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[paintbrush-kinnie]

*sigh* okay.

I'm making a new account. Woooo. So, yeah. I dont wanna make this all sappy.

We'll be keeping this blog up, but it will be completely inactive, except for answering dms. Please dm us to get access to our new account.

Thank you to everyone who have made this stay on this blog enjoyable. But, sadly, its not all that sunshine and rainvows anymore.

Goodbye. -Vivian

[paintbrush-kinnie]

uh. hi. it's been a bit.

for the longest time, i've been, to put it bluntly, fucking terrified to actually talk about the situation that happened & take accountability for it. i was scared that if i did, i would only make the situation worse. but i've realized that nobody owes me forgiveness, and that if i don't say something, i'll be stuck digging myself into a pit of self pity.

i'll start off with this: i treated willow like absolute shit. i,,, don't know why, honestly. i was getting unreasonably upset with someone who did nothing wrong. at this time, i was being groomed, and my groomer happened to be convincing me that willow was bad & evil, when she really wasn't. i'm not gonna fault my groomer & only my groomer though, because i was the one who decided to lash out.

i shouldn't have passed around screenshots of the conversation, either. i found the conversation i was having with friends during my other conversation with willow funny, and i thought it would be okay to share out of context. it really wasn't though, it was just getting people involved with a stupid argument & making them uncomfortable.

if i remember correctly, i was also getting flamed for lesbophobia & racism, which is... honestly, still really confusing? the person i was trying to report to willow was lesbian iirc, but i didn't bring their sexuality into the conversation. like. at all. i think the racism comments also came from me assuming this person was white, which they weren't. i will own up to this, though. i am white, & i live in an area with mostly white people. i didn't remember this person ever stating their race, so i assumed they were white. that was just ignorant bias on my part, and i apologize for making that assumption.

and, last thing i wanna mention- i believe i was being accused of ableism too, and i wanna explain where i think that accusation came from. an old friend of mine, retro, is a system. when i learned this information, i basically knew nothing about systems & didn't bother learning. i had made retro uncomfortable with comments i made, and they broke ties with me because of that.

i fully deserved retro blocking me. i never bothered to learn about systems at that time, and i never bothered asking. it was incredibly shitty on my part, and i should've educated myself. i've been questioning if i'm a system, too, which makes me feel even worse about my comments.

overall, i was just... really dumb throughout this entire drama. i had the chance to make it better & explain myself, but i take it out of fear. i can't go back and change my actions, but i've been working on changing myself & growing. i've learned a lot since this whole thing started, and i hope to no longer dwell on this part of my past that i've thought about far too often. i'm sorry, and i know i cannot force any of you to forgive me.

i will not be coming back to this account, nor will i be sharing the current tumblr that i use. i intend on deactivating this account soon, but i'm. not too sure when. i'll probably still keep it up for a week or two, idk for certain. again, i'm sorry. to willow, retro, and anyone else i've hurt & upset. i hope to leave this bit of my past behind, and i hope that gives closure to the drama that happened. i don't expect to be able to reconnect with any of my old mutuals, and i don't really intend on interacting with them, either.

i'm glad that i was able to make friends through this account. i really needed it, considering my mental space at the time. if you've read this far, thank you, and bye. i'll be signing off now- hopefully for the last time.

[bakwaaas]

normalise disliking celebrities for no reason. they don’t have to be ‘problematic’ or ‘cancelled’ I just find them annoying

[oniongarlic]

[onepersonfriendgroup]

[ridiculouslyphotogenicsinosauru]

For clarification ^-^

[thyrell]

[zicygomar]

[missreinarabbit]

[sar-per]

[marinebiologyshitposts]

[vernadskova-deactivated20230803]

[araccoonthatlikesmurder]

This is the funniest gif on the Internet

[catpda]

how can ppl say cats dont have feelings like. 

when my cat got deadly sick she refused to eat a single thing and it had been days but when i started crying she ate just a little bit, and upon seeing how happy it made me, kept doing it whenever she could.

now whenever im sad or crying she finds wherever i am with a mouthful of food and eats the pieces one by one, every time looking up at me making sure i was watching her eat it all because she knew it made me happy. and it DOES make me happy

i love cats!!! 

[catpda]

im so glad my little Foofy has touched everyone’s hearts… she luvs you all

[dankmemeuniversity]

[flipocrite]

[mundycide]

[duvidha-mp3]

[paintbrush-kinnie]

(For le ask game)

Suitcase II?

Cute or my baby :)

[my-darling-boy]

Krux is something I find under a park bench sifting sadly through and empty bag of crisps and I take him home

[my-darling-boy]

Like this

[tracfone]

@clippy

[my-darling-boy]

Really just Not Feeling Great today who wants to see a little pirate

[my-darling-boy]

Okay here he is

[my-darling-boy]

Someone’s asked if he has a crew

[wooteena]

(sent twice bc tumblr asks suck)

WOW!!!!!! it is yet another funky friend tuesday

FUNKY FRIEND TUESDAY.....

[booksandhotchocolate]

Put a fictional character in my ask

who? | only know their name | loathe | ugh | overrated | indifferent | dead | alive | just okay | cute | badass | my baby | hot | want to marry | favorite 

[mioxenoblade]

Do every retail employee a favor this Thanksgiving/black friday: stay home.

[mioxenoblade]

Just want to remind you that there’s a fucking pandemic and I mean this post 100x harder this time. If you show up you die.

[puppigoat]

Also to all the people who are saying just shop online or do cyber Monday, why do you think it’s better to shift the burden to warehouse and shopping workers! Everyone who says that shit should have to pack trucks for a week

[loverofpiggies]

I agree with this very much! The exception though, is definitely small business, like Etsy. As an Etsy seller, the Christmas season is absolutely vital to live off of, and many Etsy sellers prep through the year for the Christmas boom. The last Christmas boom I had, I was finally able to purchase a car after years of not having one.

So it’s okay to shop online, but consider *where* you’re shopping online. Small businesses on Etsy for example, LOVE the Christmas boom! After all, if you don’t want to sell during Christmas, you just shut down your store.

[lenin-it-to-win-it]

[paintbrush-kinnie]

Can you tag the mushroom post with tw holes thanks (has trypophobia)

Oh I'm sorry!!! Tagging it rn <:)