The Devil In Me - a proper translation
And since we’re here, let’s go all the way and translate the whole of Mortal Downer.
(TW: the lyrics to this song are about unal*ving on*self - proceed at your own risk)
In a day-to-day that keeps sinking,
I keep myself alive but barely tethered,
though no one’s eyes ever meet mine.
I’ll forever regret
being born this way,
I’ll forever regret,
that from here on out,
I will but sink,
further into depravity,
drenched in the denial
of my very being.
Who made me this way?
Is this hell
for my sake alone?
With my mind unraveling I went,
into a lair of lies wrapped in tenderness,
- and I understood them better than anyone ever could,
for that’s the kind of person I was.
Show me what it means to live.
Who made me this way?
Is this hell
for my sake alone?
On this rope I cast,
I stake my tomorrow,
and I step into the void,
for that is my final wish (1),
trusting that somewhere ahead,
lies the world I once imagined.
In a day-to-day that keeps sinking,
I keep myself alive but barely tethered,
though no one’s eyes ever meet mine.
I’ll forever regret
being born this way,
I’ll forever regret,
that from here on out,
I will but sink further into depravity,
drenched in the denial
of my very being.
Who made me this way?
Is this hell
for my sake alone?
On this rope I cast,
I stake my tomorrow,
and I step into the void,
for that is my final wish,
trusting that somewhere ahead,
lies the world I once imagined.
Goodbye, now.
I’ll hand it over in your stead,
every pathetic scrap of life I dragged myself through.
What did you really love?
(1) This metaphor carries a beauty that is hard to translate. I took some creative liberty by adding "into the void" and "final" to wish, although the original reads more literally "I plunge into my wish". I specified jumping into to the void because the narrator is describing casting a rope to h4ng themselves. So when they say they "step into the void", they're referring to stepping off the chair or platform to their demise.
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