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If any one is wondering

I have been extremely busy the last few weeks and I have not had time or even the brain power to post anything. Most of my days I am at work while at night I am in school or studying and doing homework assignments. I’d like to say that I will adjust my schedule to fit in some time to write, but that is not a priority in my life right now. Only reason I am here now is because I felt…

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Random Thoughts

What is your favorite time of the day? My favorite time of day is usually the time from sunset to dusk. Depending on the season, mostly fall is when I enjoy this time of day. The sun is setting and the hues of orange, yellow and sometimes red are covering the sky. The trees have slightly turned color, living in LA you don’t get much of the leaves change until winter. The air is starting to cool…

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Brand New Week, Same Emotions

Well that last post was a bit dramatic. Don’t get me wrong I still resonate with is and how I was feeling at that moment. After speaking with my therapist about it I realized that I was letting a lot of things dwell in my mind than processing and moving on. I started to fixate on the negative moments I was having with my family instead of in simpler terms “getting over it”. I hate that. The…

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Getting Real

It’s starting to get bad again. I can feel myself falling into the depression that I thought I had tamed. It feels as if I am trying to race the tornado of emotions that are trying to destroy me. A part of me is wondering if my mind wants me to feel my emotions. I have been so numb for the last few weeks, and it’s as if my mind is trying to make me feel something. Don’t get me wrong I have…

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Random Thoughts

Why are most people obsessed with murder/serial killer documentaries and podcast? I could just be portraying my personal obsession. However, I know many women that are very intrigued with these types of media. In my case specifically, I love listening to murder podcast likes “Morbid”, “Crime Junkie”, and “My Favorite Murder” to name a few. I listen to these podcasts religiously, and when I first…

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Back on the school grind

It has been 3 weeks since I have been out of my house for work. It has been about 2 weeks since I have been out and about with people because I had Covid. It feels weird that the week I am back in the office is the same week I start school. A part of me is waiting for me to freak out and have a panic attack about having to attend class tonight. While the other part of me does not have the time…

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It's Been a While

It’s Been a While

A lot has happened since I last posted. Not much really has happened since then, except that my ankle is doing a lot better. Still feel a sort of tightness in much muscle and I cannot turn my ankle in certain ways. Had to work from home almost all week up until I finally had an opportunity to work with a client. It was a little embarrassing walking in with a boot for two days’ and painful, but I…

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Clumsy

This past Saturday, I fell. The most embarrassing thing is that I fell in front of like 20+ people, to which I knew like 4 of them only? Falling in front of a bunch of strangers is embarrassing, but also the fear of like crap I messed up my ankle, again. A little over three years ago I broke my right ankle at a festival. Was I intoxicated yes, I was, but it also didn’t help that I was wearing…

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Figuring it out

I am trying to decide exactly how much I want to post on my blog, as well as figure out if I want my posting to be long. Of course, the most important thing is figuring out what I want to write and share with those who visit my page. I wanted to treat this blog like a diary, but I don’t want to get too personal about some parts of my life. However, I think expressing how I am feeling about…

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Tired

It is no surprise that everyone in this world feels tired more often than energized each day. They wake up tired, they go to work tired, they do social activities tired and of course they go to sleep tired. Several people might not understand this sense of tiredness all the time and suggest drinking some coffee! Drink water when you’re dehydrated, sleep earlier to get more hours of sleep, working…

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Random Thoughts

Do you have a song that makes you emotional and yet so happy in a way that feels nostalgic and at peace? It is extremely hard to describe this feeling, but when you have it, it’s like having every emotion and feeling at the same time. This song that when you hear it your whole body in a way feels lighter and a slight feel of timeliness all over. I am not sure if that is even a word but to put it…

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What am I doing here?

I ask this question more than I’d like to answer. The answers are usually generic: working, eating, studying, reading and sleeping. Whatever generic response I give myself is not enough. It’s like my mind is constantly asking and hoping for a better response that I honestly cannot give it. I am just working, those 40 hours a week keep me busy, while in school I study or attend classes. I try to…