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my weight went back up to 130 and i’m in a ball in a chair trying not to have a panic attack about it. why is recovery so fucking hard. why did i have to weigh myself. i was having an okay day until this. god dammit. gimme a week and ill be bones again.

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oh my god life is so short drink hot chocolate and draw on yourself and take thousands of pictures and wear short shorts and feel your skin and breathe deeply and just say fuck it!!!!!

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“Find meaning. Distinguish melancholy from sadness. Go out for a walk. It doesn’t have to be a romantic walk in the park, spring at its most spectacular moment, flowers and smells and outstanding poetical imagery smoothly transferring you into another world. It doesn’t have to be a walk during which you’ll have multiple life epiphanies and discover meanings no other brain ever managed to encounter. Do not be afraid of spending quality time by yourself. Find meaning or don’t find meaning but ‘steal’ some time and give it freely and exclusively to your own self. Opt for privacy and solitude. That doesn’t make you antisocial or cause you to reject the rest of the world. But you need to breathe. And you need to be.”

— Albert Camus, Notebooks 1951-1959

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being a boy/nb person with an ED is like thanks for the absolute lack of visibility

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People spewing sнiт about eating disorders like they know what’s up:

Me, not wanting to out myself:

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Is it just me or does anyone else feel different when they’re hungry? It’s like my body looks different to me after I eat, like I can go the whole day not eating and I’ll feel skinny and my collar bones will seem to stick out more and my waist will be a little slimmer. But then when I eat it feels like I grow 2 sizes bigger and all of a sudden I’m fat again and never want to eat again. It happens even if I eat like a carrot or something really low cal. I don’t know I feel so stupid