can someone ask rae why it took several months of me begging them to ban a server member who stalked me, repeatedly mocked my mental breakdowns he caused and made me feel unsafe and paranoid to stay in the server they moderated, but as long as he was only harassing me, the answer was "im sorry that's happening! yeah i don't like him either but he didn't harass you IN the server so i can't do anythinggg :("
but the moment he picks a new target. and that target makes the issue public, they IMMEDIATELY switched to being so shocked about him being a bad person, and was "trying to figure out what to do cause they don't really feel comfortable having a bully in the server..."
this part rlly shocked me. so we "can't do anything" and avoid directly commenting on the awful shit he's been doing when i try to resolve it in dms but. but suddenly when its a public callout post. . . oh no suddenly we don't want bullies in the server! gasp nobody could've seen the guy that has been harassing me for several months is bullying someone else too now. oh we have GOT to do something!!! quick
its so strange looking back now, seeing them barely acknowledge what this user has been doing to me for months, but confirming "yes you've sent me this before" even though atp it feels like they intentionally avoided saying anything about it.
. this feels like a mes.s probably not even readable. i am not well mentally i cannot think straight
i don't even want to give a shit about this user the dms are about anymore. he changed his profile and dissapeared from the web thats done. i don't want this to be about him. this is about rae and how they treated this whole situation and why im upset over it. because they didn't give a shit and im starting to feel like they never did.
rae originally dmed me in june. (i hit the 30 image limit and i do not care to reformat this atp)
"hi nim i hope its ok to message you not as a moderator or anything just as a regular degular guy, i just am wondering if ur ok i was a bit saddened to see you leave the server so i hope ur ok and if you dont feel like talking about it no pressure at all"
and after being informed no i was not okay, and then later told allllll of this over the course of half a year. they. only did something. after it was becoming someone elses issue. someone else who was louder than me
these screenshots are in no way "taken out of context" but theyre not all of our dms. i talked to rae about various things over the course of months but they slowly stopped responding and so i stopped messaging them.
im so hurt because it proves that i just absolutely do not fucking matter and never have! rae just picks favourites i guess! and im 90% sure they never told any other member of the mod team about this in the first place either. and i think everyone agrees talking about these silly games is much better when im not trying to ruin the fun by being like this.
sorry if you wanted to use gifs of wandersong and beastieball!! majority of them are broken links now because i deleted the ones i made!!
and sorry if you wanted to look at the fanart i made, or my aus, or the animations or the speedpaints or the short videos or the headcanons and theories and posts i made and shared!! i deleted everything because i refuse to be a walking advertisement for games i cannot fucking bear looking at right now!!!!!!!!!!
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