deranged, disturbed, and everything blurred

[pd-ignazio]

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The name's Ignazio, but I go by multiple names due to traumagenic disordered plurality. I'd rather not disclose my bodily age, but I am a legal adult (comfortable interacting with any age range).

I have undiagnosed Cluster B personality disorders (undiagnosed because I fit the criteria for ASPD, BPD, HPD, and NPD, which makes it impossible to determine a proper diagnosis).

To be crystal clear, this blog is a vent/rant blog whose primary function is to satisfy my attention cravings. I have no DNI but will block whoever I want, whenever I want.

Welcome to hell, take a sit.

[pd-ignazio]

But what if behavioral therapy makes me lose my spark ?

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

I JUST HAD AN AMAZING IDEA. what if instead of getting pissed at people for still using the term narcissistic abuse, we reclaim it, and use it to mean pwNPD who got abused. y'all should reblog this so we can spread the word to our fellow narcissists /nf

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

empaths need to stop telling me that emotional empathy is a learned skill and that "you just need to try and you can be normal!" like, I don't want your weird ass 'empathy' y'all can't even make it through a book without crying. how are you, as you, talking? like, shut the fuck up. nobody gives a shit about how sensitive you are. pick a better person to complain to.

[pd-ignazio]

This. Empathy is a learned skill and that's precisely why I don't want it. I'm not hypocritical about it : if I don't want to feel your feelings, I'm not going to learn how to. WHY THE HELL would I put myself through all of YOUR emotions just for the sake of being "normal" ? Idgaf about being "normal", your feelings are your feelings, your empathy is your problem, and I'm fine without allat.

[pd-ignazio]

CW / TW : pathetic romantic love life of a narcissistic sociopath, eating disorder, weight loss, self harm

My ex already found someone else after our break up 8 days ago (which confirms my theory that all the promises he made were bold, ugly lies... and that he can, in fact, very much replace me). Now, don't get me wrong ; I don't care if he's happy or not anymore. I was just hoping to be right when trusting him.

Yet again, life shows me that nobody can handle me, and that people are happy when losing me. Which is weird because I'm a loyal, trustworthy and honest partner.

But anyways, now I'm single again, which means I'm going to be extra bored... might stop eating again or relapse to fill the emptiness idk. Last time I lost 4 KG in a week and thought that was kinda fun so yeah.

[pd-ignazio]

I've looked to my right,

"Narc abuse blahblahblah"

'Looked to my left,

"Murderer !!"

These partners STINK. OF. POO./ref

[pd-ignazio]

The day people know the difference between antisocial and asocial is the day we rest.

No, you are not "antisocial" because you don't have many social interactions.

No, you are not "antisocial" because you are solitary.

You are not "antisocial" because you're introverted.

Antisocial is a clinical term that describes a particular set of moral, ethical, and personal traits and beliefs. Watering it down makes you look at best uneducated, at worst stupid.