Riley’s brow raised at the laugh, though an amused smirk once again tugged at her lips. Her mother was an escort, it was her job to be able to pick up on people’s body language and take notice of what they were saying, so Riley figured it was only natural she’d pick up the habit as well. “You might want to have considered using more filler words, not that it’d have helped you out with me, but in general,” she pointed out with a short laugh. “Although in all honesty I don’t think most others would’ve taken notice that you danced around giving a direct answer. You just got unlucky with me. For whatever it’s worth, I have suspicion on me as well. Anyone who acts too calmly will, and I know I haven’t exactly been giving people a reason to rule me out of being a perfectly plausible candidate. Like you I have much too an unconcerned approach to this, so of course they might start to think I had a role in this somehow. You can’t win with people who are being driven so strongly by irrationality and emotions.” She raised her shoulders in a shrug.
“No one else thought to give him a funeral of any sort, their first thought was about their own safety. That could raise suspicion so really, anything we do could be perceived as reason to give others doubt. Was it feigned sympathy to put on an act of caring or was it genuine? But I don’t know how many people will actually think to read that far into what others do.” Though she also couldn’t have been certain either, and it was much better to be safe than sorry and think as though everyone else was also carefully analyzing each person’s actions. “I suppose it would be in our best interest to put on a convincing show of feeling just as panicked as them, but then wouldn’t that in itself raise suspicion? People have already seen us calm, why panic now? Except for the reason we were trying to blend in.”
She thought over Parvati’s question for a moment with a tilt of her head then gave a shake in the negative. “No, I’m not worried about that, and I wouldn’t be surprised if some already have. Let them think of me what they will, it doesn’t matter to me, no matter what the outcome is – whether I survive this or not – I’m not losing anything. My life, sure, but I’ll be dead so I won’t be able to care. People here, they feel a wide range of emotions and they feel them with such clarity whereas I do not. Anger I can sort of do, irritation yes, but compassion, sympathy, joy, sorrow? No. What I can feel, which is already to a much lesser extent than others, doesn’t reach that far. I can do cognitive empathy though, but all those other things I don’t feel I can only make the conscious effort to mimic. I guess you could say I’m emotionally stunted, lacking, I don’t know, whatever people would call it. Obviously none of us will be able to go about our days as we otherwise normally would have had none of this happened, but it doesn’t bother me either.”
Riley was an intelligent girl; if they happened to get off of this island, Parvati might try to keep her around, in hopes of having an ally that would be able to assist her in creating answers clever enough that others wouldn’t notice when she was dancing around and giving noncommittal responses. More filler was a good suggestion, she had to admit. Though she was growing accustomed to careful wording and never saying what they wanted to hear properly, she did tend to offer sentences that were too sparse for her benefit. She would have to learn how to expand her phrases more and create sentences that were less substance and more filler in the next few years, or she would never make it alongside the male politicians that tended to use their charm as much as their vocabulary when the time came.
Riley did have a point, though, in that their calm was suspicious in and of itself, and that putting on an act of being panicked now would be even further suspicious. She had to concede the point, and shrugged a shoulder slightly in return, looking away from the other students to focus instead on the burial site of the unnamed dead boy. The poor boy, no one had even thought to remember his name. “There’s little point in putting on a panicked act now,” she admitted. “Concerned, perhaps, but not panicked. Acting panicked would just make the rest of the group panic more, anyway, I’m sure.” She paused then, only for a moment, before offering, “It was genuine, though. My saying words over the grave. It may be hard to tell, considering the situation we find ourselves in, but I did want to ensure he passed on properly. It would have been wrong not to, I think, would it not?” But then, perhaps that was just her religious habits kicking in, the words that the dead wouldn’t properly rest until blessed ringing in her ears. Perhaps it was more selfish than she’d intended after all.
The other girl’s utter lack of emotional depth was something that Parvati couldn’t entirely understand, though, she realized. That may have been her own depth speaking, or rather her self-perceived depth that was far more shallow in the eyes of others, but she couldn’t understand how someone could be quite so calm when things were changing. It must have been a product of her upbringing, somehow; something in Riley’s life had made her emotionally stunted, and that made her almost more curious about the other girl. Perhaps there was something she could learn there, under the surface, past the calm words and stoic facade. “It might be a bit emotionally stunted, but it makes you logical, and that’s better sometimes than emotionally deep. This is an instance where that’s true, I think. The ones with the greatest depth are the ones lost in the throes of panic right now; the ones with the lack thereof are the ones coming up with legitimate solutions. That seems to be a plus, to me.”