day, I wonder if he feels like I talk to him too much? I should ask him. but honestly I don’t wanna already bring up issues like he barely started his job today 😭 I don’t want to stress him out.

hopefully we are able to call tonight 💗

[spuds-and-roo]

I just wish I could delete the distance between us..

[long-distance-love]

Daydreaming about being kissed by my long distance lover 💙

[ournightlycalls]

I saw you for the first time last night and I wish I could’ve spent so much more time with you than we did. I’m glad it happened but at the same time I already miss you and you barely left today. I’ll see you soon, I know I will but it’s still really sad. I don’t know how people have been doing this for years. I’m on day, what, 2? And I already hate the distance 😭

[ournightlycalls]

you asked me to be your girlfriend this morning and of course, I said yes. I’m so happy and excited for the beginning of our new adventure 💗

[ournightlycalls]

we literally call for 10 hours at a time sometimes even 20, but I never get tired of talking to you. I wish there were more hours in the day.

[ournightlycalls]

I barely met you and I already want to be sleeping in your arms at night, If we do this ldr shit it’s going to be sooo hard I already know.

man. Idk if I’d be cut out for it. unless we see each other at least once a month? but that might be pushing it with our jobs.

i guess we’ll talk about it when we get there but ohhh my goodddd. I just know it’s gonna suck.

[ournightlycalls]

something you said really stuck with me, when we were talking about how we have used dating apps in the past and how everyone we have ever tried talking to has been really boring and just uninterested in actually talking, you said it was rare to find someone with so much in common with you and that you were glad you did. it’s simple but I found that statement to be very cute. because i guess I feel the same way. like it’s honestly cool to me that we share a lot of the same values and what we look for in a partner. what i also really liked about our conversation last night was that we talked about how we usually are in relationships. For a change, I may actually be protected by my boyfriend instead of feeling attacked. Hopefully at least. I love that you’re calm because it balances out my restlessness and I love that you’re patient because god knows I need that in my life lol. I do think you’re kind of a dork and a little (just a tiny bit) cringey which usually I find to deter me from men but I think you’re adorable lol. i don’t know if that’s bad. our future plans are honestly pretty different which scares me because I don’t know if I want what you do yet. having a family is a big and I don’t want to be the one to take that from you just because I’m scared. so while I don’t know where we’re going, I’m okay with ultimately figuring that out with you.

[ournightlycalls]

i don’t really know where we’re headed with these nightly calls we’ve been having these past two weeks but we finally admitted our feelings for each other last night. I think it’d be a normal thing if we weren’t both moving. you’re going to georgia and I’m going back to my hometown in texas. you leave in a few days and i just think it really sucks that we met each other so late.