This Is . . .

Mostly just random thoughts and stuff pertaining to the media I consume - Sometimes a vent blog because I am unfortunately mentally ill (Also will change the pfp at some point, so . . .)

[owowhathis]

As an afab aroace, yes, I Want to be a Wall is insanely good (and relatable as hell).

[owowhathis]

That feeling when you finish watching a show and you don't know what to do with your life

[owowhathis]

Mob Psycho season 2 episode 7 fucked me up

[dykespeare-deactivated20181228]

reblog if ur mom is smart and beautiful

[confident-fear]

This is one of my favorite sites on here because everyone who reblogged it truly believes it because their moms won’t actually see it

[owowhathis]

Am I about to cry because I'm going back to my home country for the first time in a while or am I about to cry because I'm reading a romance manga with so much respect and proper communication between the characters that it makes my heart ache

[owowhathis]

The day before I turned 20, I went skiing for the first time. A friend was supposed to teach us how to do it but didn't. I fell a million times just trying to go down one slope and ended up alone. It felt terrible, each fall taking what felt like at least 10 minutes to get back up. Finally, I couldn't take it anymore, dragging myself to the side, taking off most of my equipment and just sitting down. Watching the other people there, thinking to myself, trying to see how to do something I had been just thrown into, I ended up crying. I messaged my parents, but it was the day I realised that all I've ever wanted from them was to take my feelings and my pain as their eldest child, especially as their eldest child seriously. It wasn't long before I realised nobody was coming to save me. I cried, nobody really noticed, or if they did, they didn't do anything. I felt better afterwards actually. Letting all the pain out, sorting through my emotions, drinking a bit of water and giving my legs enough time to stop shaking from the mere thought of continuing and inevitably, falling actually helped. Gave me the strength to continue, even though I did fall at least another 3 times before reaching the bottom and having to walk the last part down carrying the skis(which were heavy as hell, heavier than I would have ever expected honestly). I guess the point of this story is that no matter what happens, if it ever gets too scary or too frustrating or too overwhelming, you can always just stop for a while and cry about it, it's okay. You might even feel the will to continue on after.

[lilalienz4ever]

[lilalienz4ever]

[filmreveries]

crush, richard siken / brokeback mountain (2005) dir. ang lee

[asoftepiloguemylove]

I SWEAR I'D LOVE YOU IF I COULD

Mitski Once More to See You // Brokeback Mountain (2005) dir. Ang Lee // 刻在你心底的名字 Your Name Engraved Herein (2020) dir. Patrick Kuang-Hui Liu // Richard Siken Crush // Danez Smith The 17-Year-Old & the Gay Bar // Nxdia She Likes a Boy // As You Are (2016) dir. Miles Joris-Peyrafitte // CA Conrad We Want It All: An Anthology of Radical Trans Poetics // Chappell Roan Pink Pony Club // Portrait de la jeune fille en feu Portrait of a Lady on Fire (2019) dir. Céline Sciamma

[owowhathis]

I just finished watching Brokeback Mountain. I did in fact, cry

[theorangepdf]

THERE IS STILL TIME giovanni's room, brokeback mountain, i saw the tv glow

[owowhathis]

That feeling when you cry so much that your eyes are just swollen, you're kinda dehydrated and your jaw just kinda hurts. Yeah.

[stargirldotcom]

-on alternate timelines and universes

everything everywhere all at once/ @inanotherunivrse/ complex- katie gregson-macleod/ @tiredbtw/ @loviely/ eternal sunshine of the spotless mind/ @death-born-aphrodite

[komonatin]

that daughterhood feeling of wanting to blame your mother for how you turned out, wanting to be angry at her for how you’ve inherited her pain and her insecurities, but at the same time wanting to keep coming home to her, out of everyone else in the universe, because you know that if there’s anyone who might be anything like you–if there’s anyone who might even have a clue of what it’s like to be you–it could only be her. and no matter how many times you’ve hurt each other, no matter how difficult it might be to get her to truly see you, you still just want her to love you as you are, to tell you that this isn’t your fault, and to show you that she would keep letting you come home to her.

[izzines]

being an immigrant child / growing up + away from your parents

"anak" by freddie aguilar // laundromat photos by @sunflowrrbabe // "everything everywhere all at once" directed by daniel Kwan, daniel Scheinert // "ladybird" directed by greta gerwig // "a letter to my 13 year old self" by laufey // "class of 2013" by mitski // "be brave be free" by zeppelinmoon

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[kendallroynsfw]

everything everywhere all at once is about intergenerational trauma. about depression and passive suicidality and the gravitational appeal of nothingness. about aging, getting older in your twenties and getting older in your fifties. about the specific hurt mothers can cause their daughters and daughters their mothers. about the harsh reality of the immigrant experience and the american dream. but it’s mostly about kindness and family and it’s about choosing to sit at home talking about taxes with someone who loves you, and it’s about telling your daughter that you’d choose her over the entire universe, and it’s about how even in the universes where life didn’t form, love can still exist. and it’s really all of that at once.

[lesbalisious]

Everything everywhere all at once is a film about a girl ripping the entire universe apart just to find a part of her mother that she feels understands her. And everything everywhere all at once is a film about a mother ripping the entire universe apart just to understand her daughter. And my chest feels like it’s caving in when I think about it too long