Trust Issues Trust: Surrendering control to another person, and acknowledging that they are adequately capable of administering that control well. Trust has become a funny thing for me, and the story begins in the early 90's. My Dad loved me, but for some reason never trusted me. My mom loved as well, but was so busy telling me not to screw up, that she never gave herself a chance to encourage me to do great things. I was, therefore, brought up in a heavy fog of Skepticism, making it difficult to focus on bright things ahead. One parent was telling me not to screw up, and the other refused to permit me the chance to. So, I spent most of my effort trying to avoid failure. I remember burning with desire for their trust, intensely seeking it, only to end up feeling inadequate when I could not find it. As I grew, that pursuit steadily steamed on, somewhere on a back burner of my progression through life. Upon entering the real world, in all of its beautiful diversity, I became acquainted with a different type of earthling, ones that seemed to trust, easily. These people didn't require much from me before extending me their simple trust. How strange, how different, yet it seemed so right, and felt so good. I then got to experience a third-world culture, where they had so little but were willing to lend it all, in simple trust. Where ones trust-worthiness was seemingly simple to establish, and carried with it much reward. I fell in love with this trustful simplicity. I then met a God, who contrary to what I had previously believed, wasn't holding a red pen to notate and tally my failures, but rather allowing me to sink deep into his Loving arms, not keeping me from difficult situation, where failure is eminent, but rather loving me through them. He gives me freedom, which feels a lot like trust. Having then experienced both sides of the coin, thirsting for trust that was not to be found in my home, then being quenched by stepping outside of my door, culture, and self, I have now chosen a side. I have abandoned my families norms, and the norms of my culture, to embrace the other-side, and I haven't looked back. I now give trust at very little cost, and seek, love, and thrive in the environments where it is given to me. I have experiencing true-trust, in Christ and in his creation, in its rare, but glorious form, and I will pursue nothing less. I will not be stilled by trusts sparsity in my culture, but rather I will be change, not just be.