Anti Cluster B Ableism

"you like me for my personality? the same thing they named the disorder after?"

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

I've decided to make an intro post so,

hi, my name's hattie, pronouns she/her and lyre/lyric. this is a side blog for me to post about my struggles with personality disorders.

dni:

people who believe in cluster b abuse

racists

homophobes

transphobes

aphobes

anti-neopronouns/xenogenders

pro-contact paras

radqueers

pro trump

anti self diagnosis

I do have my own personal stances on other subjects, but I enjoy talking to different people and this blog helps with lows/crashes so I won't be adding more to this.

be blunt and say what you mean or use tone tags. I have difficulties reading emotion, and I tend to take things at face value

if you have any questions feel free to ask

my tags:

questions from the masses: all asks are tagged with this

hattie talks: informative posts, advice, and more similar stuff

the people adore me: general positivity about my blog

more about me under the cut

I match criteria for all four cluster b personality disorders and I'm professionally diagnosed with two. (hpd and bpd)

I'm anattractional (I don't feel attraction of any kind)

I'm seventeen

I have a twin brother, and two little sisters

I have AuDHD, severe anxiety, depression, hEDS, and fibromyalgia

I'm a pyromaniac

I'm genderfae

I love psychology, dissection, and divination (currently focused on tarot)

I'm hyper fixated on alice's adventures in wonderland

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

sorry to say, but this blog isn't going to be updating until further notice. I've gotten a string of really nasty hate messages, and social media is just upping my paranoia. I won't be deleting this blog, but I'm unsure when (or if) I'll be able to update again.

[kawaiibugzlover]

how "it's okay to have mental disorders!" mfs look at you the moment you actually display symptoms of your mental disorder:

[dodgeryy]

"Don't compliment a narcissist you'll feed their ego"

So actually the gradiosity is activated when I am ignored/neglected or not complimented. You think the trigger of my traumagenic disorder is??? Compliments???

Guys i was complimented too much and constsntly cared for as a kid and now if ur nice to me it makea me a crazy ego maniac. I will only be normal if you treat me like garbage and ignore me that is good for a person for sure.

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

yeah, we're the direct antithesis of a normal being, being treated like garbage is actually the right way to "fix" us.

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

according to the national institute of mental health, 9-15% of the population has at least one personality disorder, possibly more, due to the ego-syntonic nature of pds. at lowest, that's 747 MILLION people. 1 in 11. AT LOWEST. we're not some scary, distant possibility. there's a high chance one of your friends has one, one of your relatives, one of your teachers, maybe you.

[the-bonfires-ember]

hey to all the people that are like 'i get that narcissistic abuse is demonising people with NPD but i wish we had a word for that kind of abuse that wasnt stigmatising' i have a tip for you.

its just abuse. emotional abuse if you want to be super specific but literally just call it abuse man. its fine. abuse is complex and frankly all the 'specific' terms are just as unspecific as 'abuse' by itself.

you arent gonna be able to glue two words together to make a great and perfectly clear definition of what you experienced because thats just not how abuse works. so just get used to it being a one word thing and something you have to explain if people want to hear about it

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

amazing explanation

[thegalvanizedstaff]

btw your witty and creative friend could have npd, the family member that believes fortune tellers and always closes the windows could have stpd, the friendly neighbour that always asks how did your day go could have aspd, the not-so-talkative sweetheart you're dating could have dpd, the classmate that always shares jokes with you could have szpd. personality disorders ain't as special or rare as you think, you just don't know them enough. it's not always obvious!!

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

my disorders are a part of me, but they don't define me

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

the ultimate goal in life is to steal a lot of things that you don't, and never will need without getting caught

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

how does one deal with being an introvert and needing attention? this is a genuine question, I have cluster a and b personality disorders, I need to figure out how to function.

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

spam likers you are SO appreciated

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

People love being like "it's just puberty" if anyone shows signs of a mental disorder between the ages of 10-20 I guess

You know I don't think puberty causes me to be terribly afraid of people (both online and irl, but mostly irl) to the point of actively avoiding them and dreading the thought of just being percieved by them

-🌸📜

puberty's being used as this catch-all for mental health issues and NO. STOP. CEASE AND DESIST.

also hi!!! you're back!!!

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

my brother made a separate account to reblog the shit me and my siblings have said AND WE CAN'T DO THE SAME THING TO HIM BECAUSE THAT FUCKER DOESN'T EVER POST ANYTHING

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

STOP IT HE JUST FUCKING REBLOGGED THIS EVAN I HATE YOU

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

my brother made a separate account to reblog the shit me and my siblings have said AND WE CAN'T DO THE SAME THING TO HIM BECAUSE THAT FUCKER DOESN'T EVER POST ANYTHING

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

Lowkey ranting - not advice asking just possible relatability

Idk if you deal with compulsive and/or pathological lying but I do and ohhhh myyy goooooddddd

I literally cannot tell people about this IRL cuz they immediately think everything I've ever said is a lie 🫩 1) most the time I can't control it, it just happens and 2) when I do lie with some sort of goal in mind its about something literally can only hurt me

I don't understand why ppl get so butthurt about tiny little lies that have less than zero effect on them

It's bad enough people already think I'm hysterical cuz bpd, now everyone thinks every single word out of my mouth is a lie. So they think my emotions AND words are all false. They think I'm not mentally present enough to know anything and assume I'm extremely delusional 🫩🫩🫩🫩

God forbid a bitch with a pd think, say, feel, or do anything ig

fr, everything you said is unfortunately very real. we can't have anything

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

"it's just puberty" guys my puberty has been going on since I was ten, what do I do :(

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

First of, thank you for making this blog! People with cluster B disorders need all safe spaces they can get

Second, this blog helped me realize I likely have bpd (alongside dpd and avpd), and I plan to bring it up with my therapist sometime soon!

I'll probably return sometime but I'm also too anxious to do it off anon so I'll sign off with with an emoji combo :]

-🌸📜

I'm glad my blog is useful! (little tip: https://www.tumblr.com/shitborderlinesdo/114736826839/diagnostic-checklist-masterpost has checklists you can use to help the diagnostic process)

feel free to come back! you're always welcome!

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

I've kinda always assumed that my religious trauma was why my personality disorders developed, but I had a big fight with my mom today. like, arguably the worst we've ever had. I demanded she apologize for violating my boundaries (touching me, getting in my personal space) and she started going on about how she's sorry that she loves me (makes me sick hearing that) and that she cares and wants to be around me. I didn't really realize how self-victimizing and incapable of taking blame she is. my dad blows up, but he ALWAYS apologizes and tries to do better. he apologizes if he gets a little bit snippy when he's overstimulated. I know I'm not better than either of them, genetic predisposition is a major factor in why I'm like this, but I guess I didn't want to acknowledge how fucked up she is. I always end up feeling incredibly guilty when we fight because I start second guessing myself. I don't think she's ever given me a real apology. she gets passive aggressive when we fight and she's all the terrible things I am. like mother like daughter, I guess. she started picking at how I was too confident, and that I didn't know better than her, and she KNOWS I have massive self esteem issues. I've just started being more confident in myself and she tried to ruin it. she went on about my personal flaws and how I am rude by stating my opinions. I told her she needed to be a better parent. now we're not talking.

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

it's okay y'all we're chill now. she took me to a bookstore and bought me five new queer books so we're fine

[that-cluster-b-bitch]

nvm she just did the same thing with my little sister so I hate her again