overthinking + underfed

tsuki's thoughts with nowhere else to go 🪩🌸🎀💋🦇🧛🏻‍♂️🥀🌑

[overthinking-and-underfed]

hi! it's me! 🪩🔮

name: tsuki

age: not as old as I could be, but not as young as you might think

favourite musicians: DPR Ian, Enhypen, Evan, IU, B.I, BTS, The Rose, Dilaw, Epik High, Linkin Park, Olivia Rodrigo, Gorillaz, Cup of Joe, Aurora, LIGHTS, Hayley Williams, grentperez, beabadoobee, Juliet Ivy, Lyn Lapid, mxmtoon, Joe Hisaishi, Conan Gray

favourite aesthetics: cute, pastels, grandmacore, gothic, vampire, dark academia, horror

favourite hobbies: reading, puzzles, art, crafting, writing, taking walks, listening to music, baking, photography, spending time alone

favourite places: libraries, museums, bookshops, cafés, nature walks, theatres, concerts

favourite cities/countries i've been: amsterdam, edinburgh, london, belgium, canada

favourite countries i haven't been: japan, south korea, singapore, hong kong, germany, romania, ireland, new zealand

random favourites: boba, godzilla, anything mochi, pepero, tofu, batman, buffy the vampire slayer, enamel pins, cats, bats, komorebi, languages, studio ghibli, second-hand things, the moon, j.r.r. tolkien, wooden music boxes, wes anderson films, jean-pierre jeunet films, guillermo del toro films, live music, les miserables

[overthinking-and-underfed]

A Suit or a Suitcase by Maggie Smith

You ask what I'll miss about this life.

Everything but cruelty, I think.

But you want one specific thing,

so here — I'll miss my body. I'Il miss

its companionship, how it's traveled

with me, never leaving me — & by me,

I mean my mind. My soul? My self?

I don't know what to call it, & besides,

my body hasn't traveled with me.

I've traveled inside it. Do I wear it

or does it carry me? Is the body a suit

or a suitcase? Bear with me here.

I've always thought of who I am

as being concentrated in my head & chest,

as if there's a waterline at my rib cage

& contrary to their density, thoughts

& feelings stay afloat. You asked

what I'll miss about this life, & now

I'm way down a rabbit hole, wondering

if I could breathe deeply enough

to redistribute my mind more evenly

throughout my body — or soul rather

than mind? Or self? I don't even know

what to cal lthe me of me. I imagine

filling my body completely, filling it,

every inch, to the skin. Shh. Listen.

Ideas are whispering in my wrists

& all along the slopes of my calves.

When you lay your head on my thigh,

when you kiss the backs of my knees, listen.

I'm trying to tell you what I'll miss —

everything but cruelty, but mostly this.

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A Suit or A Suitcase: Poems

by Maggie Smith

[remanence-of-love]

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life lately...

Books from my favourite independent second-hand bookshop and the best iced americano I've ever had from a local Yemeni café.

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Me with any minor inconvenience: wait til evie hears about this 😣

Me with any minor joy: wait til evie hears about this ☺️

Me with every thought that crosses my mind: wait til evie hears about this 🤯

Just bsf things. 😉😂 I wouldn't be here without you. Please stay with me til the end. ❤️🖤🥀💀

[overthinking-and-underfed]

Ian for your day ~

The duality. 😆

[aenslem]

Buffy the Vampire Slayer (1997–2003) | 6.14 "Older and Far Away"

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Ian for your day ~

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High Tea 🩷🩵

[ruhaniya]

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Ian for your day 🫰🏼

I remember this live so well. I was traveling alone in Edinburgh and it was raining and there was no place to go in and sit cause my data kept cutting out indoors. So I stood outside in the rain just to watch this live. And Ian being Ian, it was not really a quick live. So well worth it tho. 🌕🌓🌑🌗

[tae]

DPR IAN 'MOOD (IQOS Remix Edition)'

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Ian for your day~

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When you schedule an 8AM dentist appointment then picked up an extra shift at work right after making your day super long. *a hell of my own making* 💀

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I started a diary. Haha maybe I'll be less insufferable here, or maybe not. 💀

[vexheart]