You're Already the Voice Inside My Head

If you can dream it, you can do it.

[reid-sam]

WANDAVISION | 1x07

[moodboardmix]

“Glass Link “ Residence, Southwest Hills, Portland, Oregon,

Architect: Scott Edwards Architecture,

Interior Design: FQ Designs Group,

Landscaper: 2.ink Studio,

Photography: Jeremy Bittermann

[teethagoddess]

[o-kurwa]

Smh

[owyesimcy]

I should hate her. I should be mad at her. I gave her everything I can and she still walked away. I still can bring myself to let go. I’m still hoping that time will bring us back together, but I know I shouldn’t think that way.

[n0c3]

[owyesimcy]

I’m not crying out of nowhere anymore, I’m proud of me.

[x-lordcrow-x]

[sary370]

[remanence-of-love]

[terrapin-hotel]

I am scared to be nothing but a distant memory to you, after all we have been through and all I have given for us I just don’t understand how you can drop me like dead weight. I’m scared to let go because it feels like the only remaining ligature of what once was is me holding on to a fantasy of you coming back. 

I don’t know how I am supposed to let go of my first love, even though its been two months since you left. It feels like the only thing left holding us together is the dying fizzle of hope that I have of you maybe wanting to try things again in the future. I’ve never loved anyone before you and I can’t understand how it came to this point after almost 5 years together. I gave my all, I really truly understood who you were inside and accepted you for who you were but it still wasn’t enough. I try to not think of it as being something wrong with me, but that’s just how it feels. 

I don’t know how to let go of someone who has already decided to let me go. Why do I still have hope when you made it clear that you were fine to just break it off and seek out new connections with other people. How is my heart so broken but you are already out there talking to new people. It feels like no matter how much time passes I will never truly be able to accept what has happened and no matter what you say to me I will never get full closure. 

Heartbreak sucks. It shatters the reality you once lived in, it eviscerates the heart and bleeds your emotions dry. It takes what you once believed and extinguishes it with a crushing blow. The way it steals your joy - the way it changes your perception of life - the way it stings every morning and doesn’t seem to stop no matter how much you cry or journal it out or write long posts like this. It feels like nothing will ever be as pure as that first dose of love and connection with someone. Maybe I’m just scared to open up like that again. 

The memories are funny in how they ruin my day. I can be folding my clothes, going on a hike, walking my dog and something will remind me of you. And just like an avalanche, one memory leads to another and it builds like a snowball and before you know it a full onslaught of repressed memories and intimate moments appear before my eyes as if they were happening in that second. One thought brings up another, so on and so forth.

I miss you. I know you miss me too, but I will always wonder why it wasn’t enough for you. I could have lived in that bubble for many more years, but oh well. At the end of the day, I just want you to be happy. I hope maybe one day you feel the same pain I am experiencing now, as it is a good life lesson. Maybe one day down the road your heart will be shattered and you will think back and realize that this is how I felt.

More word vomit from yours truly.

[zeathhoney]

[tovarthyme]

Need me a squad like this

[growlandpounce]

Grey shirt had me feelin things

[icecream-eaterrr]

im def the guy in the plaid shirt lol 

[runwithskizzers]

i need to watch this like five times so i can see everyone do their thing bc this is amazing

[adulthoodisokay]

WHO ARE THEY

[virtualcry]

IT (2017)

[rcah]

[shift-to-vector-cannon-mode]

anyway, here’s one of the most iconic moments in cinematic history

shrek 2 was a fucking masterpiece

[fauxnography]

I literally remember being a young tot in the theater on the edge of my seat, wide eyed at everything that was going on, and it all just being the most magical intense scene I’d ever seen

Beeeeee goooooood.

[katuvwxyz-deactivated20180211]

my blog needed this

[hipstered]

have a relationship thats mature enough to sit down and be like “ look this is our problem and this is how we’re gonna fix it..” SIMPLE

[wealthyhugepenis-deactivated201]

my favourite part of the bible is when Jesus said that 1 like = 1 Prayer