Heloo

I like peach tea and mangos

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i am 20 years old but i still want to sleep in the heat of my Mother's bed, tucked safely into Her side

i want to be held close as she hums me melodies and tells me it's all ok

but i am 20 years old and i stoped fitting into Her side years ago and i haven't stepped foot in Her room in so long

and i am 20 years old and the 20 year olds around me are happy to be away but i want my Mom i want Her bed that smells of lilac and lint Dad's cologne and Her perfume i want her to hold me and sing me to sleep

because i am only 20 years old and i am only just learning who i am and i'm scared of Who that is.

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If a fish was meant for water.

And a bird was meant for sky.

then I was made,

molded by God’s calloused hands,

to hold your name on my tongue

like the moon holds the suns light,

to fit inside your arms

like an animal burrowing deep for the night ,

I was created,

carved by God’s sharp tools,

to love you like a breath of morning dew

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We all still live under the same moon

not me tho, I’ve never even seen the moon

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It Goes Deeper

It beckons me come closer

It goes deeper

Twisting tunnels in deep damp darkness

Here we are warm

and here we are safe

Join us in the tunnels trade sight for serenity

It goes deeper

far into the ground

Mother Earth cradles our carcass close

And sings us buzzing mumbling songs sung

by cicadas and crickets

Deeper still and we are safe in packed earthy dirt

Deeper still and we curl close to companions in cozy burrows

Deeper still and we are loved by the limited air itself

Come close

Come deeper, into our world.

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There is a crack in my curtains that lets a sliver of yellow light lay in a thin line on my bed.

Sometimes on dark cold nights I curl utop the covers like a centipede and I disappear

I pretend I’m a bug in a cardboard box

Bugs don’t have to pay taxes.

I pretend I’m a Caterpillar, finishing my last leaf and lying idly in a sunny spot, ready for a restful sleep

I pretend to be a Worm, listening to drowsy rain knowing that if I don’t move soon this comforting sound will turn to a rushing crushing wet death

I pretend I’m an Asian Beetle, perfectly pretending I’m a perfectly red ladybug and running the long con as socially pretty

Sometimes I pretend I am not a human who is evading concerned watching eyes and close social ties

Sometimes I pretend to not be a human who has due dates and the option of too many fates

Sometimes I’m not a human in a small rented room with a bit too much mildew and doom

Sometimes, when I lay in the yellow line I am nothing more than a moth whose only thought is “this light is quite fine.”

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I finally found this photo I made ages ago, I only knew it existed cause I have it as my screensaver.

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