As many of you have probably figured out by now (or if any of you care), I have been inactive on this group for quite some time due to a mixture of life and other things. But I’m here to officially say that I’m no longer going to be an active member in this roleplay- and here is my reason why.
As much as I have tried to carry on with the charade that everything was fine in the group, it just wasn’t. There had been many times that I had reblogged starters, only to be ignored by the other person. And many times I had posted starters and they were ignored except by the one or two people who have always reblogged me- those have been the same people that had always done that since the beginning of this group.
That is not how a roleplay should be run. Even with our dwindling numbers, you should not exclude people who have made an effort to be a part of this group, but sadly that was the case in many of these circumstances, especiallyin this group. This honestly isn’t even a group anymore. It’s just a clique of people who have their own plots, own cliques and frankly it’s to the point where I’m not even going to bother anymore. I’m done trying, and I really do not care anymore.
The last time I was on was the final test to see if I should stay or leave this group, and the group failed.
The time away from this roleplay has made me feel like a new person. I didn’t have to worry about who did or didn’t reblog my starter, or who or who wasn’t ignoring me, or who new characters were. This group had made me stressed out beyond belief to the point where I would be talking to people telling them I don’t know how much more I could take because it made me feel like I wasn’t good enough for the group or I wasn’t a good enough RPer. This group has not good for my mental well being, and now that I have had time away from this place a weight has literally been lifted off my shoulders and I do not want to go back to the place where I was when I was a part of this group… ever again.
It’s been real, but I’m honestly not going to miss this group. There will be some people that I have interacted with and have become friends with that I will miss, but the group… I will not.
Unfollow my characters. I will be keeping them for future uses and future indie roleplaying purposes with different names IF I have to change them, but they will not be associated with this group any longer. If people want to RP with my characters still, that is your prerogative. I will post starters occasionally for people that I will RPing with in the future. If you want to roleplay with me, you know where to find me.
As far as I’m concerned, you can all keep your cliques, keep your plots, keep your characters- I’ll be off living my life and actually RP with people who give a fuck.
And FYI, don’t use my character plots or my original characters because I will know, and if you do that would just make you a fucking shitty ass person.
This message will be queued on my other RP accounts for the rest of tonight and into tomorrow.
I’m going to go ahead and second literally this entire message.
Attention has been called to the fact that there are ‘cliques’ here multiple times, and the only answer ever given was to “Reblog other people’s starters. It’s a two-way street,” but that doesn’t work when I’m the only one driving both ways. There has to be a middle ground. And I’m sick and tired of reblogging people’s starters in an attempt to blend my characters into other groups and whatnot only to get ignored after a couple of posts or sometimes, even completely.
I’m tired of constantly being lost; constantly feeling ignored and left out; constantly feeling overlooked. And the fact that Ronnie and I are not the only ones who have felt this way should be an eye-opener to those who’ve been denying it all. As she said, this is not how a group should be run. If you want to keep within your same clique of people, then close the group to others and just make this a place for yourself! There’s nothing wrong with that. Really. There isn’t. Or make indies, or whatever - but don’t delude yourself into thinking that this is still the welcoming, family-esque group it once was in the first year it was opened. Because since then, it has changed. If you want to get back to that atmosphere, then you guys are going to have to make an actual conscious effort to include others in plots and try to branch outwards.
Of course, you could all just be reading this rolling your eyes, already set in your ways and too stubborn to change. And if that’s the case, then okay. I wish you the best in life.
But if you’re not, and you want to stop this from happening - stop people from leaving; bring this group back to it’s former glory - then please heed these words: Restart it. All of it. Take a step back. Look at what you’ve accomplished in isolating yourselves and excluding others. Try again. Be more welcoming. Be more open. Be more forgiving. Let go of the things you’re clinging to and try to make something better. Be organized. Keep things updated so that everyone’s on the same page. Change something.
I’m not sure what else to say. I’m not going to miss this group because it’s clear by now that I haven’t, nor have any of you missed me while I’ve been busy with life and work and friends and a boyfriend and my mother’s wedding coming up. I personally think that’s pretty damn sad for a group we’ve all been part of this long, but I’m officially giving up the fight. I’ve been on this battlefield for such a long time now, but I’m obviously the last one standing, so it’s time to go home.
I will second what Ronnie said again before I go. Do not use any of my original characters or plots because I’ll know, and that’ll suck on many levels. Unfollow my characters because I will be using at least some of them (like Evalynn, especially, as she is basically completely my creation and my baby) and if you really need/want to reach me, well, you’ve all always known where to find me.
Best of luck to all of you. I really do wish you all well and hope you all get what you want in life.
This post will also be queued a few times on my other accounts over the next day or so.
