119.9 kg

-3.4/25 kg

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Remember not to let yourself become stuck in the mistakes you made today. Acknowledge them, and then get over them. They're just another opportunity for you to out do yourself tomorrow <3

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Trying to see if I went deep enough but I hit a vein and can't wipe the blood away fast enough

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I'm at 121.4! Wayyyyy better than I was expecting. My weight before the weekend was 119.9 and I ate like a pig this weekend so I can live with it

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I'm at 121.4! Wayyyyy better than I was expecting. My weight before the weekend was 119.9 and I ate like a pig this weekend so I can live with it

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I ate too much today :(. But it's okay! I'm going to do another long fast with a 75 hour goal and a 36 hour requirement! My meds for binge eating urges ran out too so I've decided that I'm going to finally learn/crochet a granny square sweater! It'll keep my hands busy and me from getting bored and instinctually going to the TV and fridge It's the perfect time to do it right now too. I'll make it so that the sweater is tight on me at my current weight so that I have to lose for it to be comfy.

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K I broke the fast at 60 hours bc apparently being super dizzy is dangerous red flag or smth. Lost 2.4 kg or 5.3 lbs

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I'm on these new meds for BED and this is the first time I've ever taken anything like this and it's amazing. Food is just not part of my life anymore. It used to be every hour of every day was spent thinking of what I would eat and when and how much and etc but now it's just me living in my daily life. It's like without the addictive chemicals in my brain why bother with food? I'm 42 hours into a fast right now. I hope everything stays the same but I'm sure it won't lol

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Lost ten pounds who clapped

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Gonna post my art project as it is rn later gang

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Lost 8 pounds and now my pants fall off when I put my phone in my pocket but I'm too big of a starting weight to see a difference and also too big for any belts out there to fit me FML

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I have like 4 home work assignments all due tomorrow that I have to do RN but I just got to the most triggering part of this anorexia book I'm reading and I CANT LOCK IN

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I CANT WEIGH MYSELF UNTIL MONDAY WHY DIDNT I PACK THE SCALE MAN IM GONNA GO CRAZY

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*pitifully sips from bowl of nothing but beef broth while staring into the distance in front of my family*

Me: "if you concentrate you can taste the roasted beef stew."

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Say it with me now!

Willogenic is a TRANSID

Willogenics are Transplurals!!!!!

Willogenics are Ableist!!!!!!!!!!

YOU CANT FUCKING "TRANSITION" INTO A SYSTEM

YOU DON'T WANT A SYSTEM YOU WANT ALTER DISORDER

ROLEPLAY

You already do it.

ROLEPLAY!!!!!!!!!!!

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I'm so confused guys bc some of us don't really care Abt willogenics and Endogenic and some of us think it's stupid and don't like it so it's like fucked up my thought process on it, can someone explain why those people suck

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I can feel myself drifting away - the other two are pushing me aside and burying me under their presence. I really don't want to go, it's so stressful and frustrating when I can only kick at the glass and shift the screen slightly because they suffocate the mind and cut off my circulation