You want to know how I feel?
I feel discarded like a piece of fucking trash, but first I was the chewing gum you bought so excitedly.
You bought me and put me in your pocket for safe keeping. You told me you’d keep me forever and I felt safe and warm pressed against your body.
Then one day you ripped off my wrapper and I was blinded by the sunlight and suddenly freezing cold and so vulnerable.
You looked terrified when you saw my fear and the tears and you promised to never do it again
You wrapped me back up in my little foil wrapper, but it didn’t look as nice as the others anymore. You had ripped it and wrinkled it a bit when you pulled it off, but it was okay... I thought.
You put me back in my box and back in your pocket where I felt incredibly safe and warm again.
The contrast to the moments just before was striking and as intoxicating as slipping into a hot bath after being naked in the snow.
It felt like that for a while...
Then suddenly my wrapper was ripped off once again and a familiar light hurt my eyes. This time blends together with all the times after that... the details are gone... but I know it happened no matter how many times you tried to convince me it didn’t.
My wrapper eventually became soft and useless from being taken off and put back on, but you would still wrap it around me... the softness of the wrapper and the warmth that always came after were pleasant...
Until one day when the wrapper was finally so thin I could still feel the cold... I threw the wrapper off... it was purposeless now.
One night I emerged under colorful lights and loud music.
That day you... bent me...
Suddenly I had a dog eared corner and was no longer the rectangle I had been...
A friend put me in her pocket and took me home...
You didn’t remember it though and you never did it again...
I ended up somehow back in your pocket and in your warmth... but your body temperature had dropped and it was winter...
You put me in your mouth to keep me warm. I became soft and moldable. You chewed on me and it didn’t hurt.
The cold and the blinding light pierced me every time you took me out of your mouth and stretched me out or stuck me somewhere temporarily.
Something was changing... it was me this time... I was becoming less flexible and hard... Moving into the cold and back into your mouth over and over was taking its toll. I didn’t like it.
You didn’t like it either. My flavor had been gone for a while, but that was tolerable for you. Now I was resisting your chewing and breaking your teeth.
One day I awoke being launched into the air then plummeting to the concrete, then stepped on by you...
I was stuck to your shoe for a while, but I fell off eventually. Where I fell off was no coincidence. I found myself surrounded by gum like me. They are all different colors and flavors, and they are forming a sturdy tower together. With their help, I am healing and learning more about myself than you ever bothered to learn.
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