room to breatheĀ (3426 words) byĀ whiskeycherrypie
Rating: Explicit
Relationships: Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester
Additional Tags: Supernatural (TV) Spoilers, Season/Series 15, Season/Series 15 Spoilers, Episode: s15e04 Atomic Monsters, Visions in dreams, First Time, Sharing a Bed, Non-Graphic Violence, Schmoop, Blood Drinking, Dreams and Nightmares, Demon Dean Winchester, Boy King of Hell Sam Winchester, it is however mainly about their canonical versions
Summary:
Itās not Samās last dream. But the next time, Dean is there for him.
In the solitude of Samās room, the dream echo of Deanās neck snapping is as loud as a gunshot.
Heās given up on trying to force his eyes closed a while ago and instead he just stares at the ceiling, focusing on the dull gray of it in the dark. Not red. Itās not red, the bunker is not in danger - from himself - and Deanās just down the hall.
I donāt know if itās the hardest thing, but the thing Iām most aware of trying to do well is characterizationā especially for something like Wincest, when youāre trying to make the reader understand the context of their incestuous relationship via who they are/who they are to each other.
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The boy with the faded red backpack walks into the musty classroom. Itās quite obvious itās a hand me down. Itās dirty. The kind of dirty a washing machine just canāt keep clean. Itās been crudely sewed and patched up in various places, but it does the job. Itās on itās last legs for sure, though.
The boy himself looks run down. Heās only sixteen, but inside heās much older. His face says Sophomore but his eyes say senior. (And yeah, that kind of senior). He moves slowly, wincing when he bumps his left shoulder on the chair. Thereās dark circles under his eyes and aĀ bruise on his neck. Heās only been here a week and heās rapidly gaining attention. The wrong kind of attention. He knows he has to be careful.
āSam?ā
The boyās face snaps to attention (He had clearly been daydreaming. He gets this way, sometimes, lost in his head).Ā
āUh, what?ā His voice falters. A few girls in the back giggle.
But the bell rings and the students get up in a fierce jumble. He grabs his backpack and slings it over his sore shoulder, wincing again.
The students all head to 4th period, corralled down the narrow hallways of the run down school.
āCome see me after school, Mr. Winchester.ā The voice is cold, uncaring.
Sam doesnāt turn around, but pauses in the doorway.
āItās pointless, sir. Iāll likely be gone tomorrow.ā He walks out without waiting for permission.
But he doesnāt go to fourth period.Ā
He slips his other arm through the remaining strap of the fraying red material. The comfortable, worn fabric is comforting to him. Not many things are constant int his life. The backpack is.Ā
He walks through the glass doors and right off campus.
No one stops him.
He walks the three miles back to the hotel room his dad rented for him.Ā
Heās been alone for a week.
So when he unlocks the door and sees his brother sitting on the edge of his neatly made bed waiting for him, a shiver runs through him.Ā
He stands when the door opens, a beautiful smile spreads across his face.
āDean?ā The backpack falls to the floor, the strap finally ripping apart as Sam frantically pulls it from his shoulders.
āDean!ā He calls again and Dean smiles even wider.
Sam runs into his arms and Dean pulls him in close.
āIām here baby. Iām back.ā
Sam inhales deeply, relishing the scent heād missed so much.
Leather, oil, coffee, and that faint musk that was always a layer underneath.Ā Dean pulls him closer and kisses his brotherās forehead.
āGet me out of here, De.ā
***
Sam was right.
He didnāt go back to school the next day.
The red backpack makes the cut and is shoved under Samās seat.
Watch Jensen spend a full minute trying to think of even one good answer that doesnāt end with the something like AND HAVE SEX WITH ERIC BRADY because that was exactly what he was implying. He was teasing Jared about his fawning over Eric at the beginning of this question and he backed himself right into a corner. lol
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And after waiting for seven months for the DWP to send me for a medical assessment, I finally received the letter for my appointment today (above photo). The appointment is set for Tuesday, September 17th at 1.15pm in Glasgow (my local city) 13 miles away, which might not seem far away, but I have no access to transport and need help to get to my appointment. A local taxi company charges Ā£15 each way to the city, so I need Ā£30 by September 17th. Ā
I am hoping that this assessment will fix my benefits and offer me more assistance as I am unable to work due to my persistent low mood and extreme fatigue. And due to immense stress and anxiety to make ends meet, my mental health has quickly declined.
At the moment, the Universal Credit benefit I do receive is currently under a ācapped- sanctionā and the Ā£128.88 that I received has gone to paying off my council tax and phone bill, leaving me with nothing to help pay my utilities and other overdue bills, and due to that my bank account is now in the negative (Ā£281.36) and I have next to nothing in my fridge/cupboard and I really need to eat.
I know that I have asked this a lot these past few months and all the help I have previously received has literally helped me from spiraling into more debt and helped me to eat and stay warm and I absolutely hate to ask for more help but I have no one else to turn to. Ā
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Wincest + fireworks, if it wouldn't be too much trouble and you aren't overwhelmed? Love you ā¤ļø
you could never be trouble to me, tina! love you too ā¤ļø
under a read more ācause once more, it got longer than expected lmao
send me a prompt
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Dean looks up from his book when he hears his bedroom door open. Samās standing there in his sleep shirt and boxers, looking oddly sheepish. āHey,ā he says.
āHey,ā Dean replies. āCouldnāt sleep?ā
Sam nods, entering and sitting down on the side of Deanās bed. āGuess you couldnāt either, huh?ā
Dean puts the book aside. āYeah,ā he says. āDunno why, though.ā
āI feel cooped up,ā Sam tells him after a moment. āLike, restless, I guess. I donāt know.ā
āI know what you mean,ā Dean says, softening. The bunkerās large enough for them to get lost in ā and they have, several times ā and yet, after a lifetime of the open road, it can get suffocating at times. āYou wanna go for a drive or something?ā
āA drive? Where would we go?ā
āNowhere,ā Dean tells him. āJustā¦ drive.ā
Sam shrugs. āUh, okay, sure. Should I pack, orā¦?ā
āNah,ā grins Dean. āLetās justā¦ go. Right now.ā
āIām not wearing any pants,ā Sam informs him, raising an eyebrow.
āTrust me, I noticed,ā Dean retorts dryly. āPants are overrated anyway.ā
āSays the guy whoās fully dressed.ā
āDonāt argue, Sammy. Letās just go.ā And before Sam can reply, Deanās getting off the bed in one fluid movement and snatching up the car keys from his side table. āBesides, itās the middle of the night, man. No oneās gonna be around to care about whether youāre wearing pants or not.ā
Sam makes a face at him as he gets up. āItāll take just two seconds for me to find some pantsāā
āNo time!ā Dean tells him, grinning, and grabs his hand. āLetās just goāā And with that, he begins literally dragging Sam along.
āIām not wearing shoes either, Dean!ā
āFuckās sake, Samā weāre just gonna be in the car, you prissy bitch, no one is gonna look at your stupid shorts or your stupid socksāā
āThey look like something a grandma would wear, first of all, and secondly, theyāre about three seconds from falling apartāā
āLike I said, comfortableāā
The pointless argument ceases only when theyāre in the garage. Dean lets go of Samās hand to unlock the car and get in, while Sam goes round to the passenger side. Dean lets Baby warm up for a few minutes, the low purr of the engine echoing in the garage, and in the meantime he watches Sam out of the corner of his eye, watches him settle into the passenger seat, long legs crammed into the footwell.
āQuit staring at my legs,ā Sam tells him.
āI wasnāt,ā Dean lies.
āThis is why you didnāt want me putting on pants, isnāt it?ā
Dean puts the car into reverse and backs out of the garage door. āNo idea what youāre talking about, Sammy.ā
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Dean drains the last of his scotch with a grimace, exhausted. He drops the glass off in the kitchen, wandering down the hallway towards Samās room. He can distantly hear the shower running in the locker room, and he sighs in relief, knowing his mom is occupied for the moment.
He pushes Samās door open, knocking on the frame as an afterthought. His baby brother is shirtless, standing in the middle of his room, his back facing Dean. Dean watches as the muscles across his shoulders bunch up in tension, then relax when Sam recognizes the presence as Dean.
āSam,ā Dean murmurs, his socked feet shuffling quietly against the wooden floor. He reaches out, running a wide palm over his brotherās strong, golden back, from the base of his spine all the way up into his hair, scratching at the base of his neck. He lets his fingers play in the clean, soft, bronze curls there, taking a deep breath to smell Samās body wash, and beneath that, Samās skin. It smells like the only home heās ever known.
āIām sorry,ā is what Sam finally says, the words quiet like they hurt something fierce.Ā āI wouldāveā I wouldnātāve let her take me if Iādā¦ I wouldāve fought harder. I didnāt think Iā¦ Dean. I wanted them to kill me. Iāā His words break off, and he takes a deep, shaky breath.
Dean discovers that there are hundreds of little notes - written in the notebook itself, taped to the pages, and tucked inside the notebook - and itās years old. Many different sizes and colors of papers, too. Some crumpled, some well taken care of. Most of them are just quick notes, quick thoughts.
Sam saved these. Sam held on to these andā¦took it everywhere?
Many of them make him cry. Or shout. Or clench his fists. Or drink. or all of the aboveā¦
