don't you know you make me sad and happy at the same time,
you remind me of all the good things i have said no in the past,
all the futures i have turned my back from.
and now that i'm finally ready to let someone in for real,
you treat it like it's not a big deal, like you always had
a line of people ready to open themselves at your leisure.
and i'm not like everyone, i'm not those countless of minds
you have easily pried secrets from, offered to you even.
i wish you know that.
and if i only knew beforehand, i would have said yes to all the lost opportunities
i let slip past my fingers. just so we would never have been
at the right time and right place.














