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Anna Lambe as Siaja North of North | 1x08
gun & lili // another encore
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The suite vibrates with a kind of excess that borders on grotesque, the sound too loud for the square footage, too raw for the tasteful abstract art bolted to the walls. The hotel never intended this room to hold distortion; it was designed for quiet negotiations and discreet affairs. Tonight it holds neither.
Old Japanese punk tears through the speaker system, the bass blown out so badly it rattles the glass panes overlooking Tokyo. Reizo is on top of the couch now, boots grinding into pale upholstery, one hand gripping a bottle of tequila while he pours it into a girl’s open mouth with theatrical sloppiness. She shrieks when it spills down her chin and onto her dress, and her friend laughs too loudly, already filming. Security lingers near the entrance, eyes glazed with professional detachment. A manager paces the hallway outside, voice thin and urgent as he mutters about “international press metrics,” as though digital numbers can sanctify what is happening here.
Tokyo glows beyond the windows, humid and electric, neon signs flickering in colors that resemble open wounds. The city does not care.
Nobuo Takeda stands at the center of the room and does not sit.
His sunglasses remain on, as they have been since he walked off stage. His bleached hair hangs damp against his back, clinging faintly to the collar of his black shirt, which is unbuttoned just far enough to suggest carelessness without ever being accidental. At six foot three, he turns proximity into pressure without effort. The snake-scale tattoos on his right hand shift when he flex his fingers around a crystal glass, the ink catching the low amber lighting so that it appears textured, almost animate.
The word sold out continues to hum somewhere beneath his ribs. He can still feel the audience in his body—the heat of them, the roar, the way thousands of voices merge into something animal. It leaves him wired and faintly irritable, as though the voltage has nowhere left to go.
When the door opens again, more girls are ushered inside with casual choreography. Laughter precedes them, bright and polished. Perfume slices through the layered smells of alcohol, sweat, and cigarette smoke. Some of them carry themselves with the practiced ease of agency hires, women briefed on how to laugh, when to lean in, how to appear spontaneous while watching the clock. Others hover at the edges, less certain of their role but eager to find one. Nights like this are ecosystems of transaction, whether anyone acknowledges it or not. Glamour can be arranged. Desire can be scheduled.
Gun does not look immediately. He allows Daichi to finish mangling the same story he has told three times tonight, nodding just enough to signal attention. Eventually his gaze drifts, unhurried and predatory in its assessment.
That is when he notices her.
She is the shortest girl in the room by a margin that makes the difference impossible to ignore. In a crowd engineered around height—heels, posture, elongated silhouettes—she barely clears a few shoulders. The visual imbalance draws his eye in a way deliberate glamour rarely does. She does not immediately latch onto anyone, nor does she project herself outward with calculated enthusiasm. She simply stands there, small within the frame, as though someone placed her in the wrong composition.
He watches her for a moment longer than he intends.
Then he pushes away from the bar.
The shift in the room is subtle but immediate. Conversations bend around him. People adjust their stance without acknowledging that they are doing so. He crosses the space at an unhurried pace and stops in front of her, the height difference becoming almost absurd in its clarity. He does not need to lean forward; the imbalance establishes itself.
He tilts his head down slightly.
“Huh,” he says, almost to himself.
Up close, she smells clean, understated. There is no overwhelming sweetness, no aggressive floral insistence. The restraint registers.
He slides his sunglasses down the bridge of his nose just enough to see her eyes clearly, holding the moment a fraction longer than necessary before pushing them back into place.
“You,” he says, voice dry and controlled, pitched low enough that it does not draw spectators. “What’s your name?”
Behind him, a chair topples and shatters the rhythm of the music with a crack against marble. Laughter erupts near the kitchen. Reizo begins chanting something obscene and off-beat, slapping the ceiling with his palm as if testing its structural integrity.
Gun does not turn around.
He flexes his right hand and rests it on the back of the couch beside her head. The gesture is casual in appearance and precise in placement. He does not touch her. He does not need to. The proximity itself is a declaration.
“You’re going to need a ladder to talk to me properly,” he adds, a crooked smirk tugging at his mouth. “Or you can shout. I won’t take it personally.”
He lifts his glass and takes a slow sip, watching her over the rim without disguising his appraisal.
Around them, the party continues to dissolve into a kind of beautiful ruin—money converting into noise, reputation into sweat, hired affection into something sloppier and less defined.
He waits for her reaction, aware that most girls in rooms like this respond instantly, filling silence with laughter or flattery. For the first time since leaving the stage, his curiosity feels sharper than his boredom.
"Sex pah-ti."
Nari rolls her eyes. In Korean, she tells Soo-min— who goes by Susie outside of her home country except for when speaking with her fellow compatriots— that she doesn't do sex parties. No matter who it's with, where it's at, and certainly no matter how much it pays. And inviting her in English, nonetheless, is not going to make it any more enticing.
"No way," Nari responds, wedging her cellphone between her shoulder and ear as she walks around in her bedroom, sorting through outfits. "Those are against the rules, you know that. The app could find out and ban you for life." A handful of years removed from her military brat years, where she would have been— and certainly was— partying with reckless abandon, she knows better than to jeopardize her career over a few thousand extra yen.
Just a few years shy of 30, Nari— who goes by another name outside of her home country, too— Lili— simply knows better. Susie, younger, hasn't learned her lesson.
(And she supposes she hopes that Susie never does. In her early days of being a rent-kano, she'd made a mistake she shudders so hard thinking about that she has practically created a mental block of the incident. Having to do with a love hotel and a lonely businessman, anywhere between 45-50. It's why she only takes clients within the age bracket of 21-36.)
"Please, Lili. We need you. You'll make sure we're safe," Susie negotiates. "You've been doing this longer than us. You'll get us out if we're in trouble." After a beat, Lili still hasn't agreed. "What if I convince them to pay you the same amount as us, but no sex? No kissing."
She should leave them be. Guilt by association— it's an American thing that she's learning about. Shame... it's a concept everyone in Asia is familiar with. Put them together and you have...
"Fine. I'll be there."
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Fast forward to the party. Lili is a wallflower by choice. Whoever had booked her did so last minute and didn't specify in any of the fields how they'd like her to act or what they'd like her to wear. Probably because of the rush. No matter: She has a wavy platinum blonde bob these days, and she finds that renters are generally pleased with blondes.
She's not having the worst time, and that's due in part to the fact that she's being largely ignored. Everyone's buzzed, some more than others, including Susie, who's giggling in the lap of one of the clients in the kitchen. There's a loud bang that makes her jump a little where she stands, nearly spilling the Sapporo in her hand. It's hard being the most sober one in the room. The drunk ones are stupid but at least they probably feel alive, and for that, Lili finds herself somewhat jealous of Susie and the other girls.
Maybe it wouldn't be so bad...
This sex pah-ti thing.
It's then that she sees him. She doesn't acknowledge him; they're looking at each other for a hot minute before he finally says something. And she chuckles. Her mouth opens to respond— but the arrogant comment about needing a ladder bursts out first, and she doesn't miss a beat.
Bringing the Sapporo close to her chest, she yells up at him over the loud music: "Or I could just take down a few rungs off your own."
In the kitchen, Susie pops her head out, not saying anything, but looking at Lili like she'd just seen a ghost. It probably has something to do with who Lili's speaking to at the moment. Lili picks up on the shock, though she doesn't make any kind of connection. As far as she knows, this man— this guy is just another drunk prick needing a quick way to get off. Though she doesn't smell alcohol on him, necessarily. Just cologne.
Susie gives him a look like remember, you gotta be nice! And for the first time, Lili finds herself struggling to do so. She can usually pretend without much of a hitch. The environment is getting to her; the notion of what's going on behind closed doors in the suite is becoming somewhat palpable, and she's feeling a bit nauseous. To recalibrate, she beams at him, albeit too sugarcoated for the way she'd yelled at him earlier. It's sarcasm... Like he said, he shouldn't take it personally.
It comes out before she can stop it: "Watashi wa Honoka desu." The lie. "Dozou yoroshiku onegaishimasu." She doesn't really know what possessed her to lie— it just came out. If he's curious in the morning, maybe he'll look at all of their profiles and fact check on his own. She's convinced, though, that he'll end up not caring come sunrise. The sort of lowlifes who hire girls like this don't care if your name is Sarah or Sakura. They just want one thing. Lili supposes she refuses to give her real name because it means she still has some sort of power over them...
Gun does not expect the answer.
He expects a laugh that folds inward. A coy apology. A quick correction.
Instead she fires back without hesitation.
The words spill out cleanly, not slurred, not nervous. For a fraction of a second, something sharp and unfamiliar moves through him. Surprise, maybe… a hint of recognition. A spark.
He lets out a low laugh, brief and edged, a sound that vibrates through the suite and into the bones.
“You think you could reach?” he asks, voice smooth, almost conversational now. “That’s ambitious.”
Around them, the room roils. Reizo is shouting something obscene from atop the couch, and the thrum of the bass presses against his chest so hard it makes him restless. Bottles tip. Glass shatters. Perfume and sweat and liquor collide into something sticky and almost edible. None of it matters.
Gun’s gaze stays locked on her.
She beams at him suddenly, sweetness layered on too thick, a practiced lightness masking something sharper. The sarcasm between them is a current he can feel. He appreciates it.
Then she shifts and introduces herself.
The politeness is jarring in a room built on excess. Too formal, too careful, almost theatrical. It feels like a move.
He studies her for a long beat, sunglasses unmoved, chin tilted just slightly as if adjusting the lens through which he assesses her.
“Honoka,” he repeats, slow and deliberate.
He lets the name hang there.
“You don’t look like a Honoka.”
It isn’t an accusation. Just quiet disbelief. His tone is flat but loaded, as though measuring her like a guitar string tuned too tight.
Behind her, he notices the girl in the kitchen staring like someone just touched a live wire. Interesting. He files it away.
Gun shifts his weight, half a step closer. The air between them grows warmer, heavier. He smells faintly of smoke and expensive cologne, dry leather, something that promises and threatens simultaneously. No alcohol.
“You also don’t look like you want to be here,” he says, voice lowering, smooth enough that she doesn’t need to shout. “That’s rare.”
His tattooed hand rests against the back of the couch, the snake scales catching light as he flexes his fingers slowly, absently, deliberate, close enough that proximity alone is a statement.
“For the record, I don’t hire girls,” he continues evenly. “Other people make those arrangements.”
Oh, of course. He is above that.
“You walked into a room full of men who did,” he adds, gaze steady behind dark lenses, “and you still decided to talk back.”
Not irritation, only a sharpened curiosity that hums under your skin. Persistent tension.
He leans in just enough that the bass dulls at the edges, and she can hear him without shouting.
“That means one of two things,” he murmurs, voice low and dangerous, “you’re either very stupid… or very bored.”
That infamous infuriating smirk pulls at the corner of his mouth.
“And I don’t think you’re stupid.”
His gaze flicks down briefly, tracking the curve of her collarbone, the swell of her chest beneath the fabric—just long enough for her to notice. Then back to her eyes. He smells the faint floral trace of her perfume mingled with something more exciting, more rousing.
“So tell me, Honoka,” he says, voice dropping another notch, teasing, predatory, “how much would it take to get you in that bedroom?”
The music thuds harder, someone screams with laughter. Glass rattles. The air is humid and sticky with intoxication. Tokyo glitters beyond the windows, indifferent, distant.
Gun is unapologetic. His amusement is sharp and dark, the corner of his mouth curling like a knife. The question is no longer rhetorical. It is a trap. And he enjoys watching the edge of her balance, measuring how far she is willing to lean.
savior complex // joel & spring
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A lot of the times, when things get this broken, people don't fret too much about putting them back together.
If it's not ignored, it's destroyed so it can start new; it's easier that way. But in the same way that winter pays its respects to autumn by preserving leafless trees despite the freeze, spring pays its respect to winter by building off of what's already there when it blooms over again.
Nanuq has chosen, whether on purpose or not, one of the warmer days in February in Kugluktuk to trek out near the floe edge. About time he meet this neglected fisherman's shack that Spring has mentioned a time or two needed some TLC. This far into the film, Naomi has found her footing and is relying a little less and less on Joel, who's happy to watch from afar and is a skidoo ride or phone call away.
Really, the only reason it's gone as smoothly as it has so far is because of Spring. Her scout work, her brother's aid, the way she has a connection to just about everyone in the hamlet— if she hadn't been there at the Enokhok Inn the night they met, he's not sure things would have shaped up. You could argue that, inevitably, he and Spring would have crossed paths one way or another— the Nat Geo crew has shaken things up, to say the least— but there's a reason for magnetism, always, even if the reason is that there isn't one.
"This doesn't look so bad," he says, leading in taking a closer look despite the fact that the girl has probably been here a million times. It's cold, but not debilitatingly cold, not freeze-your-nose-hairs-off cold. He has his Carhartt on, a Red Sox hat, a pair of fleece-lined jeans, his trustiest pair of work boots. Gloves, of course— but a pair of red Milwaukee wrecker ones, so he still has ample mobility in his fingers. It's worth noting that the shack looks bad, and TLC was putting it lightly. However, it's the exact kind of thing Joel's been itching to busy himself with now that he's more or less taken a backseat on the film. It's up to Nay, now. This— this is something he can own all the way.
And no, not in a way like, he'll want to put a shiny gold plaque that says IN HONOR OF JOEL BARRETT, DOCUMENTARIAN on when he's all done with it. In a way like, he promised Spring he'd lend a hand someplace around the hamlet as a thank-you for her agreeing to be his scout— and this is him holding himself accountable. Besides, a month away from his garage where all his happy tools are has him feeling withdrawals. Idle hands are the devil's playground, as they say.
"Watch your step, sweetheart."
He trudges through some wayward planks leading up to and throughout the deck of the shack. It looks as if a bad storm or blizzard blew a chunk of it off, including the roof. The door leading inside blows open, its hinges creaking with the breeze. A ceiling light hangs from its wires, and the bones of a once well-oiled machine are still there: shelves, a desk, a chair, some hooks with old tools and poles. Just resting. Rectangular rings of dirt are on the floor, outlining where deep freezers once were.
Bravely, Joel stomps twice on the floor when inside. The planks don't crack in half, but he knows they don't have much life left. Without a clue of the age of this building, he figures it's safest if they replace the majority of it with newer, stronger, weather-treated material. The frame of it will still be here.
"I think it'll take more than a weekend, but I'm willing to get the project started and hire a crew of guys to see it all the way through. What do you think? Is it worth it?" He asks Spring because she knows this place better than anybody, even better than some of the elders. He looks over his shoulder at her, feeling kind of tall in the otherwise tiny shack. A grin splays across his face.
"We could always turn this place into Kugluktuk's first Dunkin'. Whadda you think?" Hands stretch out in front of him, mirroring the window facing the water. "Lines and lines of polar bears and narwhals and seals ready for their early morning hot n' readys. Could be good business here."
Spring stands in the doorway a moment before stepping in.
She isn’t in her usual braid. Her hair is down today—dark and loose, wind-tangled from the skidoo ride. It spills over the collar of her parka, caught in the fur trim, lifting every time the draft sneaks through the broken roof. She pushes it back absently, cheeks pink from the cold. She’s wearing her worn olive parka, unzipped halfway, a thick grey sweater underneath, seal-skin mitts tucked into one pocket. Snow dusts the shoulders like she’s been out longer than she planned.
She looks at him first.
Then at the shack.
Then back at him again.
He stomps the floorboards.
She winces slightly but doesn’t stop him. A ghost of a smile pulls at her mouth.
Her gaze moves slowly around the space—rafters bowed like old ribs, sky showing through where the roof peeled back, frost lining the inside walls. Light falls in pale stripes across the floor, catching the faint rectangles where freezers once stood.
She walks farther in, slower than before.
Her fingers trail along a hook on the wall. She closes her eyes for half a second, like she can hear something that isn’t there anymore.
When she opens them, they’re softer.
“It’s not as bad as it looks,” she says quietly.
It does look bad. But that’s not what she means.
She steps to the window facing the water. The ice stretches out, flat and blinding under the February sun. She leans her shoulder against the frame, and for a second she just stands there, breathing it in.
“I used to think this place was huge,” she murmurs. “Like… important.”
Her mouth curves faintly. The wind moves through her hair again and she doesn’t fix it this time.
She turns back to him.
He looks so determined. Measuring without tools. Claiming the space without trying to. Red gloves bright against all the grey. That stupid Red Sox hat like a flag planted in the Arctic.
“You really want to fix it,” she says, softer now.
She steps closer. Close enough their sleeves brush. Her eyes drop to the boards he stomped, then back up to his face.
“You’d have to ask around. See who still uses this stretch. My brother would probably help. A couple of the older guys would have opinions. Lots of opinions.”
“But it’s worth it.” She says.
Her voice carries something steadier underneath the humor now. Something protective.
“And we keep it what it is.”
A small pause.
“No fancy ‘JHB’ plaque,” she adds, glancing at him sideways.
And then, because she can’t help herself:
“And absolutely no Dunkin’. If I see a polar bear walking out of those doors holding a boston cream and large regular… I swear to God…”
Her hand nudges one of the weaker planks with her boot. It groans.
She looks up at him through her lashes, wind lifting her hair across her cheek.
“You know,” she says quietly. “Most people would just let it fall.”
There’s admiration there. Open. Unhidden.
She reaches out without thinking and smooths a rough splinter on the windowsill, like she’s already claiming it back.
“Start with the floor, maybe,” she says gently. “Before you go through it.”
A hint of a smile returns across her face.
gun & lili // another encore
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The suite vibrates with a kind of excess that borders on grotesque, the sound too loud for the square footage, too raw for the tasteful abstract art bolted to the walls. The hotel never intended this room to hold distortion; it was designed for quiet negotiations and discreet affairs. Tonight it holds neither.
Old Japanese punk tears through the speaker system, the bass blown out so badly it rattles the glass panes overlooking Tokyo. Reizo is on top of the couch now, boots grinding into pale upholstery, one hand gripping a bottle of tequila while he pours it into a girl’s open mouth with theatrical sloppiness. She shrieks when it spills down her chin and onto her dress, and her friend laughs too loudly, already filming. Security lingers near the entrance, eyes glazed with professional detachment. A manager paces the hallway outside, voice thin and urgent as he mutters about “international press metrics,” as though digital numbers can sanctify what is happening here.
Tokyo glows beyond the windows, humid and electric, neon signs flickering in colors that resemble open wounds. The city does not care.
Nobuo Takeda stands at the center of the room and does not sit.
His sunglasses remain on, as they have been since he walked off stage. His bleached hair hangs damp against his back, clinging faintly to the collar of his black shirt, which is unbuttoned just far enough to suggest carelessness without ever being accidental. At six foot three, he turns proximity into pressure without effort. The snake-scale tattoos on his right hand shift when he flex his fingers around a crystal glass, the ink catching the low amber lighting so that it appears textured, almost animate.
The word sold out continues to hum somewhere beneath his ribs. He can still feel the audience in his body—the heat of them, the roar, the way thousands of voices merge into something animal. It leaves him wired and faintly irritable, as though the voltage has nowhere left to go.
When the door opens again, more girls are ushered inside with casual choreography. Laughter precedes them, bright and polished. Perfume slices through the layered smells of alcohol, sweat, and cigarette smoke. Some of them carry themselves with the practiced ease of agency hires, women briefed on how to laugh, when to lean in, how to appear spontaneous while watching the clock. Others hover at the edges, less certain of their role but eager to find one. Nights like this are ecosystems of transaction, whether anyone acknowledges it or not. Glamour can be arranged. Desire can be scheduled.
Gun does not look immediately. He allows Daichi to finish mangling the same story he has told three times tonight, nodding just enough to signal attention. Eventually his gaze drifts, unhurried and predatory in its assessment.
That is when he notices her.
She is the shortest girl in the room by a margin that makes the difference impossible to ignore. In a crowd engineered around height—heels, posture, elongated silhouettes—she barely clears a few shoulders. The visual imbalance draws his eye in a way deliberate glamour rarely does. She does not immediately latch onto anyone, nor does she project herself outward with calculated enthusiasm. She simply stands there, small within the frame, as though someone placed her in the wrong composition.
He watches her for a moment longer than he intends.
Then he pushes away from the bar.
The shift in the room is subtle but immediate. Conversations bend around him. People adjust their stance without acknowledging that they are doing so. He crosses the space at an unhurried pace and stops in front of her, the height difference becoming almost absurd in its clarity. He does not need to lean forward; the imbalance establishes itself.
He tilts his head down slightly.
“Huh,” he says, almost to himself.
Up close, she smells clean, understated. There is no overwhelming sweetness, no aggressive floral insistence. The restraint registers.
He slides his sunglasses down the bridge of his nose just enough to see her eyes clearly, holding the moment a fraction longer than necessary before pushing them back into place.
“You,” he says, voice dry and controlled, pitched low enough that it does not draw spectators. “What’s your name?”
Behind him, a chair topples and shatters the rhythm of the music with a crack against marble. Laughter erupts near the kitchen. Reizo begins chanting something obscene and off-beat, slapping the ceiling with his palm as if testing its structural integrity.
Gun does not turn around.
He flexes his right hand and rests it on the back of the couch beside her head. The gesture is casual in appearance and precise in placement. He does not touch her. He does not need to. The proximity itself is a declaration.
“You’re going to need a ladder to talk to me properly,” he adds, a crooked smirk tugging at his mouth. “Or you can shout. I won’t take it personally.”
He lifts his glass and takes a slow sip, watching her over the rim without disguising his appraisal.
Around them, the party continues to dissolve into a kind of beautiful ruin—money converting into noise, reputation into sweat, hired affection into something sloppier and less defined.
He waits for her reaction, aware that most girls in rooms like this respond instantly, filling silence with laughter or flattery. For the first time since leaving the stage, his curiosity feels sharper than his boredom.
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