pandora

be kind. always.

[pandorasboxofthoughts]

sabe quando você tem que tomar uma decisão mas nenhuma delas parece ser a certa? pois é.

[pandorasboxofthoughts]

too fat

too skinny

too little

too much

growing up, I was always too-something

somehow, I always felt like I was nothing at all.

[pandorasboxofthoughts]

what do we write about when we're empty inside?

MF.

[estranhoconhecido]

[o-druida-ebrio]

Bukowski

[pandorasboxofthoughts]

as a teacher, I've always loved words

I love sentences, I love texts

and I love letters

but my favorite one will always be u.

[pandorasboxofthoughts]

nobody ever talks about how hard it is to enjoy happiness after being depressed your whole life.

[pandorasboxofthoughts]

The worst part of feeling this again is that I know where this will take me and it isn't somewhere good.

mf.

[pandorasboxofthoughts]

[fungusamongusblog2]

[bitmemisoykuler]

I wonder how this place would turn out if porn was free again

[bitmemisoykuler]

[beforeorenda-deactivated2022022]

[amoraando]

[pandorasboxofthoughts]

o mais difícil em ser adulto não é acordar cedo, nem trabalhar duro e nem manter uma casa limpa. é a solidão que a fase adulta traz.

você não vai mais pra escola todos os dias, onde você vê seus amigos e fala com eles todos os dias.

você chega em casa, come, dorme e vem outro dia

outro dia no mesmo lugar, com as mesmas pessoas.

seus amigos em outros lugares, com outras pessoas.

é uma luta diária pra não cair no buraco do "será que não nos falamos/vemos com tanta frequência pq não somos mais amigos ou só temos obrigações que demandam muito esforço?".

por mais que eu odeie a minha época no ensino médio, eu me sentia muito menos solitária do que quando eu chego em casa, deito a cabeça no travesseiro e fico esperando a hora de dormir.

às vezes, mesmo com todas as pessoas do mundo afirmando que estão do nosso lado, é difícil sentir que elas realmente estão. e aí a gente tem que aprender a lidar com a própria companhia.

- but how do I do that if I grew up believing I was the worst?

MF.

[pandorasboxofthoughts]

I miss actually having friends. I miss being able to rely on someone. I miss going to each other's houses everyday, I miss waking up early to get dressed to a party, I miss doing nothing together and being comfortable with it. I miss late texts about random things in life. I miss talking about nothing but at least talking to each other.

I miss knowing who you are. I miss knowing every step you'll take, every word you'll say. I miss you. In my life. I miss what we used to have.

- it's worst when you lose a friend but you actually didn't.

[pandorasboxofthoughts]

You can talk whatever you want about me. You can make up scenarios in your head where I am the villain, you can tell everyone how much of a shitty person I am. That's the difference about us. I would NEVER talk shit about someone's mental health. I would NEVER spread out lies about someone that just wants to make out of this alive.

I've been there. One, two, ten times. People stabbed me in the back multiple times. I've learnt how to ignore bad people. Your comments are nothing to me. At the end, I know I'm a great person that does great things. I dont live in lies like you do.

Thank you for nothing. I have my own friends and my own life now.

- MF.

just some things I needed to take out of my head.