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yuucas in the big 2026???? it's more likely than you'd think.
back in 2020 when i first finished TPN Yuugo was my favorite... but this reread is giving me lucas brainworms. (ignore how his arm is on the wrong side in the first photo) (and also I COMPLETELY FORGOT HIS SCAR)( pretends its an AU where theyre all happy and goldy pond never happened)
anyways... I have evil thoughts in my head about these two. (im not sure if I should share it here because it might be OOC, but ill do it anyways)
Lucas has liked yuugo ever since they were on the farm. I think thats obvious.. but my hc for yuugo depends on how im feeling
option 1: I don't think yuugo grows out of his feelings for dina anytime between the farm and goldy pond. However, he DOES start to develop feelings for lucas sometime after the escape (hes constantly switching between Dina and Lucas) (greedy as hell)
option 2: Yuugo's feelings develop after their reunion, but theres a very fine line between genuine affection and pure desperation after 13 years of loneliness. their relationship is a STRUGGLE. Somedays yuugo gets affectionate with lucas, and the next he'll ignore him completely. He still sees lucas as a friend ofc, but having lucas in front of him alive and breathing brings back too many memories and regrets. He's scared to get close again because of how unpredictable tomorrow can be, but for the same reason, he's scared of wasting the time they have. Yuugo likes having lucas close, and at the same time, he's scared that what they have isn't right for either of them. Yuugo isn't even sure if these feelings for lucas are actually there. He feels that he's taking advantage of what lucas is willing to give to him, while yuugo can't give anything in return if he's clinging onto anything he can take.
(lucas has his own problems too but im not gonna talk about him right now)
because i'm not evil, I'd say that yuugo's feelings for lucas are very genuine. It just takes him a while to figure it out 💔💔
You’re in the middle of this deadly playground. Goldy Pond.
You have three seconds to make the most important decision of your life, the hardest.
Because the forest stinks of blood, sweat, tears, damp soil and Leuvis is after all of you. Demons are moving through the trees. Lucas is injured and Yuugo is screaming at you to move.
And you only have two choices.
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1- Stay in Goldy Pond.
Stay with Lucas. Help him hold Leuvis back long enough for Yuugo to escape through the gigant ventilation system that leads above this hunting ground. Stay behind in A08-63 knowing the chances of you never leaving become more real by the second.
You know what these poachers are, you saw what they did to your family, you know this place eats children alive.
Lucas grabs your arm despite the blood soaking through his clothes.
“Go!”
“That’s an order!”
But you stay anyway. You pick up the axe on the ground, you hear Yuugo shouting your name somewhere in the distance.
And Goldy Pond will either become your grave or your prison.
For once second, all you can think is:
“What if I had run with Yuugo?”
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2- Run with Yuugo.
Listen to Lucas and run.
Follow Yuugo through the dense forest of Goldy pond, get to the vents, move through the deadly demon forest once you’re out, through the freezing desert without a single item but the glove Yuugo found when you had to double back to check for survivors.
You leave Lucas behind.
Maybe he will die, maybe he’s already dead and maybe the last thing you will ever hear from him is: “DON’T LOOK BACK!”
Yuugo grabs your wrist hard enough to bruise and drags you forward while wild demons screech. They let out terrifying ear piercing screeches and howls.
But you survive.
And survival means living with all of it.
The guilt, the memories, seeing the empty bunk beds, living with the shell of who Yuugo was. And living with the question that will haunt you for the rest of your life.
“What if I had stayed with Lucas?”
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I've had this idea attached deep into my brain for a long time now, related to James Ratri and the tragedy of imagining him as your secret lover.
Because imagine being married to Mike Ratri, the man who one day would stand among the highest authorities of the clan. You married Mike young, young enough to understand that entering the Ratri family meant entering a world you were never truly supposed to touch.
Mike was never cruel.
That was the complicated part.
He was composed, intelligent, respected by every branch of the family. A man trusted with negotiations, operations, decisions that shaped the balance between worlds. Older than you by decades, already fully formed while you were still becoming yourself.
But he was distant in the way only powerful men can be.
He never felt like a husband. He felt more like a guardian assigned to your life. Someone who provided, observed, corrected when necessary, but never truly reached for you emotionally. Mike liked control, order, predictability. He wanted his household to be calm, elegant, respectable. He wanted harmony more than intimacy.
And then there was James.
Back then, James Ratri was the thirty-fifth leader of the clan. Young for the title, terrifyingly brilliant, raised under expectations heavy enough to crush most people long before adulthood. Peter himself described him as kind, refined, handsome, sincere, almost impossibly noble.
And somehow, beneath all that responsibility, James was still warm.
You met him long before either of you understood what would eventually happen between you. At first he was simply Mike’s nephew. The future head of the clan. Someone untouchable.
But James never treated you like an outsider trying to survive among people born into power. He never spoke down to you. Never reduced you to Mike’s wife. In a family where every interaction felt measured and political, James spoke to you naturally.
That was what ruined the two of you.
Long clan gatherings would end and somehow the two of you always ended up alone. At first it was accidental. Quiet conversations after dinner. Passing remarks in hallways. Brief moments beside open windows while rain hit the gardens outside the estate.
Then those moments became intentional.
A second chance at freedom.
That is why their relationship in this kind of story becomes so devastating once James discovers the truth behind the Promise.
Because canonically, James was raised believing the Ratri clan protected peace between humans and demons through noble sacrifice. Then he discovered Julius Ratri’s hidden confession and realized the entire foundation of that peace had been built on betrayal. Innocent humans, including the descendants of Julius’s own allies, had been abandoned to become cattle for demons.
That revelation destroyed him. Not immediately but quietly.
James began carrying guilt like a second skin. Meetings became longer. His absences more frequent. He started building shelters, coded systems, and escape routes under the name of William Minerva while pretending to continue leading the clan normally.
And through all of it, he kept coming back to you.
Because you were the only thing in his life that still felt human, but James also understood something you hated him for in the end.
Mike’s neutrality protected you because the old man never fully sided with Peter or James.
He remained in the middle where survival was easiest. That neutrality became armor around you and the children. Around your children. Around the life attached to the Ratri name.
James lost that protection the moment he betrayed the clan. And James understood Peter better than anyone else ever could.
That is another tragedy of canon. James never truly hated his younger brother. Even while Peter hunted him, James understood why he did it. Peter loved the clan the same way James once had. The difference was that Peter chose lineage loyalty over morality, while James could no longer survive carrying both.
So when the time finally came, James refused to take you with him.
Not because he did not love you enough.
Because he loved you too much.
Taking you would have destroyed your safety completely. Peter would have hunted you as leverage. The clan would have erased you. Your children with Mike would have inherited the consequences of your disappearance forever.
You hated James for leaving... And worse, you hated him because he was right.
You were only truly safe as Mike Ratri’s wife.
James made sure you knew one thing before he disappeared from your life completely.
Loving you was the one thing he never regretted.
He told you that if there had been another world, another life untouched by the Promise, by the clan, by duty, he would already be somewhere beside you. Somewhere quiet and unnamed. Somewhere neither of you had to hide.
But this world did not allow men like James Ratri to choose happiness.
So he asked you to survive instead.
To stay where you were. To hate him if necessary. To forget him if possible.
And James left knowing the worst part was never Peter hunting him across the shadows of the clan. The worst part was leaving behind the only place he had ever truly been safe.
Your arms, your laughter, your voice whispering his name in quiet rooms no one else knew existed.
So you stayed as Mike Ratri’s wife.
As the elegant young woman seated beside one of the most important men in the family. Safe. Untouched and alive.
And nobody, not even Peter, ever realized that during the collapse of the Promise, during James Ratri’s betrayal of the clan, you had been the only thing keeping the thirty-fifth leader from completely losing himself.
I've had this idea attached deep into my brain for a long time now, related to James Ratri and the tragedy of imagining him as your secret lover.
Because imagine being married to Mike Ratri, the man who one day would stand among the highest authorities of the clan. You married Mike young, young enough to understand that entering the Ratri family meant entering a world you were never truly supposed to touch.
Mike was never cruel.
That was the complicated part.
He was composed, intelligent, respected by every branch of the family. A man trusted with negotiations, operations, decisions that shaped the balance between worlds. Older than you by decades, already fully formed while you were still becoming yourself.
But he was distant in the way only powerful men can be.
He never felt like a husband. He felt more like a guardian assigned to your life. Someone who provided, observed, corrected when necessary, but never truly reached for you emotionally. Mike liked control, order, predictability. He wanted his household to be calm, elegant, respectable. He wanted harmony more than intimacy.
And then there was James.
Back then, James Ratri was the thirty-fifth leader of the clan. Young for the title, terrifyingly brilliant, raised under expectations heavy enough to crush most people long before adulthood. Peter himself described him as kind, refined, handsome, sincere, almost impossibly noble.
And somehow, beneath all that responsibility, James was still warm.
You met him long before either of you understood what would eventually happen between you. At first he was simply Mike’s nephew. The future head of the clan. Someone untouchable.
But James never treated you like an outsider trying to survive among people born into power. He never spoke down to you. Never reduced you to Mike’s wife. In a family where every interaction felt measured and political, James spoke to you naturally.
That was what ruined the two of you.
Long clan gatherings would end and somehow the two of you always ended up alone. At first it was accidental. Quiet conversations after dinner. Passing remarks in hallways. Brief moments beside open windows while rain hit the gardens outside the estate.
Then those moments became intentional.
A second chance at freedom.
That is why their relationship in this kind of story becomes so devastating once James discovers the truth behind the Promise.
Because canonically, James was raised believing the Ratri clan protected peace between humans and demons through noble sacrifice. Then he discovered Julius Ratri’s hidden confession and realized the entire foundation of that peace had been built on betrayal. Innocent humans, including the descendants of Julius’s own allies, had been abandoned to become cattle for demons.
That revelation destroyed him. Not immediately but quietly.
James began carrying guilt like a second skin. Meetings became longer. His absences more frequent. He started building shelters, coded systems, and escape routes under the name of William Minerva while pretending to continue leading the clan normally.
And through all of it, he kept coming back to you.
Because you were the only thing in his life that still felt human, but James also understood something you hated him for in the end.
Mike’s neutrality protected you because the old man never fully sided with Peter or James.
He remained in the middle where survival was easiest. That neutrality became armor around you and the children. Around your children. Around the life attached to the Ratri name.
James lost that protection the moment he betrayed the clan. And James understood Peter better than anyone else ever could.
That is another tragedy of canon. James never truly hated his younger brother. Even while Peter hunted him, James understood why he did it. Peter loved the clan the same way James once had. The difference was that Peter chose lineage loyalty over morality, while James could no longer survive carrying both.
So when the time finally came, James refused to take you with him.
Not because he did not love you enough.
Because he loved you too much.
Taking you would have destroyed your safety completely. Peter would have hunted you as leverage. The clan would have erased you. Your children with Mike would have inherited the consequences of your disappearance forever.
You hated James for leaving... And worse, you hated him because he was right.
You were only truly safe as Mike Ratri’s wife.
James made sure you knew one thing before he disappeared from your life completely.
Loving you was the one thing he never regretted.
He told you that if there had been another world, another life untouched by the Promise, by the clan, by duty, he would already be somewhere beside you. Somewhere quiet and unnamed. Somewhere neither of you had to hide.
But this world did not allow men like James Ratri to choose happiness.
So he asked you to survive instead.
To stay where you were. To hate him if necessary. To forget him if possible.
And James left knowing the worst part was never Peter hunting him across the shadows of the clan. The worst part was leaving behind the only place he had ever truly been safe.
Your arms, your laughter, your voice whispering his name in quiet rooms no one else knew existed.
So you stayed as Mike Ratri’s wife.
As the elegant young woman seated beside one of the most important men in the family. Safe. Untouched and alive.
And nobody, not even Peter, ever realized that during the collapse of the Promise, during James Ratri’s betrayal of the clan, you had been the only thing keeping the thirty-fifth leader from completely losing himself.
Me trying to draw James despite having 0 artistic abilities to save my name (he has so little content I wanted to contribute since he's my favourite pookie patootie with a cherry on top❤️ )
I found it strange that James only give so little info about Lambda. I don't think he's the type to insert meaningless information for the escapees. Shouldn't he at least write his concern about that place, even if he doesn't have much information about it? And yet, he writes so much about the world and the Seven Walls, why? What do you think? Oh, and your latest theory is great btw, you really gone wild in this series 😂💕
Haha, thank you! You are right, I have totally gone wild on TPN, but I think it won’t be possible to do analysis like this on anything else, since TPN just has soooo much amazing content both plot and art wise, and it’s just so well structured and logical. Any other series I would not bother with, but here the authors had been incredibly consistent!
You are right that it is strange on James’ part not to comment further. I guess partially it was still in only planning stage at the time, but perhaps there is more to it. We know that the Ratri clan had been directly involved in it, so was that involvement despite the disapproval of the head of the house, James, or was he not the head of the house at the time? Or did James approve lambda just to not raise suspicions about himself?
Lambda seems like a thing that James would absolutely disapprove of, so how did it get planned with the Ratri clan supporting it? I am guessing the idea must have come since before James became head or before he had his change of heart, and then he simply couldn’t stop it from happening. Perhaps it was actually the lambda plans that had caused him to have a change of heart, and then he was too ashamed to admit those in detail?
I can also see James withholding lambda info from cattlechildren in a bid to try to protect them maybe. I am not sure, there are still plenty of questions on the topic, but I think you are right to be suspicious.
Owls are generally a symbol of paranormal wisdom, regal silence, and fierce intelligence. This is because owls are both great thinkers and hunters; they prefer to plan out their strategies instead of using brute force.
There are also popular references of owl mythology in civilization over time like the Egyptian, Greek, Hindu, Roman, Chinese and Celtic. While most of them speak about the “angel of death”, almost all of them acknowledge the wisdom and transitional significance of owl.
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"I am William Minerva. I am raising the banner of revolution. To give the human world back to you...to finish the "Neverland" once and for all, I shall seal a new promise. First of all, break out from the plantations and head to the agreed point. I'll be waiting for you. For all of you."
thank you for the tag @bfire92 !! (and for. so many other tags that I always tell myself I'm going to get to, and then enough time passes that I worry it would be weird to do them now, and so on and so forth)
pretty happy with my result even if it called me out a little, mutual pining my beloved <3
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I haven’t played the sims for a very long time since I play on my ps5 and for the longest time I thought it was broken when it wasn’t.
Point is, I have many TPN characters uploaded to my gallery, including Peter Ratri... Now I REALLY want to make James!! I have to.
I’ll study his facial features, manga panels, anything I can to make him look as accurate as possible. So if anyone has any suggestions about hoe you think his feautures would look like in realism it would be super helpful!
I want to make him as accurate as possible.
Manga James Ratri is so much more detailed since in “season two” we barely see his face, so I will look for as many James manga panels as I can.
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