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N A V I G A T I O N

" i have loved you so deeply just like the ocean, but oh dear— little did i know that you couldn't swim. "

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— via letsbelonelytogetherr

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i have a lot of love to share and i'm so forgiving. but when i feel betrayed, i could easily cut off that person and pretend they never existed in my life.

[deviika]

—Fyodor Dostoevsky

[get-jinxedxd]

I'm such a fucking sucker for yearning, is it so stupid to like the idea of something because the possibilities are endless if they never come? Is it so stupid to want something but never being able to have it, just because the tight strings in your chest being tugged like puppeteering knobs feel like you're about to burst yet there's nothing that'll come out in the end other than my still-beating heart?

Is it so bad, to want to be hurt just to feel the comfort of an idea that'll never come.

[thehopefulquotes]

“I need to stop fantasizing about running away to some other life, and start figuring out the one I have.”

— Holly Black

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sometimes i wonder, "do i really like enemies to lovers?" or do i just lose hope in people who claimed to love me, so i crave affections from someone who resents me instead?

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i wanna die but i'm scared. and to keep on living is just as scary.

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Manhwa's that i'm currently reading

Omniscient Reader

Solo Leveling

Betrayal of Dignity

Under The Oak Tree

The Archduchess of The North Was Secretly A Villainess

I Don't Love You Anymore

Dreaming Freedom

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i'm tired of being an INFP.

i'm tired of living in a world that only i know exists. a world that gives me safety despite all the mess and chaos it has. a world that i consider home.

it's beautiful, really, to live in your own head...

but beauty is d e c e i v i n g .

i could easily be drawn into a different reality by the second i switch the button, and escape this cruel world. however ...

at the same time i realize that the reality i create in my mind is just fantasy and i have to pull myself back to the reality— which is the hardest part of this mind game.

the more i find it hard to pull myself to the reality, the more i am reminded that i don't have full control over myself in this world, that i am just a loser trying to cope with their pathetic makeshift world.

it saddens me.

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list of books I should buy / read

FICTIONS :

Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint ( on production )

It Ends with Us ( Collen Hoover )

NON-FICTIONS :

Ego is The Enemy ( Ryan Holiday )

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[helpful-writing-tips]

if you write a strong character, let them fail.

if you write a selfless hero, let them get mad at people.

if you write a cold-hearted villain, make them cry.

if you write a brokenhearted victim, let them smile again.

if you write a bold leader, make them seek guidance.

if you write a confident genius, make them be wrong, or get stumped once in a while.

if you write a fighter or a warrior, let them lose a battle, but let them win the war.

if you write a character who loses everything, let them find something.

if you write a reluctant hero, give them a reason to fight.

credit:@aj-eddy

[velvetgurl]

ik i’m fine on my own but where is the love of my life

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the love letter in my dream:

*) ... : I forget that part

*) bold text : things i remember vividly.

dɘar (my name)

............. i miss you.

you don't know how much i wanna know, how are you? have you eaten yet? did you sleep enough? ......

...........

i will come to your graduation.

...........

[synthcult]

Dream interpretation readings

hello everyone! i am opening my (free) dream interpretation readings for a bit. you can either reblog and describe your dream here, or go to my ask box here. i will not interpret nsfw dreams (aka sex dreams). i will interpret anything else you feel might mean something but you’re not sure of.

 reblogging this post to spread it to others is also okay and encouraged since i have like no followers but i enjoy doing these things! 

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you're supposed to have the strangest dream when you're sick, or when you have fever right?

so i've been feeling unwell, so i took a nap. and I had a dream, someone gave me a love letter and I FUCKING READ IT.

I JUST FOUND OUT THAT I CAN READ IN MY DREAM???

the love letter was written in ENGLISH (which isn't my first language) and by HAND, but istg the sender had a handwriting of a 5yo 😂

also some of the " e " were written backwards => " ɘ " .

the worst part is, i knew the sender. and now i can't stop thinking about them.

though in that dream i didn't meet them, the ones who gave me the love letter were my chilhood bestfriends.

aight, i think i'm gonna write down the love letter as best as i could remember.

also find out what does this dream mean.

( but if anyone is willing to do some interpretation of my reading, i would be very thankful 💙 )