[medusagirlfriend-blog]

it’s literally good for the soul to write shitty poetry and never show it to anyone

[kafk-a]

Mary Oliver

[dirbyagnesvarda]

When I Grow Up I Want to Be a List of Further Possibilities, Chen Chen

[gypsyastronaut]

[gypsyastronaut]

[blxckberrying]

34. What is the shape of your body? Angel: an intense tension in her left shoulder blade, as if she is growing a wing. I know that she experiences her mouth as a smeared gesture: paint, fingers. In words, then? Sometimes she feels that her body is open to the air. There is nothing that separates her from herself. She does not exist. She can’t exist. If she existed, her wholeness would be irrelevant; a lit match. She’s watching it burn. It burns like cream. As soon as she writes these things, she knows they are not true. Angel. The only word she knows in Spanish. Smoky gelatin. Everything is different now.

Bhanu Kapil, from “A Vertical Interrogation of Strangers”

[pleasereturntoheaven]

Teen Suicide - Hymn 2

[manjirou-sano]

The Adderall Diaries (2015) dir. Pamela Romanovsky

[r-siken-deactivated20210531]

driving, not washing, richard siken

[kingikana-deactivated20170826]

[mournfulroses]

“Plath had dared to do something quite different. She had dared to write hate poems, the one thing I had never dared to write. I’d always been afraid, ever in my life, to express anger.”

— Anne Sexton, from No Evil Star: Selected Essays, Interviews, and Prose;“How Does A Poem Come Into Being,”

[hamyilton]

is this hamilton

[flowerytale]

Florence and the Machine – June

[pastperfectcontinuous]

reading list: depression

Jenny Zhang, “How It Feels”

Keguro Macharia, “On Quitting”

Eloghosa Osunde, “To Post, or Not to Post?”

Leslie Kendall Dye, “It Isn’t That Shocking”

Nina Li Coomes, “憂鬱 (Yuutsu): When Mental Health Is Mistranslated”

Ella Wilson, “Take Care: Mothers, Daughters, And Inheriting Self-Hatred”

Andrew Solomon, “Anatomy of Melancholy”

Miya Tokumitsu, “Tell Me It’s Going to be OK”

Heather Havrilesky, “The Miracle of the Mundane”

Katie Heaney, “5 Books to Read if You Have Social Anxiety”

Hannah Jane Parkinson, “It’s nothing like a broken leg’: Why I’m done with the mental health conversation

Philippa Snow, Reading Joan Didion in The Midst of Depression

Kim McLarin, Outrunning Eshu: On Finally Seeking Treatment for Depression

[derangedrhythms]

“you are a kind of terrible part of me — I do not know how to disorganize myself. I have grown into this. No way back. No way at all.”

— Anne Sexton, A Self-Portrait in Letters; to W. D. Snodgrass, 11th March 1959⁠

[hijodelagua]

“I am the Goddess no one wants but all must seek. I am the Mother of all loss.”

— Galina Krasskova, “The Oracle of Ereshkigal”

[violentwavesofemotion-deactivat]

“Her stare, that of an animal, met my own animal stare.”

— Alexander Blok, from The Selected Poems of Alexander Blok; “On The Dunes,”