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he/him: not pr0 just struggling: sw: 50kg- CW: 35kg- ugw: 20kg- age: 16

[macchiatosys]

plural culture is some alters oversharing, while the others refuse to even share their names

[mina-waz-here]

Feelings make me wanna fucking off myself, why can't I just be fine again?

[p1nksk1es111]

I feel like I'm competing with everyone on Tumblr whenever they post their CW

I'm currently 37kg still and the pride I get when someone is more is unmatched

[loverboyari]

current staus: not eating for 2 days and then having one meal where you overeat until ur nauseous so u vom and then proceed to not eat for another 2 days

[p1nksk1es111]

This cause it's Christmas

[million-with-a-b]

how is DID the most subtle yet obvious disorder ever

[p1nksk1es111]

Back again, quitting sm0king has made me so much worse

[p1nksk1es111]

I crave physical touch. It's horrible. I feel like I need someone to just hug me and tell me it's okay, I need someone to tell me I'm okay and that I'm fine as I am or that I'm good enough but no matter how much anyone tells me I don't believe it. I need something but I don't k ow what that something is. I need someone to sleep next to me, someone to help me sleep through the night. I need someone to embrace me and tell me they're there for me and that they'll stay. I need someone to stay. I need someone. I just don't know who. I think I need help, I think this is the point where I have to stop. But I can't, I've gone too far. I can't stop when I've done so much. Maybe I just have to wait for that person

[p1nksk1es111]

I deserve this, this is my fault

(I over@t3 ((300c@l)) then r3laps3d)

[p1nksk1es111]

Trying again because I pussied out

Day 1 today

[p1nksk1es111]

HUGE TW: ED RANT (also tmi)

I've hit the point where I know I'm no longer healthy, I can see that I'm und3rw3ight and honestly it's nice. It's a privilage I think. I started l00sing w3ight because I thought it would make me feel better in my body and honestly it has been. My issue now is knowing when to stop. My periods have become every 4-8 months, I pass out a lot, my appetite has become a lot smaller and even if I tried I can't keep a lot in and I get ill a lot easier now but even with all the issues it brings it's making me feel better. I feel comfortable in my skin again and when the dysphoria hits it's a case of "hey, at least I'm not trans and f@t" (there's nothing wrong with that it's just not how I feel happy looking) but honestly the best part is seeing my colerbones, seeing my ribs and my thighs. I don't have the fat under my chin anymore and I just feel like me. I don't know when to stop though because it's not enough, I want more. I want to see hip bones or be so deadly thin that walking is a struggle. I need to get under 30kg and it's all I strive for now. I don't know when to stop

[p1nksk1es111]

My mums been trying to loose weight so we get the l0w c@l version of certain snacks and she cooks healthier foods and it's truly a blessing. I don't think she's figured out she's helping me r3str1ct easier though

[p1nksk1es111]

ive been doing terribly, i eat dinner everyday and its terrible

[p1nksk1es111]

I've been binging so much, I need to try harder.

[p1nksk1es111]

Coming back

[starsinmybones-deactivated20250]

tag yourself bitch!!!! ♡

[misarexia]

bodybuilder who isn't actually building their body lol

[rllyshouldnt]

I'm acts recovered but clearly isn't 😅

[witchythinloss]

Acts recovered but clearly isn't and starving depressed artist lmao

[p1nksk1es111]

Starving depressed artist

[p1nksk1es111]

Im loosing again, I'm so happy I hit 35kg after so long

[p1nksk1es111]

No matter how kuch people support me nobody will ever see me as a guy. People will always see me as trans. No matter how much effort I put in I still look like a girl. It fucking hurts because I've reached the point of "I'd rather be dead than feel like this" again. It's not too much to ask for, to be seen as a guy. To look like a guy. I feel so worthless because all anyone will see me as is a trans guy and not just some guy. I hate it. I hate me. I hate how feminine I am. It's hit the point again where I feel like st@rv1ng myself and cut1ng will get rid of it. I try to c0t my large chest off I think if I get th1n enough I'll feel better but I never do. I never will. I'll never feel better and I'll never be the guy I want to be