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dirk
Dirk had recognised the man moments before he opened his mouth but, regardless of how innocent Diagon Alley seemed right now he didn’t want to risk putting the other or himself in a dangerous position by being too familiar. Luckily, he’d always been a friendly person, so being open with Sturgis would hardly appear out of character. “Yes, that’s right.” he nodded, “It’s one of the trickier languages about, but very interesting. Some people just have a mind for them; I can’t do maths to save my life.” he added lightly, “Though Mermish was a particular trial, half the time I was convinced just sticking my head underwater and yelling would be a better alternative.” he laughed slightly.
“If you’d even like to give the language another go I’d be happy to help, if more wizards spoke it perhaps things with goblin-folk wouldn’t be so tense.” Even more so than usual considering the state of the country; while Dirk was sure those in the bank meant witches and wizards no harm, he wasn’t sure about those in more rural areas.
“Or if you prefer I could always head back in with you, put in a good Gobbledegook or two and see if we can get you bumped to the top of the queue.” he said teasingly, a little wink following his words; at least inside they could speak with a little more secrecy.
Sturgis chuckled at Dirk’s response, bowing his head ever so slightly and only for a moment. He’d always enjoyed lighthearted, innocent humor, even when others may have not found it amusing. “So Mermish on top of Gobbledegook? That’s impressive. Even if it just sounded like gibberish at the beginning, it’s admirable that you managed to learn such hard languages,” he pointed out, grinning. He believed in recognition where it was due, and such linguistic skills were nothing short of laudable in his eyes.
“Who, me?” the brunet scoffed softly, shaking his head. His hand found its way to the back of his neck, skin gracing skin. “Perhaps I’d consider giving it another try. Languages do help build bridges between us - Gobbledegook is no different. I don’t guarantee I’d be any good at it, however -- how’s your patience level?” Sturgis joked, but his words carried the weight of a half-truth. He’d struggled with it in the past, so as much as he tried to fight the thought, he didn’t think a new attempt would change much. He wasn’t a kid anymore; his mind didn’t retain information as easily as it once had.
The man then quirked an eyebrow, exchanging glances with Dirk. He was not blind to humor or tease. Moreover, there was a point there. Gringotts was the second safest place he had ever heard of (behind Hogwarts, certainly), and given that the goblin-folk seemed to be at ease around the other wizard, the inside of the bank seemed a relatively safe place for them to engage more naturally. Even in such colorful scenery, he couldn’t shake off the thought that someone -- who precisely, he didn’t know -- could be hiding in between the shops of behind the brick walls.
“ — Can’t say I wouldn’t fancy skippin’ the wait,” Sturgis replied in a similar tone, gesturing at the entrance before making his way towards it. "I trust things at work are going well?” he inquired as they stepped inside. Even though both worked for the same body, the difference in departments didn’t let Sturgis see Dirk much.
dirk
It was easier than ever now to give into fear, into anger, to take the simple solution out no matter who else it hurt. Dirk could understand that, fear was a powerful motivator, perhaps one of the most powerful, but kindness could be strong too and he clung to it fiercely, using it to motivate his actions and see him through the difficult days that lay ahead.
They kept on coming, not stopping despite him wishing for a moment to catch his breath. There were duels to prepare for and meetings to set up, in this case he’d travelled from the Ministry to Gringotts to deal with some dispute over a deceased wizards estate. More often then not Wizards and Witches would complete the paperwork with as little involvement from the goblins as possible and he knew that would hardly see them growing any more cordial in their work.
He’d taken it upon himself to head over, being seen quickly (he’d developed some rapport with the staff there in his brief time working at the ministry) and together they’d gone through some procedures that would cut the time in half. He’d need to bring this process forward to Mr. Mockridge when he saw him next, making it protocol could do their relationship with the Goblins favours and shorten a difficult process.
The goblin, named Banrast, escorted him to the front doors of the bank and both exchanged goodbyes in Gobbledegook, the harsh, violent sounding language drawing a few looks. Dirk smiled at one such onlooker and explained, “I know it may sound a little harsh, but we were only saying goodbye.” a light laugh following his words.
Sturgis the last time he had come to Gringotts. He remembered making his first deposit aged eleven, with his Hogwarts acceptance letter creasing up inside the pocket of his jacket. His parents had taken him to exchange money before setting off to buy his school supplies. Nowadays, he would come to the Diagon Alley whenever he had errands to run, but he had little do with the bank nowadays. His department, in the end, had little to do with finance. That day, however, he’d woken up to realize he had run out of sickles and galleons. It was well-known that one could exchange Muggle currency for its magical counterpart ---- his family had done so years ago, given that the pound would be unaccepted by the magical businesses.
Sturgis set off to the alley after his morning shift had concluded. He had been apparating all over the country that day. The most recent case had been that regarding a young girl in Upton Snodsbury, who had charmed the neighborhood trees into singing. After the Obliviator had finished her work, the two headed back to the Ministry, and Sturgis excused himself to finally get to Gringotts.
The sight of the Diagon Alley, currently not as crowded as he remembered it to be, still managed to strike a sense of nostalgia and wonder inside him. The scent of Rosa Lee Teabag’s concoctions weighed heavy in the air. There were still children marveling at the delicacies displayed in Sugarplum’s Sweetshop’s showcase. While many of the businesses seemed to be booming as per usual, Sturgis could tell there was ever the slightest trace of nervousness lingering. Some of the awe-striking shops he recalled from his childhood seemed to have shut down, ant the galore of posters that screamed HAVE YOU SEEN THIS WIZARD? at him and others didn’t do much to help ease the tension.
He walked in the direction of the white pillars, stopping by the entrance when noticing a familiar face. Sturgis recognized the other not from the Ministry, but from the meetings (not that he could ever express it aloud. To do so would go a step beyond putting a knife to their throats).
“Oh, right--” Sturgis didn’t realize he had been staring, but he was only ever so startled, so it did not particularly matter. “I didn’t mean to pry. It’s Gobbledegook, right? I tried learning once, but I was bloody terrible at it.”
amelia.
Friday. Finally.
Amelia walked into the Ministry while the sunrise was still painting the sky and headed to her office. The intention was to drop off her things and head off to meet the training class for their morning run, a habit she’d developed to (hopefully) make them more comfortable with her, but when she lit the lamps in her office she found herself face to face with piles of snow. Inside. On her desk.
Was this payback from the facilities department for asking them to make her office a bit warmer? She had a tendency to be cold, so she arranged for her office to be slightly warmer than the rest of the ministry so she’d be comfortable. It hadn’t seemed like an issue but now there was snow falling from her ceiling and settling into drifts in and around her chair. It was definitely a problem.
Movement sounded behind her, someone else apparently in early. “Is it too late to call in sick?” she asked without looking over her shoulder.
A week’s worth of exhaustion weighed down on him. Sturgis couldn’t remember the last time he had taken a break - surely it hadn’t been that long, but his head felt as though someone had emptied it of its contents, then stuffed it with cotton balls. Time had gone askew by then, with Monday seeming so utterly distant and lost into the past. Given how tired he was, Sturgis didn’t know why he continued to come in early. He certainly didn’t need to be, but the habit had rooted itself onto his routine over time.
This morning, however, Sturgis got off when the elevator reached Level 2. He’d been asked to get in touch with someone working at the Misuse of Muggle Artifacts office first thing in the morning. He’d walked the Ministry hallways almost every day for the past few years, and yet somehow, he managed to end up wandering around. He didn’t even realize how lost he was until he was able to read the name engraved on the plaque hung on the door. He recognized the surname as being the same as Edgar’s.
Perhaps, it wouldn’t hurt to ask, Sturgis figured. It would, after all, take two minutes at most.
Spotting the unlocked door, the brunet pushed the door slightly more open. The last thing he expected to see inside was snow piling up into mounds, yet he was ultimately awarded the surprise.
“Possibly. I reckon Maintenance might be able to take care of it. They were able to take care of the rain inside one of the offices,” he commented as if to reassure her. “Looks like there are all sorts of things going wrong with the premises lately, doesn’t it?” That it had likely been a prank from another department, he was totally unaware.
lucinda
Lucinda felt her resolve crumble as soon as she looked up from her coffee. She was genuinely happy and relieved to see him looking well. Feelings like this she was not used to. They were frightening. It never paid off to care for anyone other than herself and her feelings about Sturgis simultaneously repulsed Lucinda and intrigued her. She was naive to think that she could allow herself to stay away for too long. Lucinda felt all the more guilty for avoiding him the past few weeks. Perhaps she could at least hold off until another day? Though, for some ungodly reason, she didn’t want to lie about who she really was anymore…at least not to him.
Lucinda could still imagine Sturgis, shorter than he was now - clad in those distinct yellow and black robes. She had known who he was, of course. Lucinda had spent most of her years at Hogwarts observing the other qudditch players. She was nothing if not meticulous about her competition. It was almost to the point of obsession. Sturgis had been a good player but Lucinda had been confident that when it came down to it, her skills and propensity to bend the rules would win out in the end. She would not imagine that they would become friendly or that he would see anything worth liking in her what-so-ever. Most of Lucinda’s classmates had seemed intimidated by her though that had been comforting in a twisted sort of way.
Sturgis had helped her. She had taken a bludger to the head during a rather stressful game and passed out. Apparently he had been the only person to see it. He had been one of the only players to stop in the middle of the game. She had awoken with him carrying her in his arms to the hospital wing. Since then, she hadn’t been able to stay away. He made her feel normal. It was peculiar but comforting to have a relationship that didn’t constantly feel like it was on pins and needles. If Lucinda was capable of love (something she often wondered) she thought she might hold those feelings for him. Whether it was simply brotherly or romantic, she refused to think about.
“You are fine, Podmore.” Her words were drawled out sarcastically. “I’m always early.” It had been quite a long time since someone had asked her how she was with true blue sincerity. These type of things always caught her off guard. She blinked in surprise before shrugging. “Ah, all is well. Been dealing with some interesting plants lately….that’s why I’ve been unable to write.” It was a lie, it had tumbled out of her mouth before she could stop herself. She supposed she should just keep lying? Lucinda took a sip of her coffee before clearing her throat, “How are you doing?”
His gaze remained posed on the brunette, listening to the thread knitted by her words. He’d always been fond of storytelling, but at one point, he’d transitioned from the role of the author into that of the listener. Everyone and everything in his surroundings had something to say, and he found it so fascinating to take it all in. Besides, if there were no one around to listen, what would become of all the stories?
So he listened attentively to her, each and every quirk of hers awakening an old memory he thought lost. One moment they were wearing their Quidditch robes, the cloth weighty with the scent of petrichor and Fleetwood’s Handle Polish; the next, they were sitting face to face in café far away from the wizarding hand. He wondered what their younger selves would think of them now, but he ultimately thought it wiser not to burden his own head with that kind of pesky incertitude; it would only work at giving him a headache.
The way she laced sarcasm onto her speech made him grin slightly - same old Lucinda Talkalot, certainly. It was warming to see he had not been the only one to cling onto old habits. She seemed to have carried her unique wit throughout the years too, which even pushed a chuckle out of him with her comment. “ ---- Is that so? I’ve always thought punctuality is quite the virtue to possess,” Sturgis simpered, yet the words were sparkled with the truth. The last thing he would do would be to insult or mock Lucinda. She had, after all, made space in her schedule to meet him. What would he ever get out of being churlish?
“’M glad to hear that,” the wizard nodded, leaning back into the chair and resting his intertwined hands on the table. His eyes opened a bit at her response, that remainder of curiosity nibbling at him. “That sounds exciting! I’m afraid that I don’t know much about the more exotic kinds of plants -- if I’m being honest, a lot of my Herbology knowledge’s a bit rusty by now,” he expressed modestly, “so, aside from busy, I hope your work has been enjoyable?” His words remained lighthearted. In the end, Sturgis did not see anything different in her attitude, but it was not like he was expecting anything between them to have changed. Her lies soared past him without even being noticed, let alone even gracing him. Perhaps that was best. There was a reason ignorance was said to be bliss.
“Me, I’ve--” he gestured at himself vaguely, sighing softly afterward. “I guess I’ve been doing fine... well, as fine as one could be with everything’s that’s going on.” He didn’t know whether Lucinda had heard about his accident or not, but he didn’t want to bring anyone’s pity upon himself... especially not Lucinda’s. "Looks like everythin’s going to hell, doesn’t it?”
arabella
LOCATION : ORDER HEADQUARTERS, BRITAIN DATE : LATE MORNING, 15 OCTOBER 1979
IN THE NUMBERED DAYS OF ALBUS’ ABSENCE, it would seem this old house has gotten infinitely more drafty. Still, it’d taken Arabella two visits to remember the box of matches now tucked into the pocket of the day’s ( and past night’s ) scrubs, an easy Muggle fire built in the kitchen’s hearth without too much additional thought.
Moving through the kitchen is an exercise in perseverance ––––––– two broken elements means lighting the stove with another match, a chair pulled over to the countertop to reach the teacups tucked out - of - sight, out - of - mind two shelves above. But the tea’s necessary, not least to keep her at least something close to UPRIGHT until someone comes along to talk out the day’s most recent attack : Charity Burbage, might her memory be a blessing, may have made the Prophet, but the three Muggles who left Charing Cross’ emergency department for the morgue aren’t likely to.
( IT ISN’T THE DEATH THAT WEARS ON HER ; it’s the indifference. Not here, at least. )
Arabella’s in perhaps the only place left in Britain where the sound of someone approaching behind brings only mild interest and not defensive SURPRISE. And perhaps even that is naïve.
❝ You are nearly perfectly on time for the tea, ❞ the kettle steaming atop the stove needs only a handful of minutes more, and she’s found the time spent waiting is a good exercise in PATIENCE for the more magically - inclined. ❝ — — You have news ? ❞
OPEN FOR ORDER MEMBERS !
By the time the surroundings became infused with familiarity, the edges of his trousers were drenched. Nowadays, he’d been warned against apparating, especially when so close to the group’s headquarters, seeing as the Ministry wouldn’t shy away from keeping tabs on the destination. Sometimes it struck him as absurd how paranoid he’d become. For the record, Sturgis Podmore had never been a reckless man, let alone a reckless wizard. Carefreeness, in his eyes, was a treasure, and a peculiar one at that; only a handful of those he’d met seemed to possess it, and from that number, many of them had been stripped off of it. He had always treaded at the other end of the line, inculcating carefulness in everything he did ----- and yet, the only place it’d landed him in was a cold, dark, abandoned alley.
Even then, he’d decided to walk ( he’d heard it once that lighting didn’t strike the same place twice, but said saying had been proved to be utterly wrong ---- why, then, risk it? ) to Arabella’s. The folded-up copy of the latest Prophet issue remained sheltered from the rain, residing in cozily in the inside pocket of his coat. As he came to face the house, Sturgis couldn’t avoid looking over his shoulder. Once it was deemed safe ( and even then, he couldn’t fully shake off the feeling that something could and would go wrong ) he stepped inside, smiling as the whistling of a kettle greeted him.
“Tea sounds marvelous,” the wizard nodded as a display of gratitude. After letting out a sigh, he exhumed the wrinkled copy of the newspaper from his coat and plopped it onto the nearest table gently. “None that strike me as useful, I’m afraid. That bloke Fudge is looking to get promoted to Junior Minister of my department. Other than that, the squad supervisors have insisted on keeping us in the dark. What about you?”
aurora
Aurora materialized in the fireplace with little fanfare, heeled boots stepping out as she shook a marginal bit of soot from her robes. Her clothes were deep enough black to make the dust look grey as she waved her wand at it, vanishing the soot in the air and on her skin. Aurora loathed travel by Floo, but there was no way one could be allowed to simply Apparate into the Department of Mysteries.
She stepped into the lift after nearly watching it close, thanks to the catch from a coworker. Normally uninterested in what others around her did, she took a moment to note his floor; today was one of many that required her to liaise with other departments in some capacity. If he was useful to her, all the better.
The already lit button was going to the correct floor: Level 3, which included the Accidental Magic Reversal Squad. Lucky break. Aurora turned watchful eyes his way. ❝ Same floor. You don’t happen to be on the Accidental Magic Reversal Squad, do you ? I need to make an inquiry of someone in that department. ❞ She sorely hoped he wasn’t an Obliviator, for she had a certain level of disdain for memory charms.
The doors finally closed with a ‘zing!’, and the sounds of the rivers of incoming and exiting wizards faded away as soon as darkness surrounded them. The wizard looked down at his watch and fixed the buttons on his coat, shaking off the remainders of soot that clung to the fabric. It didn’t matter much, really: as soon as he finished the paperwork, him and Cross (or whoever he was assigned to work with) would be off to the rainy streets, and it was then when he realized he had not even bothered to reach for his umbrella before leaving his flat.
The brunette’s question made him furrow, albeit only slightly. He turned to look at her, a concoction of intrigue and vague puzzlement clear in his eyes. “I happen to be --” Sturgis began, “-- why? Have we met before? If so, then I’m so sorry but I don’t seem to remember-” her explanation made him stop, his curiosity now piqued. He wondered if she knew something he didn’t and if this chat was a mere formality; the uncertainty made him quiver internally. “Is that so? Well, I’d say this is quite the coincidence. Are you in need of the Reversal team’s services?”
lucinda
⁕ WHO: Lucinda & @pcdmcre ⁕ WHERE: A muggle cafe in London ⁕ WHEN: October 24th, 1979
Lucinda had been trying her very best to keep her distance from Sturgis Podmore since he had been attacked. Perhaps it had been a mistake to have visited him in the hospital? Sturgis had been unaware of it, he had been incapacitated and she had only stayed for an hour before becoming so uncomfortable with her own emotions that she had gone home. Over the past month, Sturgis had been making it very difficult to avoid him. He wouldn’t stop owling her. Two of his letters had immediately ended up in the bin in her kitchen. She had been having a trying day when the most recent one came and her curiosity had betrayed her. It seemed that he wasn’t taking the hint and thought she must just be busy with work. She had scoffed, crumpling the letter in her hands before throwing it across the room in anger. Why did he have to be so nice to her all of the time?
She should have never encouraged the friendship in the first place. It had always been one she had been able to keep under wraps. Sturgis was already a fifth year when she had started playing quidditch. It was easy enough to avoid being seen with him around any of her “friends” or teammates. Now, she knew that it would be very bad for both of them if anyone caught wind of whatever they had. Lucinda had paced around her flat for an hour and a half before ultimately deciding to respond. She had invited him for coffee, deciding on a random muggle cafe she herself hadn’t even visited before. It seemed like a safe place and innocuous enough to where Sturgis wouldn’t question it. Lucinda considered inviting him to hers. It might’ve been possible but she hadn’t exactly been secretive about where she was living. She could only assume that the other death eaters were well aware of where they could find her.
Now, Lucinda sat in the tiny cafe, fidgeting nervously. Which she loathed. She was not the nervous type, she was impassive and unfeeling…cool, calm, collected. Nothing phased her. She was not the type of person who was used to kind, genuine people. They had always made her uncomfortable, nauseous even. She had come to the cafe today with the express purpose of telling Sturgis that she couldn’t be friends with him anymore but the longer she waited, the less that seemed like something she really, truly wanted to do. She stared miserably into her coffee, waiting, trying to strengthen her resolve.
As soon as Sturgis had regained the feeling in his arms and hand, he’d clutched a quill and inked the paper, addressing the resulting letter to Lucinda Talkalot. He hadn’t thought it strange that he had never received a reply -- in fact, he attributed it to a million reasons, none of which were the right one. He blamed his spidery handwriting, with the i’s looking more like t’s and the f’s looking like p’s. Perhaps, the young man told himself, the contents had been rendered indecipherable thanks to that. The second instance, he attributed the lack of a response to the owl. The third one, he tried convincing himself that his correspondence had gotten lost amidst the fan mail. Over time, when the feathered messenger had failed to return carrying an envelope in its beak, Sturgis had run out of explanations and excuses. Then came the guilt.
He told himself over and over that he should’ve stopped pestering her. Not all of them led mundane lives like him. He’d never pictured what Lucinda’s schedule must’ve looked like, but he imagined it to be hectic. No, of course Lucinda didn’t have time for letters like his. Why, then, did he keep trying? Why did he wait by the window sill for the owl to arrive, even when knowing that whatever he was hoping for would not come?
The loneliness was eating him alive.
Order meeting after Order meeting, Sturgis had found himself feeling strangely numb. He’d sit by the corners of the room, clinging onto the mug containing some hot drink like his life depended on it. He’d buried his fingers on the porcelain, letting go shortly after he caught his fingertips and knuckles turning white. Sometimes, he saw the cup shattering or chipping in his head, yet he’d find it to be intact, unfazed, after snapping out of it. The others’ voices had turned somewhat muffled ever since that night, far too distant for his liking.
He’d written each and every letter hoping it would be different with Lucinda, even if only a little.
Sturgis had not hesitated to accept her offer. He’d opened the envelope with his heart stuck in his throat, sighing in relief upon catching a date and address. As he headed to the café the day of their meeting, he tried and failed to remember the last time they’d seen face to face.
An instinct at that point, Sturgis smiled and waved amicably at her as he entered. The bliss blinded him then, turning him oblivious to her fidgeting ( how utterly mistaken he was, thinking this would be nothing but a cozy catching up session ).
“I’m not overly late, am I?” the wizard asked lightheartedly. The joke evaporated into the air, as if it’d been carried by an imaginary breeze. Then, his expression turned more serious, yet still clearly demonstrating his thankfulness. “How have you been doing?”
tessa & sturgis | catching up
tessa
WHERE: the white hart pub, london
WHEN: october 23rd, 1979 ;; 12:07
WITH: sturgis podmore ( @pcdmcre )
Tessa wrapped her coat tighter around her form as she made her way through the bustling London streets. The sun had been trying to peak through the grey overcast sky all morning, the occasional soft shine of light illuminating the midday air when it got the chance, but it was hardly any refuge from the cold. She looked around as she passed each shop, the roads to her right lined with traffic, pedestrians chatting away in tune to the blaring horn of an impatient bus-driver nearby, and it took everything in her not to stop and observe every detail— muggle London was intriguing, a place she didn’t frequent as often as she wanted to, a reminder of the half of her that she was never able to explore. It was almost like a glimpse into what could have been, an odd nostalgia for a path she never walked, the same way passing by a pureblood manor would tease her curiosity with what if’s.
Today wasn’t meant for entertaining those possibilities though. She had stopped letting herself wonder about alternate circumstances years ago, preferring not to dwell on the unrealistic, and as she narrowly avoided bumping into group of muggle men loitering near the pub, she focused on the task at hand: Strugis. The bell above the door chimed musically as she shouldered her way into The White Hart Pub, her cheeks bright red from the chill outside. She glanced around for the familiar face, knowing she was running a bit late ( it took longer than expected to apparate somewhere discreet, let alone navigate through such a crowd of people ) and quietly cursing herself under her breathe— for a moment she was reminded of her school days, the memories of trying to find a seat after running late to the Great Hall every week an ironic parallel to now. How fitting that she was here to see an old friend, someone she hadn’t seen since those hectic times at Hogwarts.
When she finally spotted him, sat alone at a table near the far end of the restaurant, she headed over with an embarrassed grin. “Would you believe me if I said I got lost on the way here?” Tessa asked, her tone apologetic as she slid into the seat across from him. It wasn’t a total lie, but it was still a weak excuse— he was obviously more at ease in the muggle world than she ever would be.
That morning, he had woken up to an overcast sky. Sturgis had heard it somewhere ( precisely where he couldn’t recall; something told him it was in a dream ) that one could tell how the day would unfold based on the sky; if the day greeted you with brightness, it would place a good, joyous day ahead of you. A storm was quite the opposite - an ill omen, with each cloud indicating the degree of misfortune that would plague the path ahead. He’d never bought it, not even once, and especially not now. He’d even gone to bed the night before with a cheerful type of restlessness, one that only seeing an old friend could cause.
As the door to his flat closed behind him, Sturgis couldn’t come to terms with how odd it felt being back among Muggles. He couldn’t remember the last time he’d taken in London’s non-magical side. Many of his memories were blurry, or incomplete. They were puzzles with pieces missing, and no matter how much he tried to fill the gaps, it would always feel like he was trying to jam in a piece that didn’t quite fit there. He remembered the stony streets, and how little puddles would form in the cracks between one square and the other. He remembered the clinking of the coins after a purchase had been made, as well as the colorful catalog of items that were sold at the markets. It saddened him that he dropped by mostly only when there was an errand to be done, especially now, as he walked among them and remembered the blood run in those around him was the same that ran through him. He could not deny that he enjoyed the pace of non-magical life, but he thought it unkind to deject the magic part of him.
Hands dug in the pockets of his coat, his fingers drummed against the lining. He couldn’t bring himself to keep his hands static, not with that childish happiness having gotten ahold of him. Sturgis would be lying if he said he didn’t remember Tessa, or if he said he wasn’t looking forward to seeing her. Even in crowded rooms, he still felt so distant from everyone, like there was a sheer barrier isolating him from the rest of the grinning faces. It hadn’t been like that with her. He found a war’s weight dragging behind the words from conversations exchanged with others, except Tessa. He’d only heard back from her until fairly recently, when it had become clear the two were no longer children, and when the way they clutched onto their wands slapped the realization into him that the stars in their eyes had been traded for wildfires. He could smell the mixture of scents - pumpkin, sweet dough, and wood - that clung to the air in the Great Hall when conjuring a memory of themselves back then, and the vividness of the memory served to make him feel some bliss. His step picked up speed, and he stepped into the White Heart Pub swiftly, as if being a second late would make him miss her.
Sturgis didn’t think anything upon not finding her there; in fact, it wasn’t until he looked down at his watch that he realized he was there earlier than it’d been agreed on. He picked a spot further to the back ( it’d become a custom at this point - humans were creatures of habit, weren’t they? ) and waited. He looked up when hearing the bell, smiling when he spotted her approaching.
“I would. Those streets can be quite mean sometimes --” he joked lightheartedly, a remainder of a smile lingering -- “and besides, it’s just easier to use the floo network ” he leaned over to whisper. After he straightened back up, he gestured at the server, turning back to her afterward.
“What are you having?”
lucius
The Three Broomsticks was crowded. Moreso than Lucius might have anticipated, actually. It didn’t really dampen his plans, he supposed, as he had only wandered in hoping to overhear something of interest. He had come to Hogsmeade for Narcissa–more specifically, to purchase her macarons made by a particular shop. These were special, however, as the witch who made them was from Lucius’ favourite region of France. The region, actually, where Narcissa and he had spent many vacation. It housed his family’s vineyard, and he hoped the taste of the macarons would transport her back to those times. After all, he knew that his wife was, in fact, as neurotic as he was. Perhaps moreso. The tension between them was palpable and unsettling if only because he knew she feared for him after all that had been decided. It wasn’t so much a peace offering as it was a reassurance that she wouldn’t lose him or the unique face he wore only for her. His true face beneath his facades.
The food at the Three Broomsticks was hardly gourmet, and the wizard was hardly impressed. However, he knew the oddity of sitting at a bar with nothing but his work and a prettily done up box of macarons before him. A butterbeer rested off to the side and before him some concoction from the kitchen. Something he had ordered at first glance and had yet to really eat.
He hadn’t expected any sort of disturbance, but he supposed if he were less consumed in the listening to snippets of conversation–almost all of it inane thus far–he might have realized that there was absolutely nowhere else to sit. Of course, when he looked up to see who had had the boldness to request the seat at his side, he paused for only a fraction of a moment. There was an air of familiarity from the face, but he couldn’t quite place it. He remained reserved and utterly impassive. “There’s no one coming,” he responded smoothly, covering over his small lapse in speech before he made the effort to move his beverage and plate closer to himself. “Please.” His interest, he supposed, was now piqued.
A nod was sent the man’s way, a sign of thankfulness in its own way. The glass uttered a dry thud as it met the wood. Sturgis leaned back once he’d sat down, his fingers drumming against the glass. He exchanged looks with the other from time to time, yet he’d always thought it unkind to stare. Ironically, at the moment, he could not shake off the sensation that he was being watched (then again, he always did, especially as of late). His fingers found themselves clutching the glass ever so tightly now, so before his mind stuffed him with any more oddities, he raised his drinks up to his lips, not without letting out a soft “ ------ cheers” at the other. The whiskey’s tickling burn ran down his throat and into his insides, sparking a fire in his chest.
There then reigned a silence between them, not an uncomfortable kind, nor a warm one. It just was its own sort of it, an empty, dry kind of silence he’d seen far too much these days. He didn’t expect the man to say anything, nor did he feel like it was apt for him to speak with unchecked, rude freedom. Perhaps that silence was a natural side effect from the rising war, that people only spoke what they meant to speak. With each word potentially the last one, who would be foolish enough to utter unnecessary noise? People spoke in whispers, each syllable a heartbeat, a sign of life. Now, he believed few indulged in the luxury of joking, or teasing, or striking a conversation as if their lives didn’t depend on it.
For that reason, he found himself at somewhat of a loss of words. He’d grown used to talking only to those he knew, to those he’d once shielded and aided, and mostly about the same things in occasional variations; he rarely took seats next to strangers after wandering off on his own. After that night, he hadn’t truly found out whether he was craving company now more than ever, or if company had become despicable in his eyes. He’d drink to that, whichever one of the two it was. The glass touched his lips again, and he sent a polite smile the other’s way as he set the glass down.
A witch not too far of them held up a copy of the Prophet, and Sturgis was able to read the lousy headline. He scoffed softly, gesturing at the paper with a nod.
“Look’s like Crouch’s son is still nowhere to be found. Where do you reckon he might be?”
۰ WHEN: october 14th, 1979 ; 23:49 ۰ WHERE: order of the phoenix headquarters ۰ WHO WITH: caradoc dearborn ( @caradocdearbcrns )
By now, Sturgis had rested his head against his hand for so long that the pins and needles did not take long before invading every inch of his arm. He let out a yawn as he straightened his back, trying to shake the sensation off. His arm waved gently as if to shake the feeling off. As a kid, he’d spend hours laying down on the meadow by his house. He’d let his intertwined hands cushion the back of his head like a pillow, and he’d fix his eyes on the heavens as he laid on the bed of grass. The prickly feeling would start at the tips of his fingertips, taking over his hands and rendering them numb. He’d always feared that it was real ants, having somehow crept onto his skin, biting him mercilessly.
Now, before him, a copy of the Prophet stared defiantly at him. It seemed to beckon, and he could’ve sworn he could hear Rita Skeeter sneering in the distance. Sturgis knew it didn’t do him any good to read it - he’d tried it, just now, avoiding the morbid headlines and choosing to focus on the Quidditch column that was often overlooked. Surely he was bound to find some good news there, or at least something close to it. Nonetheless, no matter how many times his eyes traced the outline of the printed characters, none of it seeped into his brain. After a while, the letters’ loops and tails stopped making sense, coloring the words a sharp shade of unintelligible.
He then turned to man a few feet away -- Caradoc. Sturgis thought of him, of how he didn’t seem to be doing any better, but he was quick to regard said thoughts as unkind.
“Right. I don’t know about you --” Sturgis finally let out, half sighing. His legs and other limbs thanked him for the short-lived stretch -- “but I fancy a good cup of Earl Grey just now. You want some?”
۰ WHEN: october 14th, 1979 ; early ۰ WHERE: the ministry of magic ۰ WHO WITH: aurora sinistra ( @novisesurierit )
MINISTRY OF MAGIC !
Sturgis shut his eyes right before stepping into the chimney and letting the emerald flame engulf him painlessly. He’d made the mistake of opening his eyes in the past, and he’d ended up having to use a spell to get all the soot out of them. The trip, as always, was over in a click of the fingers. He stepped out of the chimney, almost bumping into the oncoming rivers of witches and wizards that walked down the hall. The Atrium’s sky above him welcomed him, the speckles of gold swimming around the peacock shade of blue. The sight always had a way of planting a sense of marvel deep within him in a way only magic could.
As of late, however, there’d been a lingering sense of tension filling every room. It seemed as though everyone was looking over their shoulder every five minutes, or giving one another cryptic glances. Even the day-to-day conversations he overheard on his way to his office seemed plagued with uncertainty and dread, or, on the other hand, uncharacteristic confidence that sent shivers down his spine.
The brunet heard one or two ‘excuse me’s from people whose shoulders had brushed against his, and he’d been unable to answer them before they disappeared amidst the crowd. He walked past the statue and toward the lifts. His mind was somewhere else, thinking about the paperwork that needed to be finished before midday. Luckily, he was able to catch the elevator that had just arrived. Taking notice of the oncoming brunette, he stretched out an arm and held the doors for her.
“Morning,” he greeted. “What floor?” He’d never understood what the job of an Unspeakable entailed, so exactly what department they were headed to, he did not know.
gordon avery.
Location: The Leaky Cauldron Date: October 14th, 1979
Gordon nursed a double whiskey as he flipped listlessly through the Prophet. There wasn’t much of interest in the paper, which was to be expected. He rarely even bothered with the news because he didn’t need to rely on something so primitive and so inaccurate as a daily newspaper, but it had been in front of him, and he welcomed any distraction from the dull throbbing of his head. The only thing of interest was the article about Crouch, but even that, he struggled to take seriously because Rita Skeeter would do anything for a byline, including over exaggerations and straight up mutations of fact. He finished off his drink and signaled the bartender for another – perhaps, he should have called upon Severus for a fresh batch of potions, but he wasn’t ready to confess to the alarming rate at which he’d torn through them, leaving him vulnerable and empty handed, with more muggle methods to numb the aftershocks of his vision. Crass, yes, but that didn’t diminish their effectiveness.
He felt eyes on him, and he glanced over at the person on the stool next to him. “Oh – were you waiting for this?” he asked, holding up the Prophet. He folded it up without much care and handed it over, glad to be rid of the thing. “You’re not missing much. Mostly the usual – disappearances, death, and all things depressing,” Gordon said candidly, pulling his freshly-topped-off drink towards himself and taking a hefty sip. “Someone already did the crossword too, which is a shame.” Gordon hated most word games and puzzles, actually – they always made him feel slow and grossly undereducated. But it seemed like the thing to say. “Witch Weekly, now that’s a publication,” he muttered, mostly to himself, grimacing as a particularly sharp spasm of pain went from his forehead to the base of his skull.
His fingers danced around the cup, its content long cold. There was nothing appetizing about lukewarm butterbeer (not that the dingy pub’s menu seemed any more delectable). A fingertip glided over the brim over and over, his eyes fixed on the cycles. God did he make for a miserable sight. He’d lost track of time once he’d stopped by the Leaky Cauldron, not noticing the sky shed its warmer shades and take on a dark speckled coat. In the time he’d lingered, Sturgis had spotted people come and go through the corner of the eye, each like the tick of a clock reminding him of the passing of time. Still, he’d stayed (not that he had anywhere else to be. He’d long gone through the entire stack of paperwork due by the end of the week).
Sturgis scanned the room, letting out a sigh. They stopped to admire the luncheon items listed on a chalkboard by the bar. It read, among others, house leaky soup, house soup leaky, leaky house soup, leaky soup house, soup house leaky and soup leaky house. Each word turned senseless before his gaze, and Sturgis was left feeling somewhat dizzy (yet amused nonetheless) by the end. His stomach had started grumbling by then, but he knew better than to order any of the listed dishes (especially the pea soup, known for eating people... or so he’d heard, years ago when he’d first visited the establishment).
His knees cracked as he left his seat. He thought it polite to return the glass to the server, rather than continuing to hoard it pretend he was going to finish the drink. It was 3/4 empty anyways. His attention then shifted to the man on the adjacent seat. He accepted the newspaper, muttering a soft “thanks” as he opened it. His eyes went over the headlines, each as gruesome and hollow as he’d expected them to be. The body count had risen, as had the number of reported missing persons. Suddenly he wasn’t hungry anymore.
The paper whispered as he slid his down the edge, flipping through the pages. It was then when he felt a sting on the tip of his right thumb------ OUCH. Papercut.
“I frankly don’t know why they keep printin' these. You’d think that there would be nothin' new to report,” the man had said it himself - they weren’t missing much, “but I guess people keep buyin’ it, don’t they?” Sturgis furrowed. Maybe it’s bought out of morbidity, he thought, or maybe they’re hoping to find a ray of hope somewhere amidst the sea of words. To each their own. The young man folded it and dropped it onto the table nonchalantly. “Huh. I mean, you’ve got to give it to them: isn’t that the magazine that gives out the Most Charming Smile award?” he joked.
“ strange as it may seem, i still hope for the best, even though the best, like an interesting piece of mail, so rarely arrives, and even when it does it can be lost so easily. ”
۰ WHEN: sometime after october 15th, 1979 ۰ WHERE: the three broomsticks, hogsmeade ۰ WHO WITH: lucius malfoy ( @lucius-abraxas-malfoy )
The ding of the bell that hung above the door - a sound last heard, he thought, in a dream - greeted him with the expected cheer. The scent of burning wood and firewhisky hung heavy in the air, and the conversations were driven in whispers, both the excited and uneasy kind. If Rosmerta had waved at him from across the pub, he hadn’t noticed.
Just as Sturgis had foreseen, the Three Broomsticks was nearly packed ( he didn’t know exactly why, but he was slightly surprised. He didn’t doubt that people fancied dropping by to shield themselves from the wind, but he found it odd how many had refused to stay at home that day. Good for them ). He spotted a few seats here and there, yet a coat hung on the back of each of them. The young man thought it awkward to ask; he’d rather stand or linger by the bar than interrupt people’s chats.
As his eyes drifted toward the mirror near the back of the room, he found his gaze meeting his reflection’s. The world on the other side moved slowly, dreamily even ( or at least Sturgis could’ve sworn it did ). The nonchalant waves of hands and intrigued head tilts seemed feathery to him. The brunet looked away sharply, before allowing the looking glass to swallow him whole.
“ A glass of Ogden’s Old, please, ” Sturgis ordered after he approached the bar. His fingers wrapped around the glass as he thanked the server and walked off, finally spotting an empty chair. He proceeded with caution, gesturing at the seat with his free hand as he asked the gentleman at the other end:
“ -- Is it okay if I sit? I wouldn’t want to be a bother, ” he intuited that he already was, “ if you were... waiting for someone, I mean. ”
I have this strange feeling that I’m not myself anymore. It’s hard to put into words, but I guess it’s like I was fast asleep, and someone came, disassembled me, and hurriedly put me back together again. That sort of feeling.
Haruki Murakami, Sputnik Sweetheart (via infpisme)
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» answered asks | « IS YOUR CURIOSITY SATISFIED? — answered asks. »
» ask games | « PEEP THROUGH THE KEYHOLE — ask games. »
» headcanons | « YOU’LL BLOW US ALL AWAY — headcanons. »
» inspiration | « DEATH DOESN’T DISCRIMINATE BETWEEN THE SINNERS AND THE SAINTS — musings. »
» interactions | « IN A CROWD OF THOUSANDS — chats. »
» likes | « SOMEWHERE THAT’S GREEN — likes. »
» music | « LISTEN TO THE MUSIC OF THE NIGHT — music. »
» pictures | « THE TALKING PICTURES — portraits. »
» self-paras/drabbles | « PUT YOURSELF BACK IN THE NARRATIVE — pensieve. »