I need you as the one luminous point in my madness
"If I love you, is that a fact or a weapon?"
I loved you with the most violent passion;
I hated you with the most bitter animosity;
I longed for your death,
and yet I sought your presence.
I dream of a grave, deep and narrow, where we could clasp each other in our arms as with clamps, and I would hide my face in you and you would hide your face in me, and nobody would ever see us anymore.
"If I let him do this to me, what else will I allow?
Anything, anything, anything."
You said I killed you— haunt me, then! Be with me always — take any form— drive me mad!
she loved him alive,
she loved him dead,
she loved him resurrected.
you'll never recover from that kind of devotion.
In the dream I don't tell anyone, you put your head in my lap.
"Do you realise how devoted I am to you, all the same? There's nothing I wouldn't do for you, dearest Honey."
The pain will remind us of each other. When we meet later, if there is a later, we will recognize each other by it.
Across centuries and the void of a world, sleepless, I seek you.
"Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing,
there is a field.
I'll meet you there"
LESTAT DE LIONCOURT AND LOUIS DE POINTE DU LAC
INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE (2022)
// Fyodor Dostoevsky , Notes from Underground // Henry Miller to Anaïs Nin, A Literate Passion: Letters Of Anaïs Nin & Henry Miller (1932 - 1953). // Margaret Atwood, We are hard // Matthew Gregory Lewis, The Monk // Franz Kafka, The Castle // Raleigh Ritchie, Bloodsport // Catherynne M. Valente, Deathless // Emily Brontë, "Wuthering Heights," // Rainer Maria Rilke, Die Liebe der Magdalena // Leah Horlick, For Your Own Good // Richard Siken, I had a dream about you // Virginia Woolf, "Letter to Vita Sackville-West," 16 February 1927 // Christa Wolf, Cassandra: A Novel and Four Essays // Rafael Alberti, tr. by Ben Belitt, from An Anthology of Spanish Poetry: From the Beginnings to the Present Day // Rumi //
