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[peacefulme1]

I’m scared that this love might be the worst heartbreak

I’m scared that you will find better

Someone undamaged

Someone who’s not at fear of loosing you

Because they know that you would stay

I cannot open up

I cannot let my guard down

I cannot let you see what’s inside of me

Something cold is running throughout my veins

I can’t taste that sweet taste anymore

Something bitter is in the air

I’m holding on as much as I can

Before I let go

Save myself the heartache

Leaving will only make you love me more

Pushing you away , is something I’m used to

The love of my distance

[peacefulme1]

I was always the girl who gave people permission to mentally harm me

Sink they claws in to my brain and damage it

Not used to this feeling

This feeling of being attended to

Catered for

My dream standing on 1 knee ready to start a whole new world

I was always in this flawed land

Broken glass

Darkness

Looking out of windows

Searching for air , still suffocating

Oh how I begged for it to stop

But my heart still mourned

Now I have a treasure chest

A key to unlock it

Peacefulness

[peacefulme1]

I have to find away to forgive my self for allowing

All the pain

All the hurt

I wish I never met that part of me

My light was dimmed

My eyes were red

My stomach couldn’t handle it

Brain was on mars

Heart was decaying

You never knew what you have until it’s gone right

[peacefulme1]

I will find my way

[peacefulme1]

I don’t know what I’m doing right now but hopefully I get through this confusing part of my life

[peacefulme1]

You know what’s crazy y’all broke me to pieces

Right now I’m finding my peace

Bringing back the old me

The happy me the me that made me love

I have someone here that tries to wrap his arms around me

But I pull them off of me because I don’t know how to love anymore

Trying to pick up the pieces y’all left me in

But I’m at fault because I allowed the wrong people feel my heart feel like love

Now I’m on this journey finding my way

This journey is personal this is self love

[peacefulme1]

Everyday I feel so disconnected from reality and I’m in a ball of sadness I’m not sure what I should do

[peacefulme1]

Living with this mark you left on me

Imprinted in my skin

My mind is made of glass

Speak to me how you want

Don’t break that rule

Don’t come back

Begging for me

Rewriting your wrongs

My heart is as ice when it comes to you

You made me like this

Turning that warmth into cold

Get you a blanket

I just begin

[peacefulme1]

I need people around me who trying to better themselves not go down hill

[peacefulme1]

Everyday I come to a realization that not everyone is walking on the same path you walk on

[peacefulme1]

I love the fact you tried to disturb my peace

[peacefulme1]

At the end of the day you’ll never get to touch my soul again …

[peacefulme1]

When you carry yourself as if you don’t care about yourself then that’s how you are viewed as a person

[peacefulme1]

I’ll be somewhere better soon , some roads are bumpy !!!

[peacefulme1]

I don’t even know who I am anymore…….

[peacefulme1]

I look back at myself and I wonder how could I let you go through that without pulling you out of that hole you were drowning and I didn’t save you from those tears flooding upon your pillow he messed you up completely and then you went and found another killer and after that you found a murderer now your reborn and your stronger I’m not ashamed of what I been through I just wish i didn’t have to go through that to be the person I am today but now I’m at peace and no one can take that from me , they can try to reconnect but they will only get disconnected I’ll never spin the block I’ll never let you feel on me the way you did just so you can murder me again stabbing me in the back in ways i cant explain unable to defend myself bleeding out you didn’t care , I slipped right throw your fingers you’ll never be able to grab me again flying away in the wind landing on someone you deserves my ride I would say good bye but there’s nothing good about goodbyes there forever …..

[peacefulme1]

Fuck your ego

Sometimes it’s hard to hold on to

Sometime it’s slips right through my fingers

In a matter of seconds I could be floating on water

In a matter of seconds you couldn’t reach out for me

Calling no answer

Silent but yet so loud

Screaming but no words

You saw that glare in my eyes

You fell inlove with

Unable to hold on

Unable to make it work

You were incapable of love

You were unworthy of my love

I’m no longer interested

I’m no longer tolerating it

Dishonesty something I can match

If I light this match will the wind blow out the fire

Or was there any fire to blow out to begin with

Pathetic excuse of a man wasting time nobody has

Heart so careless,making me ill , just to boost your ego

Fuck your ego

Fuck your pride

I’m going to make it most of karma a bitch , she gonna hit you were it hurts , don’t cry now

Be prideful