insecurities;

Paisley Lane. 32. Straight. Co-Owner of The Hideaway. In a Relationship with Harold Jones.“Seems like we’re all gonna end up in the ground at this rate.”

[paisley--lane]

the-younger-lane​:

“He better.” Penny smirked slightly.  She smiled at the kiss to her head. “Thank you for everything Paisley. I’ll see you soon.”

“Yeah, or else he will totally be sleeping on the couch.” Paisley joked lightly, before nodding her head. “I’ll see you soon, sis.” She kissed her head again before turning to leave.

[paisley--lane]

the-younger-lane​:

“I had a feeling.” Penny chuckled softly.  “I hope you have a good birthday, I’ll try to call you but if I can’t I hope you have a good day.” She smiled, squeezing her hand back. “I guess we’ll see what happens.”

Paisley smiled over at her, it seemed like she was doing better. Which was all she wanted for her. “I hope so. I don’t know if Harold has anything planned or not. But I will definitely be waiting for you call.” She stood up and leaned down to kiss her head. “You have this, Penny. I know you can do it and you are not alone in this.”

[paisley--lane]

the-younger-lane​:

Penny smiled softly when Paisley said she could pick up some shifts.  “Is that the plus side of living with you? I’ll get to cover all the shifts people don’t sign up for?” She teased gently.  “I don’t think she’ll break tradition.  I know she doesn’t show it much but I think it means as much to her as it does to you. “

“Totally and completely the plus side. That is totally why I want you to move in with me.” She teased lightly, with a small chuckle. “It does mean a lot and I hope she doesn’t break tradition.” Paisley gave her hand a gentle squeeze. “I should get going before Edward does burn the Hideaway down to the ground. But next time I come it will be to pick you up from this place hopefully.”

[paisley--lane]

the-younger-lane​:

“Things are working out with you both owning The Hideaway then?” Penny asked, thankful for a conversation that wasn’t just about how she was doing.  She nodded at the comment about her talking to Emily.  “Maybe you’ll see her on your birthday. It’s coming up, right?” Time wasn’t an easy thing for her to keep track of in here. She smiled softly at her comment about them becoming sisters. “Me too.”

“It is. And hey, if you ever want to pick up some shifts or something feel free.” Paisley told her, not minding one bit and she knew Edward wouldn’t either. “Maybe. I mean we do have that tradition since we were born on the same day. It is.” The brunette couldn’t be mad if Penny didn’t remember it. She had a lot going on. She smiled back at her. “I’m super excited for it and I can’t wait to have my sister home.”

[itsemilylane]

@paisley–lane​

“Hey, birthday twin…” She smiled lightly, walking in with a little party hat on and a cupcake with two candles in her hand. It was a little tradition and even though things had been strained the last while, she wasn’t about to break it.

[paisley--lane]

“Hey yourself.” Paisley smiled, looking over at her for a moment. She was thankful that this tradition between them remained despite the strain lately.

[paisley--lane]

the-younger-lane​:

“Eddie isn’t so bad.” Penny shrugged.  She chewed on her lip before looking at Paisley again. “Has, uh, has Emily asked about me at all?” She wasn’t really surprised that Emily hadn’t stopped by, especially after Jonas had been the one to bring her in, it was all a bit awkward.  “About living with you or about you being my sister?”

“You’re right he isn’t. He’s been really good about staying.” Paisley looked down for a moment before back at Penny. “I haven’t really spoken to Emily, if I’m being completely honest.” She stated. “About both actually. I am looking forward to us moving in together and becoming sisters.”

[paisley--lane]

the-younger-lane​:

Penny smiled when she said no pink.  She looked over at Paisley for a second as they chuckled. “Hey, I just realized this will be your first time living with a sister.” Their fucked up family wasn’t something they really talked about but that was what she was supposed to be doing, right? Talking about all the fucked up shit.

Paisley smiled back at her, while looking back at her. “Yeah, it will be. I’ve just lived with Eddie. And let’s be honest here I’m totally looking forward to us living together.” The brunette didn’t mind talking about this with Penny. She really didn’t. “Are you excited or nervous for that?”

[paisley--lane]

the-younger-lane​:

Penny couldn’t help but wonder if holding onto it was foolish.  She knew that Verity couldn’t forgive her if she didn’t forgive herself and as much as she still cared about her she wasn’t sure how it could possibly work out between them.  “Just please don’t make my room pink.” She chuckled softly, giving her a look.

Paisley didn’t mind at all, she didn’t want to let go either. And she wanted everything to work out for Penny. “Okay, fine no pink.” She chuckled, seeing the look on her face. “Promise nothing pink. Just your stuff and I’ll let you decide on what color to paint the walls.”

[paisley--lane]

the-younger-lane​:

Penny kept her hand on Paisley’s as she kept her small smile. “Yeah, I really do.” She said softly, frowning slightly when she agreed that it seemed like she was beating herself up.  She gave her a look. “I can thank you and I will.”

Paisley didn’t move her hand at all, just gave Penny’s a gentle squeeze. “And I can tell that you still love her. That right there is something to hold onto in my opinion.” Of course she noticed the look. “Okay, fine thank me all you want but there is no need to. Do you want me to set up your room at my place?”

[paisley--lane]

the-younger-lane​:

Penny smiled softly when Paisley admitted that Verity would keep track of when they saw each other. “It’s a Verity thing.” She nodded, biting down on her lip.  “I’m sure she’s only gotten more observant now. Beating herself up for not seeing what was going on with me.” She said softly. “Thanks Paisley.”

Paisley couldn’t help but smile once again when she seen Penny smiling. “Got it I’ll remember that. You really miss her don’t you?” She shrugged a little bit. “I don’t know how observant she was before. But yeah, she does seem to be beating herself up.” She admitted. “For what? You don’t have to thank me. I’m always going to be here for you.”

[paisley--lane]

the-younger-lane​:

Penny nodded, furrowing her brow.  The one person she had tried to open up to about everything was Nate and he’d been the one to get her hooked.  She didn’t know how to talk to Verity about everything, she’d never wanted to hurt her. Everything she’d done, besides getting in the car that day was to try to protect Verity, from herself, from the world, from -A. Penny chewed her lip for a minute before looking at Paisley. “Tell Verity…tell Verity I want her to come.”

Paisley nodded her head. “Yeah, I will tell her when she stops in which will be today. She knows my schedule for when I come and see you. Is that kinda of weird or something?” She questioned, looking over at her. “Or is that just a Verity thing?” Sighing a little bit. “You will get better and you have a lot of people supporting you.”

[paisley--lane]

the-younger-lane​:

Penny winced slightly as Paisley so easily called her out.  “I don’t know how to talk about it. You know our family, we barely even talk to each other about the weather, let alone what is bothering us.” She sighed, looking down at her hand as she squeezed it.  She tried to smile when Paisley said that she would always be there for her, nodding at her comment about Tom. “I guess I’m just embarrassed.” She admitted.

Paisley sighed a little bit, knowing that Penny was right. They didn’t talk about those things but she was willing to try. “I know but we should at least try and talk about things. That is better then nothing.” She nodded her head a little bit. “But in the end even if this is embarrassing you still have people in your corner. Like Tom, me and probably the woman that loves you. Just think about letting Verity visit. And I’ll give Tom the green light to come. He does stop by and ask about you.”

[paisley--lane]

the-younger-lane​:

Penny made a face when she said that might not be the reason she wanted to see her, chewing her lip again.  “Nothing could ever be the same between us, it might just hurt too much to see her.” She said softly.  She shrugged at the question of Tom coming to see her.  She knew it was probably something she had to do if she wanted to keep her job but she was a bit ashamed of having people see her here.  “I promise I’ll try to be a good roommate.”

“Or it could help.” Paisley stated, looking over at her. “Both of you need to get some things out into the open instead of bottling it up. That could also be an issue as to why you are turning to the drugs. Not talking about what is going on.” She suggested, while giving her hand a gentle squeeze. “You can always talk to me. I’m here. And I know you will be. I’ll tell Tom to stop by this way you can talk to him. He’s in your corner which is a good thing.”

[paisley--lane]

the-younger-lane​:

Penny tried not to react too strongly to the fact that Verity was going to Paisley to trying to get information about her.  She shrugged slightly, staring down at a small oblong stain on the carpet beneath them. “I don’t know if I can handle having her come here just to break up with me again.” She said softly.  So much of that night was a blur but the way that Verity had looked at her was ingrained in her brain forever.  She tried to give Paisley a smile when she squeezed her hand but it was obvious it wasn’t a real one.  “I guess it will.” She agreed half heartily.  “Thank you, for taking me in.” She said softly, turning to look at her.  “I hope it’s not affecting your life too much.”’

Paisley looked down for a moment before back up at Penny. “Maybe that isn’t why she wants to see you. Look I’m not an expert when it comes to love, but maybe she does still love you and wants to know how you are doing. Clearly she cares considering that she comes in almost every other day.” The brunette didn’t know much about that night besides what Penny had told her and the bits and pieces that she gathered from Verity. All she knew was that Penny needed her to be there. Paisley knew it wasn’t a real one but it was something. “Do you want me to tell Tom to stop by?” She questioned. “It’s not a problem at all. You aren’t affecting my life at all. I promise.”

[paisley--lane]

the-younger-lane​:

“She’s definitely a big part of it.” Penny said softly, picking at her cuticles. “Have you seen her at all? She tried to stop by but I didn’t put her on the visitor list.” she admitted, using her teeth to pick at the dry skin on her lip.  “It doesn’t feel like a good thing.” She muttered, sighing softly. “What if I can’t handle the things that I have to deal with?” She looked down at their hands, her brow furrowing slightly. “I guess I should find out from Tom if I still have a job, though I guess we should rent out the flat.”

“I could only imagine.” Paisley watched her for a moment before nodding her head a little bit. “That I have. She actually comes in a lot, asks about you. Maybe you should put her on the list.” She suggested. “It will in the end.” Paisley told her softly, giving her hand another gentle squeeze. “But you can. If you ever want to talk about things I’m here. Not going anywhere.” “I can ask him to stop by if you want? We could do that and if you want to move in with me that offer stands no matter what.”

[paisley--lane]

the-younger-lane​:

Penny furrowed her brow.  “I know. And I know that everything I’ve lost wasn’t worth the high.” She said softly. “But that doesn’t mean I don’t miss the feeling.  Now everything hurts and I just don’t even know how to deal with any of it.” She admitted.  She looked over at Paisley as she put her hand on hers.  “What did you do with my stuff?”

“Everything meaning Verity? Or just everything in general?” Paisley questioned, looking over at her for a moment. The other girl had been in a few times since Penny had been checked in. “Well that just means you are feeling things more intensely now. Which is not a bad thing, Penny. Sometimes we just need to feel and learn how to deal which probably does seem impossible but you will.” She gave her hand a gentle squeeze. “I flushed what I found but I have everything else in storage.”

[paisley--lane]

the-younger-lane​:

Penny slowly looked over at Paisley as she sat down next to her, rubbing her own arms with her hands.  “I don’t know. I don’t feel good and I wouldn’t really say no to a hit right now.” She admitted, fidgeting her fingers again.  “You’d really let me stay with you?” She asked softly, wondering if someone had cleaned out her flat and found all of her stashes.

Paisley looked down for a moment before back at her. At least Penny was being honest about it. “But you need to be stronger then that hit right? You can do this. You have a support system.” She told her softly, reaching out she placed her hand over hers. “Yes, I would in a heartbeat.” She told her honestly. “I uhh--I went to your place.”