[panthrology]

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00 GAME DEV -> niyah (panther) ★ LVL 9TEEN★ caribbean ★jjk-centric platform ★ contains N$FW in between each line of code so minors beware . ★ pisces sun — gemini moon — libra rising.

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[panthrology]

thinking of starting this account back

[panthrology]

Can I be 👾 anon por favor 🫶 I luh you 🫶🫶🫶

yea

[panthrology]

tw, see tags

I absolutely despise the fragility of my mental state.

The lack of effort it takes for one small thing to widen the cracks in my psyche—poorly woven together with flimsy patchwork—is sickening to me. It makes my blood boil, and it feels like all I can do at this point in time is kick and scream.

Through the days where the sun and moon were sharing their place in the sky equally, the scales felt more balanced than they are now. The moon would soothe the harsh burns from the bright heat of the sun, and the sun would bestow its light where the murky shadows of the moon would be.

Although in hindsight, the sun would noticeably be brighter and shine harsher than the moon would, often trying to overpower and have every planetary body orbit around it. It’s beams become too brilliant, and anything too close either gets incinerated, or is forced to become part of its shadow.

It is a star after all.

The moon’s light wasn’t as loud as the blazing rays coming from the sun were, always second place too—trying to heal after the damage had already been done. It was never enough to make the painful memories burned into my retinas fade away. Although very lightly, I began to resent it once I saw my muscles react without my input. Running, hiding, shielding from its rays. Screaming at the burns, cursing at the sun, my own body reacting in hopes of reducing the severity of the inflicted sears onto my skin.

It never worked. I was the constant inferiority in their orbit, reminded that only they were the star, the body with supreme authority by any means necessary.

I began to believe its philosophies with enough conditioning. The chilling feeling without the warmth of sun became too unbearable, goosebumps making me itch until underneath my nails were scarlet, eventually internalising the darkness and becoming an inconsequential mess that knew only failure. Only after the immense shivering and clinging to scarred skin would I crawl back to the scalding blaze of the sun. As long as it meant feeling warm again. 

The cool light of the moon was calm, awakening yet a sensation unlike the absence of the sun. I clung to it like a lifeline during times like these—even if it wasn't much. She was the silver lining to it all, my source of consolation and insight when I began to mature. I inherited her intelligence eventually, learning familiar roads that keep ending up at the same destinations, passing the same lakes and trees whenever she knew that the following day would be too hot.

So naturally in my older age I began to see patterns when solar flares would arise. They often come from a place of regret and lack– attempting to heat up spaces while its mass seems hollow from the inside. Her words of wisdom rang inside my head and became law even as the nights got shorter.

So why hasn't everything been fixed?

I have never known or understood how old habits die hard until now–joyous to my naivety. Outbursts felt like infernos without the serenity of the moon–scorching off layers upon layers of skin at a time. And ah, the double edged sword of having an awakened mind: accusatory expressions firing right back and the body becoming my own betrayal on the grounds of reflexes, of course they’d only fan the flames. See, the Sun knew his way around defiants, people who wouldn't conform–he’d been threatened, questioned. 

So really he had no issue with playing morally grey cards if it meant he stayed on top.

During the dark days, the tidal wave of failure after a small mistake could be my breaking point. The absence of the sun forging whispers in the shadows about what could've or should’ve been, yet am not and may never be. On the really dark days, my own existence becomes jarring, and suddenly the breaching of skin turns into clawing at my throat, willing myself away with a strength until the pressure behind my eyes becomes too great and my lungs burn for air. I was never sure how this urge came about, but the sharp aches and burns throughout my body seemed enough to overcast the deeper pain within.

Yet even through the dismissal, the burns and all, I see a version of me, small hands and feet, clad in a shirt that would drape over my knees. She waddles out to play after shutting a door behind her while clutching at wilting daisy chains and a worn teddy bear, eager to get rid of the chill if it means feeling the warmth of the sun kissing her skin once again.

Even for a little while.

[kamiflix]

▶︎︎ Body (starring . higuruma hiromi)

synopsis . Your sweetheart of a boyfriend becomes a different person during sex. content . afab!reader, established relationship, slight body worship, praise, dirty talk, pet names, creampie, etc.

author's note: our (yes our) man has finally been animated, ngh. this is a revised repost from kamitv, if it looks familiar that’s why. banner art by Rororogi Mogera.

Higuruma’s the kinda guy that has no idea how the hell he pulled you so every time your eyes linger on him a little bit too long, he gets nervous as fuck. Sweat will trickle down the back of his neck and he gulps loudly enough for you to hear it, to which you start smiling at him.

Those wide-set eyes of his carefully drag back over to you and he notices the way you’re staring at his nose. You always gush about how much you love that part of his face and ever since then he can’t control the twitch beneath his slacks as he replays exactly why you love his nose so much in his head.

And hey, it’s no help that you’re sitting right on top of him right now. Your manicured nails that he paid for grazing all over his skin, touching his neck, his jawline, and soon his face too. Then you lean in and kiss the bridge of his nose so softly that it makes him grunt.

“You’re so perfect Hiromi,” You’d hush out to him in that tone you know drives him craze.

Higuruma is left slouching further back into the couch and spreading his legs further apart with a not-so-subtle roll of his hips upwards against you. “Please. That’s all you, sweetheart.” He tries to play it off as if he’s not complete putty in your hands but lord knows when you start trailing your touch down his breath his hitching in his throat.

You smile—a sight he can never get enough of, truly. “Take the compliment, Hiro. I’m bein’ serious…” Your fingers are wrapping around his tie now and his eyelids are all low on you.

Still trying to play it off, this time with a chuckle, he hums. “…Thank you, love.” He’s such a gentleman too, all easygoing and relaxed for you.

Which says a lot considering the kind of man he becomes while he’s fucking you.

Higuruma isn’t exactly mean, nor is he much of a talker during sex but… His cock damn sure says a lot as he later fucks up into you just to hear those sweet praises you give him.

You just love complimenting your man and he loves being complimented—honestly the perfect match for each other.

Every moan of his name that leaves your lips only drive him deeper and deeper inside you. He’s so stupidly in love with you and most times it shows through sex instead of words. Despite how he’ll have you bouncing up and down on his left curved cock for hours, this is the most passion you’ll get from the overworked man.

And when he does open his mouth to speak, your cunt is fluttering around his thick head. Whispering a crisply husk utterance of, “Fuck. Ride me, love. Ride me juuus’ like that. Y-Yeahhh. Shit. Love these fuckin’ hips, don’t stop movin’ ‘em.”

Your moaning grows louder by the second and he’s guiding you up and down his dick, eyes rolling to the back of his head with every perfect slam of your ass down onto him. His groans are so deep that they practically bounce off of the walls of your living room, leading you to clamp around him tighter than before.

Higuruma especially loves your nails for some reason. He can’t get enough of how they feel ghosting his skin every time you move your arms or whenever you move to grab ahold of his face and lean down to kiss him. That’s why he’s always paying for them (even though he secretly loves spoiling you too).

Then, when you get a bit more confident and slip your hands down to hold onto his arms, he groans again. His grip on your hips would tighten and there’s just one wet plop after another while you ride him in earnest.

Which is what prompts filthy words to pour out of his mouth like, “Uhuh, fuck yourself on my cock, pretty girl. C’mon, you can do it. Make yourself feel good. Use me baby, use me.”

Again, he’s not much of a talker but sometimes you cause the words to just spill from his lips. While he’s spewing filth out to you, you’re getting closer and closer to a messy release. It’s right as you’re about to cum that he demands you look him in the eyes (no matter the position) so that he can watch them gloss over as you cum all around his girthy cock.

You look so fucking gorgeous when you come undone too—it’s a sight Higuruma simply can’t get enough of. Half the time, he ends up fucking his cum up into you just because of that look alone. You wouldn’t even be able to move or run from his deep thrusts, feeling every inch of his carry against your walls until his cum is fucked all the way in to the point that it’s dribbling out of you.

It’s messy but, he loves it. He loves you. And even after sex, he still doesn’t understand how the hell he’s managed to bag a beautiful woman such as yourself…

banner art by Rororogi Mogera || perm everything tags:

@cupidstrace @daxphoriax @blubearxy @nanamitiddiechomper @lucy-lulu @serenadesvt @theodoresvalentine @blcknebula @babblybebe @iluvatsumuuuui

@remscreams @a-jazzy-bee @sktvienna @dawnsoblivion @chloeee20 @naoybby @lanamyersismywife @anosreep @strwbrrymoonwrites @andhereweareallalone

@sindulgent666 @lisabelhyhn @sweetieelilii @sukubusss @yourlocalcatscammer @megottheswaskikacooooke @suguphile @withersworld @ohreallyfriend

@iam-souless @kitassecretgf @burpgod2rizzy @wonderfullymickey @2kool4skoolll @not-a-glad-gladiator @navyllll

(if i incorrectly tagged you pls lmk bc some of you guys said everything except certain characters and this technically isn't on my taglist but yk...)

[panthrology]

YO, YOU GOT GAMES ON UR PHONE ?

00 GAME DEV -> niyah (panther) ★ LVL 9TEEN★ caribbean ★jjk-centric platform ★ contains N$FW in between each line of code so minors beware . ★ pisces sun — gemini moon — libra rising.

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© PANTHROLOGY 2024 ★ please do NOT copy, repost or modify my pieces, apply credit when necessary.

[panthrology]

reposting cause im finally editing my age a year too late even tho im literally turning 20 just now lmao

[panthrology]

guys how to stop being anxiety spikes when parent clearly isn't happy w u but consistently expresses disappointment & frustration in u over small little things.

[lostfracturess]

Hi, I love your fanfics! Especially the gojo ones! I just had one question… do you use chat gpt in your writing because you use a lot of m dashes and it sounds like ai 🤖 and I put one of them through an ai detector and it came out to a whopping 60%! Please do not take offence 😅

i will take offense actually.

why would you take my work, copy it, and send it to an ai detector without my consent ? you don't know where those tools store text or what they do with it and you didn't even think to ask before pasting something i spent hours working on into god knows where to probably train the very models you're accusing me of using. that's a massive violation of my privacy as a writer and deeply disrespectful.

the em dash is a stylistic choice for pacing and emphasis that has been used in literature for centuries. if you go read classics like wuthering heights or jane eyre, you'll see they are full of them. would you copy and paste charlotte brontë into an ai detector and accuse her of using ai too ?

this really bothers me a lot, not just because of this message, but because how disrespectful people on tumblr have become toward authors in general.

you don't know how much time i put into my writing. you don't know how many hours of my free time go into planning, drafting, editing, and rewriting. this is something i do for free, purely because i want to share something i made with others.

so yes it's genuinely violating to find out that my work was copied and pasted into an ai detector without my consent and then waved back at me like proof of something. interactions like this are exactly why i consider taking everything down.

[leclercloveletters]

fell for the esdeekid propaganda why does his shit go so hard 😭😭😭

[panthrology]

bro literally

[lunni-e]

hi lunnie how are u doing its been eons 😣🩷🩷

oh my GOD NIYAH ITS BEENN SO LONNGGG IM GOOD HOW ARE YOUUU OMGG I MISSED DYOU BABESS

[panthrology]

HIII omg im glad ur okay 😭😭🩷 literally feels soo weird coming back after so long.

I've been good!! college has me by the balls but im here lmao

[veejiez]

dreams are so creepy. like. what do you mean i just visited the SAME location from a dream i dreamed TEN YEARS AGO and my brain picked up where we left off??

[elbiotipo]

Every time there's a nature vs. nurture debate someone says "well SOME of these conditions must be inherent" and you look at them further and no they really aren't

[elbiotipo]

Not to oversimplify one of the biggest debates of all science and the humanities of course. But again most of the time when people try to cling to the idea that there are things inherent and inheritable they're proven wrong and you have a feeling that they're doing it just for the sake of nuance. Or eugenics.

[elbiotipo]

When things are proven to be "inheritable" well, many things are inheritable. It does not mean that they're inherited through genes. Poor access to education is indeed "*inheritable* in a society with discrimination and low social mobility.

"poor academic performance is correlated with these arbitrary racial categories" hmm. I wonder why that is.

[elbiotipo]

I yearn for the day when IQ is considered the worse, more harmful version of astrology. I hope it is forever disterred from any scientific analysis and the popular consciouness

[lifetipsandcrystals]

IQ started as some guy’s earnest attempt to help disadvantaged students and quickly became a racist pseudoscience people use to justify atrocities against the most vulnerable children, astrology on the other hand is mostly harmless fun to make life a little more whimsical unless you are an asshole or a scammer (or an asshole scammer), astrology only receives the amount of hate it does because it is mainly a “women’s” interest.

Yes, there are some wacky people really in to astrology but for the most part it is a silly and fun harmless entertainment unlike whatever the white supremacists are using to reinvent phrenology this month.

[panthrology]

made the executive decision to come back if its not crickets out here 😣 will be updating mt blog because It needs changing and I've been 19 for ages 😭😭😭

[panthrology]

HIIIII NIYAHH:333333 ILYYYY AAAND I HOPE UR DOING SOOSO GOOD ANGEL!!!!!!! - @teddybeartoji

hi honey, hope you're doing okay. ☺️ thanks for checking in on me and I hope you're doing okay too

[panthrology]

Hi there 🌿 I shared my friend Mohamad’s story.

He’s facing immense hardship trying to support his displaced family while recovering from surgery.

Please consider reblogging 🔁 or donating 💖 if you can. Every bit helps 🙏

– Adam

coming off hiatus, im so sorry I didn't see this before. using my tiny platform to repost, i cant donate myself at the moment, but pls reblog to share their friends story.

[teddybeartoji]

sae likes to use his middle and ring finger on you whenever he's in the mood to torture you with a few good orgasms because he loves to watch his wedding ring get all messy,, he won't stop until it's coated in a thick white layer, until he can barely see the color of it – it makes his dick twitch like nothing else.

[panthrology]

er might be back chat idk