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I COULD WATCH THIS ALL DAY WHAT THE HELL AOAJAKAMSBEIDBDBFNFOSJ

#waterparks #awsten knight #lollapalooza #man is too precious for this world i swear

oh man Jinx is out and the new songs are sooo goood. No No No No No lowkey should have been a single instead of Red Guitar and Better Than Therapy should have been the lead single these are the cutest Parx songs on god.

#waterparks #jinx #parx #no no no no no #Spotify

kathaynesart

Why do Leo and Jacksepticeye both pose the same way when searching for hidden passages?

therealjacksepticeye

He’s my favourite turtle that’s why!

paytato435

wrote my own music to send to awsten in his PO box and I'm gonna mail it today I'm so fucking scared. it's very scary pouring my heart into something knowing full well he may not even listen to it. Which is totally fine btw! I'd be annoyed if a bunch of amateur musicians sent me music and i felt like i had to sit and listen through all of it to be nice. But I think what I made was pretty cool, and he inspired me to make it, so i feel like if he thinks it's cool, than he deserves to know what he inspired, right?

paytato435

Updating this to add that I met him in person and gave him the finished album too. Geoff said they'd listen to it on the bus OH MY GOD. 😭 I can't add a video to this but I also have Awsten on video giving me a shout out at their show later that night before Any Minute Now. I CANT I CANT I CANT 😭😭😭😭😭

WATERPARKS - LITTLE VIOLENCE: LIVE DEBUT VIDEO

I went to the NYC secret show last night and was able to record Waterparks' live debut of Little Violence. The video is on my YouTube here. Also my sister and I got a picture with Otto! Yippeee!!

#waterparks band #little violence #double dare #otto wood waterparks #waterparks #secret show #new york city

tornadoseasonkc

when i called you last summer

i wondered what it's like for you

were you sick of happy endings?

did my joy tear you in two?

kewpie-notice-me

mikey expressions practice 🐢( ive finally finished all four of the boys (／_;)/ )

afeelgoodblog

Happy Leland Melvin Day!!!

shrewreadings

Happy Leland Melvin Day!

squidificati0n

Happy Leland Melvin Day!

communistkirby

Happy Leland Melvin Day!!!

if you are an artist and you live near a joann fabrics, this is your sign to go in and by all the copic markers before the close forever! I went in expecting to get the $8 markers at 20% off but...

I'm losing my goddamn mind.

#copic markers #art supplies #joann fabrics #traditional illustration #alcohol markers

im gonna be honest i have no idea how to even pay my student loans at this point

#ramblings

ruija

You know that lackluster Don & Leo reunion handshake? I fixed it.

happyfoxx-art

This should have a billion notes. This is incredible.

i guess it doesn't matter because they can't read?

#fuck trump #make america gay again #ramblings #anyway

vampirejuice-deactivated2019112

If your apology involves degrading yourself, calling yourself shit or insulting yourself, its not an apology, try again.

grookeyleaf

Can someone translate this?

vampirejuice-deactivated2019112

Don’t try to guilt people by saying “I’m sorry I fucking suck.” “I’m sorry I’m just the worst and I should die” Because thats not an apology, thats trying to guilt the other person into dropping the subject.

orangebitters

Yup. That’s called Weaponized Remorse. Basically, you’re avoiding accountability by blowing up a big Feelings Bomb at the person you hurt and going “let’s not focus on what I did or what I should do to make amends, let’s focus on how awful I feel about it all, and how you should make me feel better.”

oakandgumtrees

It’s really easy to accidentally learn to apologize like this, especially when you have mental health issues that mean you genuinely feel that way about yourself. You aren’t a bad person if this has become a habit, but you can help other people AND yourself by apologizing differently!

Try to focus on your actions rather than your traits:

E.g. “I’m sorry I keep ghosting you, I’m shit at friendships” –> “I’m sorry I keep ghosting you, I’m really struggling to keep up with my friends right now”

Then, if you can, turn the conversation back to the other person - you’re apologising because their feelings matter to you, so show that.

E.g. “I don’t mean to - our friendship means a lit to me, and I know it must make it seem like I don’t care.”

This gives the other person an opportunity to express their own experience so you can talk it over more if they want to, without skipping ahead to reassuring you that the relationship isn’t broken.

If you read the descriptions above and started feeling guilty, it’s fixable! And if you want, you can even apply your new apology skills to apologising for an old apology style

applefae

This is something abusers can instill in their victims, also. Sometimes an abuser wont let up until they know you feel awful, shitty, stupid, worthless. and it becomes a habit to tell someone “im sorry im such a fucking loser i dont deserve etc, etc” so they know that you have paid the emotional toll for what you said or did.

Here’s the kicker, though- normal people dont want you to beat yourself up like that when you apologize. I know it feels like the line between “im sorry, I screwed up and I feel terrible about how I hurt you” and “i’m such a worthless piece of shit, you dont deserve to be around me” seems nearly invisible, but if someone requires you to verbally self-flagellate in order for a fight to be over, you really need to step back and take a look at the relationship between you two.

handsaniti

^^^^ great addition. Sometimes weaponized remorse is manipulative, sometimes it’s a survival strategy. Never good or healthy, but worth acknowledging.

tornadoseasonkc

HEY DID YOU KNOW WE'VE WRITTEN A BUNCH OF SONGS FOR YOU?

I've spent the last year learning so much about music, and this last week finished work on the final demo on our bands first project: Share the Road. Tbh I still have a lot to learn, but hopefully we can get these babies recorded and out to you real soon! In the meantime, check out this clip of our first song: Sturgis.

-Payto