Angsty Trash

Aquarius. Angsty dork loser. If you need me I'll be in the trashcan ok. Sometimes I do stuff with my life but meh. Fakin' it til I make it to confidence and happiness. Proud to be an ELF, Shawol, Kiss Me and ARMY *^*

[fyjjong]

(180331) @funkyjh2: today of all days, as i thought about the “scent”, i thought about the perfume that jonghyun used so i’m posting this. i’ve liked it too so i’ve used it but it’s the perfume that jonghyun used really a lot. today, when even using all five senses, it doesn’t feel real. if i could feel that smell .. maybe it would have been sufficient on that day. 

sometimes it’s not enough to use all five senses to remember someone. (source: fantaemsie) [note: junhyeok is a childhood friend of jonghyun and member of his composition team, wefreaky.]

[lgbtshawol]

as the seasons change, there’s no reason to worry about if we’re leaving him behind in the winter. “just looking at you smiling, just watching over you, makes me feel at peace.” we’ll always be so grateful for you, jonghyun. ♥

[fyjjong]

thank you to soompi for awarding jonghyun with the hallyu special award at the 13th annual soompi awards. – hallyu special award jonghyun. 1990 - 2017 we will remember you in the verses of your poetry and in the bars of your music. we will remember you in all the lives you touched and the passion you lived the world with. the brightest star on stage. you will be dearly missed. jonghyun. poet. artist.

[fyjjong]

(180407) @funkyjh2 (junhyeok of wefreaky): on april 8th, it’s jonghyun’s birthday. the words jonghyunnie said to us and words we want to say to jonghyunnie we put into lyrics. the full video is on youtube. i’ll put the address in my profile. jonghyun-ah, happy birthday. #jonghyun #birthday #youworkedhard [note: the title, “수고했어요”, basically translates to “you did well”.] translation of caption on the video: hello. i’m a friend of jonghyun, junhyeok and i belong in the team rootbridge. the song “2:34” that we worked with jonghyun was written by him for us, friends. as we remember him, we wrote what we want to say back to him. since the last promise he promised with us was “let’s see each other again” it touched us. so, as a birthday present, we are giving him a song. (source: yellowflower525) – translation of lyrics: jonghyun - you did well

the moon shines brightly on a dark night i think of you, who smiled brightly. all of those times that i didn’t know you i start to hate all of that.

i feel too much of your emptiness even if i try to fill it, what should i do? will it get better as time flies?

i will live happily even though it’s hard, i will never forget you. yeah, we’ll see you later, like we promised. i will live happily even though it’s hard, i will never forget you. yeah, we’ll see you later, like our old days. thanks for your work.

made our night blue every day, but you lived in a dark space. all of this look and pain maybe we just lived too far away.

i will live happily even though it’s hard, i will never forget you. yeah, we’ll see you later, like we promised. i will live happily even though it’s hard, i will never forget you. yeah, we’ll see you later, like our old days. you did well.

[jjonghyun]

04/08/1990 - happy birthday to the brightest star in the sky. us down here on earth will never forget your words of encouragement, love, and inspiration. thank you, we miss you, we love you, our jonghyun ✧･ﾟ: *✧

[fyjjong]

the story by jonghyun ♡ making of directed by: dari (source)

[fyjjong]

the story by jonghyun ♡ making of directed by: dari (source)

[inbusanfirst-blog]

jonghyun; quotes

“I resemble the moon? Yeah, that’s right since I always appear at night.”

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“SHINee are really the best.”

— on his favourite group.

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“There are not many people who would want to know the real me.”

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“I love my mum so much. I’m going to live with my mum forever.”

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“I don’t think crying or showing your sensitivity is a bad thing.”

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“Being without the other members, I feel 5 times more free, but I’m also 5 times lonelier.”

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[lescitrons]

JONGHYUN you did well.

[ultrakdramamama]

MY HEART 💔  (╥_╥)

Everybody ~ 180226 SHINee WORLD THE BEST 2018 〜FROM NOW ON〜 Tokyo Dome

cr: @ohnoxyonho​    vid. cr:  @onewfigure

[tomatthefarm-deactivated2018070]

“The truth is, that person also knows that. They know that they should quickly start moving again. They wish—so much—that they could. But they can’t do it. […] A physical wound is different from a wound in the heart.”

SHINee Jonghyun, how to comfort someone

[ultrakdramamama]

Jonghyun’s Memorial on the 6th floor of the SMTown CoEx Artium

They have displayed SHINee’s and Jonghyun’s Discography, along with Jong’s concert Kazoos and handbells. They also have the lyrics of Our Season on one wall. They are also playing his new song. :)

[johnjenyumindery]

This is not the end

!Attention all human beings!

Ever since I heard about Jonghyun’s suicide yesterday, I had been in pure shock. It was like I was dreaming and the world was beginning to shift around me. He was one of my favorites in kpop. It was too real, too groundbreaking to swallow.

I was numb.

I led the day mourning his death, unable to focus on literally anything and everything because of how strange and horrifying this all was.

It felt surreal

But, today, I am angry.

Jonghyun’s death had been trending #1 around the world yesterday and his suicide sparked so much conversation. People are beginning to talk about the stress that kpop idols have. People are beginning to talk about just how ruthless entertainment industries are. People are beginning to understand that there is a horrifying lack of understanding and care for mental health issues in both South Korea and all over the world.

I am happy that these issues are being talked about.

But I am also angry that Jonghyun had to die for people to open their eyes to them.

When will we begin to listen and care for one another without needing a tragedy, a martyr, a broken soul to show us the way?

This is a failure.

A failure in society.

A failure of a country.

A failure of the system.

They have all failed Jonghyun. They have failed the one million people who take their lives every year. They have failed our children, our siblings, our parents, our grandparents. They have failed our friends, our families, our countrymen, fellow citizens of the world.

A week after his death everything will go back to being the same. His death will be tragic, but society will cover and forget about everything. Mental health will become another underrated issue and we will need another martyr for people to care again.

But I won’t allow it.

I won’t allow for another precious life to vanish because we forgot to care again. I won’t allow for Jonghyun’s death, and everyone else who had thought that life was not worth living, to be forgotten.

No more tragedies. No more martyrs. No more broken souls.

No more failure.

I am asking for everyone to fight against this global epidemic. I am asking for everyone to do their very best in helping our world with this issue. Just saying ‘hi, how are you?’ or 'have a good day’ can make such a difference to people suffering. We need to show that we care and are there for people in need, that they are not alone. Please donate to charities and engage in your community. Join the conversation. Please get some help if you or anyone around you is suffering.

Do not let Jonghyun’s or anyone else’s death be in vain.

This is not the end.

This is the beginning.

❤❤❤

[michitae]

I believe that the Golden Disk Awards this year had the some of the most moving tributes for Jonghyun. From IU’s touching speech about mental health, self-care, and grieving to seeing Yeri crying during IU’s encore stage to hearing Jonghyun’s comforting words with Lee Hi’s breathtaking performance of ‘Breathe’ to Taeyeon’s tears while watching Lee Hi’s performance to Leeteuk’s speech asking everyone to always remember Jonghyun, all of these moments have showed us the impact that Jonghyun has had on his fellow artists’. 

Thank you Golden Disk Awards for remembering Jonghyun. Thank IU for reminding people that artists and idols are still human  Thank you Yeri for being strong at such a young age. Death is such a foreign concept to many of us until we are faced with it suddenly and it can suffocating but you are fighting so well.  Thank you Lee Hi for having the courage to sing ‘Breathe’ because I couldn’t imagine how hard it was for you to decide to do this. I broke down when you cried during ‘Breathe’ Thank you Taeyeon for still being strong despite the pain (and congrats on both yours AND SNSD’s Bonsang because I didn’t expect SNSD to get one!!) Thank you Leeteuk for reminding us to always remember Jonghyun and to support the rest of the SHINee members.  Thank you to all the other artists who joined in remembering Jonghyun of all the times he has given us comfort and peace at mind with his words and music. All of you give each of us so much joy and happiness every day. Like IU said, always remember however that your happiness comes first. 

[mrstaeminlee]

I know this is gonna sound cheesy but can we as shawols (or anyone for that matter) please make a promise to never stop talking about Jonghyun? I want to talk about him for the rest of my life; and not just his death but his life, how he loved to laugh and the funny things he would say, the weird faces he would make, the way he scrunched up his face when he was really happy, how he slept with his eyes partially open; or how can we forget “IS THIS THE REALITY YOU WANTED?!”. I made a promise to him to love everyone I meet, to never be afraid of showing love to another person because you never know who might need it. I just don’t want him to ever fade out. I want to talk about him forever, so that maybe we can prevent someone else from feeling the same way he did. Let’s promise to never stop talking about him.

[sullaem]

151103 blue night

there is a saying that “time is medicine,” yes..

but, hm.. i don’t entirely agree with the idea that time is medicine, so. still, if time passes.. rather than saying time is medicine, i think time just covers things up. i don’t think it heals you, and if you want to heal i think it’s better to seek some other methods.

one thing i do think i can tell you is that if time passes, you will hurt a little less than you do right now.

* t/n - the korean idiom “time is medicine” is equivalent to “time heals all wounds” in english.

trans. @sullaem please do not edit or repost

[emotual]

jonghyun really was like the saying “once in a blue moon” because people like him don’t come along very often. people with his energy, his compassion, his intensity, his beauty, his selflessness, his genuineness, his talent, his everything. he was brilliant, he was magnificent, and i’m so glad to have witnessed that, to have witnessed him. i love you jonghyun.