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Antisocial personality disorder signs and symptoms may include:

Disregard for right and wrong

Persistent lying or deceit to exploit others

Being callous, cynical and disrespectful of others

Using charm or wit to manipulate others for personal gain or personal pleasure

Arrogance, a sense of superiority and being extremely opinionated

Recurring problems with the law, including criminal behavior

Repeatedly violating the rights of others through intimidation and dishonesty

Impulsiveness or failure to plan ahead

Hostility, significant irritability, agitation, aggression or violence

Lack of empathy for others and lack of remorse about harming others

Unnecessary risk-taking or dangerous behavior with no regard for the safety of self or others

Poor or abusive relationships

Failure to consider the negative consequences of behavior or learn from them

Being consistently irresponsible and repeatedly failing to fulfill work or financial obligations

This describes my partner/caregiver PERFECTLY. I was diagnosed with ALS in 2017 and need help with virtually EVERY aspect of my life. I type with one knuckle and the side of my thumb. EVERY relationship I have, whether with my personal physician, neurologists, neurosurgeons, personal care givers, physical therapists and even the nanny that looks after our boys is DOMINATED by her. She has carefully manipulated everyone I see on a regular basis and isolated me entirely.

Boo-fucking-hoo.

No, really.

These days, I live hour to hour. I have good days every so often, LOADS of not-so-great days and more bad days than I care to mention.

I keep my expectations of my caregiver at absolute zero and, so far, have managed my anger and frustration, to say nothing of my own physical deterioration, well enough.

We have two boys, ages seven and nine, who are not enrolled in school.

I owe my boys EVERY SINGLE GOOD DAY I'M ABLE TO GIVE. THEY are the real victims here! They're rife with potential and BRILLIANT, but that ambition is being squandered on endless YouTube videos, video games and idleness. If my partner has plans to enroll them in school or in an accredited home-school program, she's not shared those plans with me.

She's just not at all interested in their welfare.

"Exert control where you have control".

The muscles in my lips, tongue and jaw have atrophied to the point where I'm seldom, if ever, understood by strangers or new acquaintances.

To my immediate family and those who see me on a regular basis, I'm understood 70% of the time.

I no longer have much influence over my oldest son, and there are very long, dark days ahead of him.

They asked for NONE OF THIS!

I owe them all the strength, encouragement and positive energy I can gather.

#als #terminal illness #lou gerhig's disease #sociopathy #patient health #at home care #Definition of Sociopathic Disorder provided by the Mayo Clinic

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“You may have to face the fact that your work will be apparently worthless and even achieve no result at all, if not perhaps results opposite to what you expect. As you get used to this idea you start more and more to concentrate not on the results but the value, the rightness, the truth of the work itself. And there too a great deal has to be gone through, as gradually you struggle less and less for an idea and more and more for specific people. the range tends to narrow down, but it gets much more real. In the end, as you yourself mention in passing, It is the reality of personal relationships that saves everything.”

— Thomas Merton