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Trauma / Vent blog Adult | System

[paincanbeholy]

This is a trauma / vent blog.

Adult DID System.

This blog mostly runs off of a queue unless we’re actively having a moment.

Probably won’t tag anything.

There will be triggering content on this blog.

[paincanbeholy]

12 hours..

[paincanbeholy]

30 hours.

[questionable-method]

no but im so tired of how self-deprecation is always more accepted than self-advocacy. if i say i can't drive because im autistic i get questioned on how exactly that works and given a million suggestions on how to do it anyway and i look like im trying to be special so it's easier to just say im a loser. yeah i don't drive because im kind of a loser lmao. oh well. and people say lmao back and we move on. at worst they say "oh im sure you'll figure it out haha." but no interrogation!! being a loser is more respectable than being disabled. being a loser is something that doesn't make other people feel uncomfortable about their own biases. so no, no im not disabled. i don't struggle to keep friends and do the laundry and make quick trivial decisions and clean my room and brush my teeth because im autistic. it's because im a loser. it's my fault. it is what it is. at least im funny now. do you think im funny? please think im funny

[vetchtibbles]

despite everything, it’s still you (derogatory)

[vetchtibbles]

wait hey man wait whoah hey

[youridiculouswonderfulboy]

[paincanbeholy]

I had a dream about you last night.

[roswellsoup]

Will Wood // Laplace’s Angel (Hurt People? Hurt People!)

[bardace]

Shut Up, I Don’t Care

[paincanbeholy]

I don’t wanna go to work. I haven’t slept. I don’t like the relief shifts I don’t have the energy I

I may just end up calling in sick

[ivynightshade]

fatima aamer bilal, excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘a dead leaf of a sick branch of a rotting tree’.

[text id: i am running out of metaphors / to hide this sickness in]

[hel7l7]

It is too much

[paraily]

yesterday's trauma is today's fetish

[godkissedme]

[valtsv]

yeah so i looked up my symptoms and it turns out my whole existence is flawed

[lezarus]

the hounds of love are hunting!!!!

[paincanbeholy]

Restricting all day and tracking every calorie only to cave and order smth later like .