Suicide

Trigger warning.

[pain-filled-memories]

I haven't posted in such a long time mainly because when I started to get better within myself I found my blog and this platform quite triggering.

Anyway the reason why I'm posting today is because I truly thought my life was never going to get better and if someone told me 5 years ago that I'd be in the place I am now I wouldn't believe them. Yes I have bad days, I have struggles but overall I am so grateful for my life and I am so glad I kept on hanging in there.

So if you see this and you're struggling please know I never thought I'd get out of the dark place I was in but the journey is so worth pursuing and you owe it to yourself to live the best life possible. Today I am 22, I live with my fiance, I have a 6 week old daughter and I never thought I would live past 18. I promise you it does get better, even if you can't see it.

Love me

[pain-filled-memories]

In the end it meant nothing because he picked her instead, But I promise it meant something to me because I wished to be dead, I can’t stop thinking what could’ve been, if you were faithful and hadn’t caused a scene.

The thought of you touching her still makes my throat burn

[sparedh]

[captainstewy]

[impactings-deactivated20240405]

If you cheat on your partner you’re trash. I don’t care what the situation was because it doesn’t matter. Nobody deserves to fall asleep at night wondering why they weren’t enough.

[pain-filled-memories]

Ha

[flowers-in-my-urethra]

[damned-and-destroyed]

[madness-of-depression-deactivat]

[pain-filled-memories]

I wish it was enough, I wish I was enough

3am thoughts (via)

[freddy-is-my-daddy]

[marci1900]

[180400]

[lonelyhurtingsoul]

[kushandwizdom]

“ I think the saddest thing in this world, is to watch someone you love turn into everything you hate. ”

http://twitter.com/goodquoteco (via kushandwizdom)

[thegoodvibeco]

[kushandwizdom]

I thank God for protecting me from what I thought I wanted and blessing me with what I didn’t know I needed.

http://twitter.com/goodquoteco (via kushandwizdom)

[itsindigowhite]

I wish mental illness was how it is in the movies; crying in your bathtub at 2 am and doing all of these wild things, and someone coming along to save you. But in reality you just lock yourself in your room all day and stare at the ceiling; and the world keeps moving around you but you just stand still.

[obaitori]

the accuracy is appalling