the uncertain

i have a sapphic agenda - cql sideblog - jiang cheng defence squad -  call me pearl - she/her -  kenyan/british. 

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hi

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IF AO3 GOES DOWN PERMANENTLY ILL LOSE MY XICHENG FANFIC FOREVER NOOOO

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just before the comeback too how are we going to organise streaming and buying... im stressed

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im so sad i built a wonderful community of people on that app who loved txt as much as me and liked me, it was seriously an escape and safe place for me, and capitalism just had to ruin it

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elon musk has fucked up twitter so im back (i was on kpop stan twitter what happened to me)

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what if i said im back on my bs and after commencing a hyperfixation on txt am back to mdzs since i seem to use it as comfort during exam periods (disregard my earlier posts regarding my hatred of kpop i would lay down my life for tomorrow x together)

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Orestes by Euripides, 408 BCE (trans. Anne Carson)

[ep 42]

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back in my the untamed era

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The burn of the fabric around my neck

My eyes looking back at me from the mirror

Red and leaking

My hands trembling: too tight and then too loose

I fall and breathe harshly into the carpet

My head is too full and too empty

I go back to bed

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the devastating moment of realisation that your hallway crush in the year above you that you mildly obsess over really has no idea you exist

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update for the 0 ppl who liked this post: he stepped down cus he was in yr 13. i want to die

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Headers de MDZS: O Fundador Da Cultivação Demoníaca

like if save/use or © paixaode_fan

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Art by  ronpu_cooing

Posted with Permission (reprint/edit and/or commercial use prohibited)

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cypher part 3 by bts got them medieval ass beats

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i look back through the cracks of my flaws,

through the broken scars of the years i see

the blurry face of the girl i used to be

unrecognisable before the woman i am today.

my face hasn’t changed the way my eyes have-

time hasn’t altered the texture of my hands

the way my heart has shifted and cracked and grown.

outside differences cannot comprehend the inside of my heart.

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the constant usage of terms like 'civilised' 'like us' 'European' to express why this conflict is so horrendous is sickening to me - are situations like yemen and afghanistan and palestine ok because white people aren't affected? is it normal or acceptable for the people in those countries to go through tragedies? do the people not feel pain? oh yes... the causes of these people's suffering are funded and supported by the west. also why is western news talking as if so many people in the west don't come from those areas? 'like us' - no they aren't. the people who are like us are the ones whose suffering you seem to view as acceptable because you don't see them as humans. i empathise deeply for the people of ukraine and think what they are going through is something no people should ever have to go through, but why is it only this that gets the west's attention and outrage?

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yeah the treatment of poc in ukraine is terrible but pls for gods sake don't say you're going to support russia beacuse of it that's all kinds of fucked up

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oh yeah and im so pissed that kpop fans are always like 'oh but they apologised' whenever u bring up something problematic their faves did like their company didnt make them

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things kpop fans need to realise (dont send hate, i listen to kpop)

1) black kpop stans rlly need to realise their faves are probably racist at worst and never going to date a black person at best. have some self respect pls.

2) boy groups are probably mostly misogynistic and homophobic - they're just men, also spending ur entire time around other men and being worshipped by thousands of woman is going to lead to some issues

3) that is not their real personality - tbh they're either massively depressed or have a massive ego and superiority complex

4) theyre never going to date fans

5) shipping real ppl is gross and problematic

6) they're allowed to have private lives - the current culture of wanting to know everything about them is toxic, and for the love of god normalise dating

7) south korea is not a fairytale wonderland of cute boys and girls - its a normal country with problems like any other (e.g. racism, xenophobia, homophobia, misogyny, poor worker's rights)

8) the kpop industry is capitalism on steroids. it's soulless and manufactured. everything you see is fake. pls dont illusion yourself

9) lots of ur faves were chosen mostly for their looks. imagine all the talent that gets lost because a person wasn't deemed the beauty standard. the idea of having 'visuals' in groups is gross

10) most idol rappers (or korean rappers in general) are complete shit and have nothing on western artists. they take black culture, twist it into some of the worst and most cringe rap ive ever heard, are blatantly racist, and get praised for it