martyre de l'orthographe

trying to manage my adhd in academia "Be patient, patient, `cause the patience grinds you, your spirit turns to steal, so you be patient." - Vasyl Stus

[patiencegrindsyou]

hello people of tumblr

i created this blog to help myself find motivation for studying. i'm an adhd-er, i struggle with depression & anxiety and this semester has been especially brutal on my mental health. i've got a ton of absences and work i have to hand in. also exams are approaching. basically i just hope to find some kind of motivation by making myself post study updates and some other achievements.

this is a personal diary type of blog, but if any of you are willing to share this journey with me - i'm happy to welcome you :)

I follow back from @3nedolena

important info:

she/her, bisexual, 21 yo, not an english native speaker

dni if you're homophobic, racist, transphobic, russian, zionist

russia is a terrorist state.

free palestine.

that'll be all.

[dead-mans-ear]

some more pages from my everything notebook 🦇

(with some @petite-gloom stickers)

[girlmostlikely]

Community is so important she said self isolatingly

[autistobrat]

absolutely hate it when I wake up tired like what the fuck did I lie unconscious for

[patiencegrindsyou]

Finally received the American Duchess "Londoner" shoes that my mum got for my birthday :D

Working on my first big historical sewing projects rn and I'm super happy to be able to pair these shoes with what I'm making!!

[cutecipher]

Just learned about recency bias, coolest thing ive ever learned about lol

[patiencegrindsyou]

Recap of some of my favourite art pieces I saw irl in 2025

[patiencegrindsyou]

I've never been really into vision boards/visual manifestations for many reasons that mostly come from my scepticism but this year I decided to be somewhat hopeful so I made a vision board for 2026.

My adhd+depression doesn't really allow for long term planning but I would very much like to spend more time on my latin, historical sewing, film photography and obv reading books & journaling this year. But most importantly I'll try not to pressure myself too much this year, even though it's getting harder and harder not to.

[stalgivc]

[patiencegrindsyou]

Started 2026 by going to a park near my childhood home. Read a couple pages on my way there and took film pictures throughout the walk.

[kotori-mochi]

Can't afford art school?

After seeing post like this 👇

And this gem 👇

As well as countless of others from the AI generator community. Just talking about how "inaccessible art" is, I decided why not show how wrong these guys are while also helping anyone who actually wants to learn.

Here is the first one ART TEACHERS! There are plenty online and in places like youtube.

📺Here is my list:

Proko (Free, mostly teaches anatomy and how to draw people. But does have art talks and teaches the basics.)

Marc Brunet (Free but he does have other classes for a cheap price. Use to work for Blizzard and teaches you everything)

Aaron Rutten (free, tips about art, talks about art programs and the best products for digital art)

BoroCG (free, teaches a verity of art mediums from 3D modeling to digital painting. As well as some tips that can be used across styles)

Jesse J. Jones (free, talks about animating)

Jesus Conde (free, teaches digital painting and has classes in Spanish)

Mohammed Agbadi (free, he gives some advice in some videos and talks about art)

Ross Draws (free, he does have other classes for a good price. Mostly teaching character designs and simple backgrounds.)

SamDoesArts (free, gives good advice and critiques)

Drawfee Show (free, they do give some good advice and great inspiration)

The Art of Aaron Blaise ( useful tips for digital art and animation. Was an animator for Disney. Mostly nature art)

Bobby Chiu ( useful tips and interviews with artist who are in the industry or making a living as artist)

Sinix Design (has some tips on drawing people)

Winged canvas (art school for free on a verity of mediums)

Bob Ross (just a good time, learn how to paint, as well as how too relax when doing art. "there are no mistakes only happy accidents", this channel also provides tips from another artist)

Scott Christian Sava (Inspiration and provides tips and advice)

Pikat (art advice and critiques)

Drawbox (a suggested cheap online art school, made of a community of artist)

Skillshare (A cheap learning site that has art classes ranging from traditional to digital. As well as Animation and tutorials on art programs. All under one price, in the USA it's around $34 a month)

Human anatomy for artist (not a video or teacher but the site is full of awesome refs to practice and get better at anatomy)

Second part BOOKS, I have collected some books that have helped me and might help others.

📚Here is my list:

The "how to draw manga" series produced by Graphic-sha. These are for manga artist but they give great advice and information.

"Creating characters with personality" by Tom Bancroft. A great book that can help not just people who draw cartoons but also realistic ones. As it helps you with facial ques and how to make a character interesting.

"Albinus on anatomy" by Robert Beverly Hale and Terence Coyle. Great book to help someone learn basic anatomy.

"Artistic Anatomy" by Dr. Paul Richer and Robert Beverly Hale. A good book if you want to go further in-depth with anatomy.

"Directing the story" by Francis Glebas. A good book if you want to Story board or make comics.

"Animal Anatomy for Artists" by Eliot Goldfinger. A good book for if you want to draw animals or creatures.

"Constructive Anatomy: with almost 500 illustrations" by George B. Bridgman. A great book to help you block out shadows in your figures and see them in a more 3 diamantine way.

"Dynamic Anatomy: Revised and expand" by Burne Hogarth. A book that shows how to block out shapes and easily understand what you are looking out. When it comes to human subjects.

"An Atlas of animal anatomy for artist" by W. Ellenberger and H. Dittrich and H. Baum. This is another good one for people who want to draw animals or creatures.

Etherington Brothers, they make books and have a free blog with art tips.

📝As for Supplies, I recommend starting out cheap, buying Pencils and art paper at dollar tree or 5 below. If you want to go fancy Michaels is always a good place for traditional supplies. They also get in some good sales and discounts. For digital art, I recommend not starting with a screen art drawing tablet as they are usually more expensive.

For the Best art Tablet I recommend either Xp-pen, Bamboo or Huion. Some can range from about 40$ to the thousands.

💻As for art programs here is a list of Free to pay.

Clip Studio paint ( you can choose to pay once or sub and get updates. Galaxy, Windows, macOS, iPad, iPhone, Android, or Chromebook device. )

Procreate ( pay once for $9.99 usd, IPAD & IPHONE ONLY)

Blender (for 3D modules/sculpting, animation and more. Free)

PaintTool SAI (pay but has a 31 day free trail)

Krita (Free)

mypaint (free)

FireAlpaca (free)

Aseprite ($19.99 usd but has a free trail, for pixel art Windows & macOS)

Drawpile (free and for if you want to draw with others)

IbisPaint (free, phone app ONLY)

Medibang (free, IPAD, Android and PC)

NOTE: Some of these can work on almost any computer like Clip and Sai but others will require a bit stronger computer like Blender. Please check their sites for if your computer is compatible.

So do with this information as you will but as you can tell there are ways to learn how to become an artist, without breaking the bank. The only thing that might be stopping YOU from using any of these things, is YOU.

I have made time to learn to draw and many artist have too. Either in-between working two jobs or taking care of your family and a job or regular school and chores. YOU just have to take the time or use some time management, it really doesn't take long to practice for like an hour or less. YOU also don't have to do it every day, just once or three times a week is fine.

Hope this was helpful and have a great day.

"also apologies for any spelling or grammar errors, I have Dyslexia and it makes my brain go XP when it comes to speech or writing"

[animalphotorefs]

Boosting this in case any of the programs and books suggested are useful.

All the photos on this tumblr ad the animal photo reference site I run is another resource available for artists to use!

As long as you’re not using AI to create your art, you can reference / trace / draw / recombine / make any sort of art you want, with any of the photos, for free.

[reo-speeddragon]

There's also MORPHO, a really good book series on anatomy by Michel Lauricella, with very clear explanations and sketches!

And for pose references, there's @adorkastock who shares a ton of them for free, with different models and props, and her website is amazing <3 you can also buy pose packs from her.

[tenderwatches]

sometimes you need dialogue tags and don't want to use the same four

[chronicallydragons]

Anyone else with chronic pain ever get really absorbed in a project and dissociate from your body while you're working but then you finish and you come back to your body and you're just like AAAAAAAHHH! WHAT'S WRONG?? oh yeah. The horrors. Never mind

[specialagentartemis]

someone convince me that downloading PDFs is not actually the same thing as working on my dissertation

[grison-in-space]

I just came out here to have a good time

[mxworthing]

"A student [downloads] hundreds of pages of [PDFs] and takes them home, and the manual labor he exercises in doing so gives him the impression that he possesses the work. Owning the [PDFs] exempts the student from actually reading them. This sort of vertigo of accumulation, a neocapitalism of information, happens to many."

-Umberto Eco (in How to Write a Thesis, originally discussing photocopies)

[specialagentartemis]

indeed it does Umberto Eco 😔

[patiencegrindsyou]

The problem that is being talked about a lot in higher education circles is that AI is taking over and that everyone is cheating. But I feel like it's a problem that's not being addressed enough in the context of less developed countries. I can only speak for Ukraine in this context but I assume that other countries might have similar issues.

Setting aside the difficulties of pursuing education in a country at war, AI and all the other technological advances that help students more cheat than learn made the progress gap evidently clear to me. Post-soviet countries that haven't had the opportunity to quickly integrate into the European Union have never thoroughly revised their education system to rid it of the soviet influence entirely. It's especially difficult to do as most people at the head of educational institutions were themselves taught by the soviet education system. So we get a system that was never made to adapt for technological advances as it was never taught to anticipate them.

The power of generative AI was a suprise even to the West, and I don't mean to generalize but it's safe to say that most (even public) western universities are better technologically equipped and integrate technology better into their studying process. Now try and imagine how horribly unprepared other universities were for this. From what I can see my professors gave up altogether. The universities have no resources to battle AI and the professors are not taught to understand the technology or its consequences.

I've seen some professors try to battle it only to fail and accept it. Trying the ai-detector software only to realise that in order to have better results you need to pay for the software, otherwise you'd be falsely accusing people of using AI as the free version is not as accurate at detecting it. Making students submit written assignments but then abandoning this idea as it's not time efficient. Trying to figure out AI clichés only to get tired of the need to constantly detect them. Finally, getting too tired of students not doing anything by themselves and starting to use AI to create assignments.

The fact that the Internet and all its resources is widely available is both a blessing and a curse. Thanks to its availability we can feel a semblance of equality. And I don't want to say that my country is not technologically advanced, I'm proud to say that we have some of the best IT specialists in the industry, but IT companies and public universities are very different entries. Even if all universities around the world are struggling with the AI craze it's important to understand that not all of them have the same starting point. It's evident to me that the combination of ill adapted environment and AI overuse will lead to universities in my country failing to provide anything useful even to those students who are motivated to learn. I used to be like that. There's nothing I wanted to pursue more than knowledge. First year in uni proved that the remnants of soviet system are not going anywhere, subsequent years proved that you really can graduate without completing a single assignment by yourself.

Idk if this rant has any meaning. I really don't know if there is a solution to this problem, in any case I'm in no position to come up with it. I'm just a frustrated student. It pains me to realise that the path of least resistance is the only one that makes sense in this environment. It also feels like the only one that makes sense. At this point I'm close to accepting that using AI to pass uni classes and getting real knowledge from outside sources and courses is the only way to actually gain both the degree and the knowledge fit for it. I really don't want to accept it but reality suffocates me.

[patiencegrindsyou]

Sometimes I wonder if the reason why I'm so disappointed with my uni is because when I was in highschool I romanticised the shit out of higher education but now that I'm actually experiencing it I've realised it sucks. But then I remember that I studied in a western first world country university and I enjoyed it so much. When I lived as a refugee it was the only thing that kept me going. So I guess I need to come to terms with the fact that my country's education really does suck and there's no good way around it.

[why-bless-your-heart]

Friendly reminder to not punish yourself for creating. 

[putyouinabook]

Can you elaborate on what you mean by this?

[why-bless-your-heart]

I have a tendency to beat myself up whenever something I make doesn’t meet my expectations (which is always). The result is that finishing something = bad feelings: I am effectively punishing myself for having created something. The natural reaction to this punishment is an aversion to creation, meaning that my perfectionism is harming me, not only by causing me to despise what I do make and by impeding the creative process, but by attacking even my desire to create.